I feel miserable today. I hate feeling miserable. My sister is leaving today. Ellie is her name. She's off to the UK for a job, not for long though. That's what she claims anyway. She says it will be year and apparently that's 'not for long'.
She's there for me every day and the thought of not having her there makes me miserable. It's a silly, selfish reason but I never hide my feelings. I begged her to stay but then I realised it was no use so now she's off to the UK.
Ellie's 19, turning 20 next month. I'm 17, turning 18 in two months. There's not much to our lives. Parents divorced, back together, divorced and our mum is never home, always moving in with some 'new guy' she makes an appearance here and there but we hate her and she knows but she still comes back, a drunk state, usually high on some kind of drug and expects us to look after her like we're some kind of ducking hotel. I'm old enough to live on my own now but it's going to be really hard. I don't want her to go, I'm not ready.
We live in Melbourne in a huge house. It's my dads house but we live here because my mum doesn't have a job. Ellie's trying so hard to get a job to keep things going because one day, Dad won't be able to keep up with the bills. Our dad bailed on us, but he still loves me and Ellie and he wishes the very best for us.
"You'll be fine, do you hear me?" Ellie was saying to me.
"Yes, I *hear you." I replied, irritated that Ellie was talking to me like a child even though it's exactly how I felt.
"No house parties. Honsstly Lace, its the last thing you need to handle right now."
"I know I know!" I was getting impatient. "Your going to miss your flight, go!"
"ok." Ellie smiled at me reassuringly. I was sat on the stone wall in front of our front garden and the stones were digging in all of a audden. The clouds were darkening and the sun was hiding.
"Bye, sweetie." She kissed me on the forehead and gave me a hug. You could feel a burning hot tear trickle down your cheek.
"I'm going to miss you."
"Me too. Call me when you get there." And it was more true than ever, you were going to miss the advice, the tiny arguments, the laughs and the deep conversations.
"Just a year." You whispered to yourself reassuringly. Ellie was getting into the black taxi then she was gone and you were left all alone in the big house. You were *scared. After a few mknutes sat on your bed doing nothing you eventually decided to call your best friend, Luke.
"Lacy!" Luke answered his phone. He was one of two identical twins, and unbelievably good looking but you had never thought of him in a way of anything other than a best friend.
"Hi Lukey. Ellie's gone." You sighed.
"Oh." He said. "Do you want me to come over?"
"If you wouldn't mind."
"Anything for lacy!" You heard his boyish laughing and giggled too. You hung up and waited for the doorbell to sound. The house was silent and you didn't like it. This house had seen many things that had happened in my childhood and I don't feel safe here without Ellie. But it's stupid really because I'm in Year 11. I don't need to have someone looking after me, I can cope.
Suddenly the door sounded and pierced through the silence that filled the house. It's startled me and my thoughts but I jumped off the bed and hurried down. You opened the door and found Luke in his beanie, white top and denim three quarter lengths.
"Luke." You were so glad to see him and threw your arms around him and hugged him tight.
"Whoa Lace." He returned the hug then I threw my arms back and beckoned him through to the house and upstairs. He shut the door behind him and came running up to catch me up. Luke knew this house inside out but I'm sure he didn't feel the unsafe aura around it.
"You're missing her already?" He said when we had both reached the bed and flopped on it.
"Yep." You popped 'p'. "I hate living in an empty house with no one-"
"I have an idea!" Luke suddenly interrupted. I moaned into my pillow.
"Lukey, your ideas never work."
"Wait, here me out."
"Fine."
He smiled in satisfactory.
"I'll come live with you!"
"Yay." I said sarcastically with no enthusiasm at all.
"Lace, seriously though. Do you want me too?" I nodded sheepishly.
"But what will your mum say?"
"She won't give a shit if its you because coincidentally, last year she was going to be going away for half a year and it would be just me, Jai and Beau and she said we were aloud one friend to come live with us."
"Oh, you never told me."
"It was never confirmed."
"Oh ok then." I smiled. It would be good to have Luke with me. He was like a brother but as much as I love him he didnt substitute for Ellie but he would do.
"I'm so excited, it's going to be loads of fun!" He said.
"When do you want me to bring my things over?"
"Now, if you like. It would give us something to do." Luke jumped off the bed and went downstairs and I followed him. I locked the door after me and we went down the street to Luke's house. Beau and Jai were there making another video.
