Painful Truth

Mirror

As I look at you, I wonder how I feel about you,
I hate your smile, because it holds no truth,
Yet you try to be honest as you can be, but no one what's that,
You push everyone away, afraid of hurting,
Yet you avoid pain all together, wishing to be numb,
When I look at you, I avoid your eyes,
Wishing you'd look at mine,
I wonder if you care,
But you're careless, not minding your own safety,
Wishing it all go away,
I hate you, you know this,
You bring me down, taking away my happiness,
You put thoughts in my heads, knowing they aren't true,
I still believe you,
I look at you, and see a shell,
You want to be strong, yet you still take me down,
I hate what you made of me,
The tears are nothing new,
The anger is nothing new,
The sadness is nothing new,
You are nothing new,
No matter what I can do,
I can't get rid of you,
You are part of me,
Something about you, makes me stay,
Why do I stay with you,
You're killing me,
You will be the death of me,
But I love you,
I can't live without you,
Yet I want you gone,
When I look at you, I wonder how I feel about you,
I see a shell, that once was a child,
I see a being, that could be happy,
I see me