"Wait, what are you doing?" Luke said, irritated.
"You went round your girlfriends house." Beau said grinning.
"And we got bored." Jai added. "Calm down, it's only a twitcam."
"Say hi to Luke! yaaaaaay." Beau said as he turned the laptop round to me and Luke.
"Everyone's asking who you are." Jai said glancing up at me from his phone.
"I'm a friend." I said. I was so used to Beau and Jai calling me Luke's girlfriend, but quite a few thousand then soon 100s of thousands would be too much.
"Whatever." Beau said. "She's Luke's friend guys." He said to the laptop.
"Anyway, stay here I'll go ask mum." Luke said to me. I sat on the big chair behind the laptop so I couldn't be seen.
"What's Luke going to ask?" Jai mumbled whilst on his phone, happy scrolling through tweets.
"Well, Ellie's gone so hopefully Luke can come stay with me."
"Oh yeah. What, like, live with you?"
I faked gasped. "Yes!"
"Aw, no fair I wanna come and get out of this shithole."
"Fine by me, if your mum let's you." He jumped up and ran to find his mum and brother.
"You wanna come too?" I joked to Beau.
"nope." he said popping the 'p.' "I wanna get away from those two annoying idiots." You laughed. Jai and Luke came back with an excited look on their face.
"We can!" Thy both said in unison. You looked over to Beau. "Well have fun." You went with Jai and Luke to their room and sat on their bed while they packed.
"Don't forget I have a washing machine." I reminded them as I looked at the amount of clothes they were packing. They wouldn't be seen wearing anything unfashionable.
"I can't believe Ellie's gone." Jai mumbled.
"Huh?" Luke said.
"Nevermind."
"I can't hear whatever the fuck you're saying."
"Shut the fuck up then!" I smirked. It was funny when the boys argued. A few minutes later the boys were done.
"Done."
"Done." They both said.
"Lets go." I said. When the three of you had got back your mum was there waiting on the doorstep. Her hair was in a messy not on her head and she was wearing a leapord print 'dress' I which her boobs were nearly hanging out and it was *just covering her bum. she had a bottle of whiskey in hand and her make up was smeared across her face.
"For fucks sake." What the fuck? Why the fuck is she here?
"Mum." I said simply.
"Aw, Lace it's good to see ya-" She went for a hug but I blocked her.
"What's wrong?" She said.
"Just fuck off." She looked furious. She went to slap me. You let out small scream then the boys came from round the corner. Mum went for it again.
"Get the fuck off her!" Jai shouted. Luke pulled me away and you felt yourself tear up.
"You selfish bitch!" I started shouting. Where was Ellie? She wouldn't of done this, she wouldn't have let this happen. She would have stayed calm and told me to go upstairs while she rang Jai. Jai was Ellie's boyfriend. Everyone thought he was way too you g for her but their love was real, I swear it. Then they broke up when Ellie went to England.
"Ellieeeeeee!" I shouted. I need her now, I felt like she could help me even though she wasn't here. But I was wrong, I just wanted her help and needed it.
"Where is she?" Mum yelled.
"On a plane! On sorry, didn't we tell you? She's getting a job to try and pay the bills you don't pay while your off shagging some tramp!" She gasped. She ran for me again and Luke defensively stepped infront of me and earned the slap himself. It was more of a punch really. He let out a cry of pain and Jai immediately grabbed the bags they had dropped, grabbed my hand and Luke's arm and briskly walked, almost jogging away from the house.
"I'm so sorry-" You started saying.
"No."
"Yes! I went off on her it was my fault!"
"No!" Luke repeated. He had a tone in his voice that I didn't want to argue with, not now.
"Are you ok?" I asked quietly.
"Yeah." He tried to wipe the blood off his face but just smeared it.
"Come here, you." I hugged him hard. "Thank you," you said then pulled away to turn to them both. "Both of you." They both shrugged.
"Where the fuck are we going to go?" Jai asked.
"Well...My mum will clear off when it starts getting dark. Maybe I should stay at your house for a couple of days."
"Yeah sure." Luke said. "But you haven't got your stuff which means we'll have to back."
"No." I panicked. "I'll wear yours or your mums...or something! But I can't go back, Luke, I can't."
"Ok." He said.
"She's a bitch." He said, referring to his bloody face.
"Yep." I said popping the 'p.'