I got home feeling EXHAUSTED!
I swear, controlling this thing is worse than it taking over. I felt like I was hidden deep inside my own body.
I hope the training tomorrow won't be as painful as it was 2 hours ago.
My entire body was actually aching. I did more screaming than when I gave birth to that... thing.
So my throat is also sore.
I climbed into bed and tried keeping still.
One move and it'll feel like a violent blow to my body.
Even the crying I did internally was more than normal.
The punches, throwing into trees and so on, felt bone-breaking. Although, no bones were broken.
It wasn't until the end of the 3-hour training I was able to stop the demon and take back possession of my own body.
I honestly never thought that a person like me could ever be in this much pain.
Well... Half demon/ half-person but you know what I mean. Then this was the only day one of at least 21 days, but it should get easier... right?
He already told me I'll have to accept the whole demon thing, but this training will control it. That is of course until he or I find a way to reverse the deal.
I pulled myself from my sea of thoughts to look at the alarm clock. 1:05 am. I look around the room for a while wondering about Bella. When is she even gonna come out of the hospital? One of us always seem to find ourselves in the hospital every 2 to 5 weeks, I swear.
After a while, I walked to the bathroom, opened the door and turned on the faucet to fill the bathtub. I threw in a Galaxy bath bomb and waited for it to fill up. Finally- I get to bathe and relax in warm water. The feel of it is just wanting to jump at me. The steam appeared to rise up and wrap around me as if inviting me into the now lukewarm water. I stepped in eager to stop the pain on some parts of my body. As I sank in, a wave of relief washed over me. As if on cue the pain felt like it wasn't there anymore; ridding me of one less stress. When I had enough, which is about 1 hour, of relaxation I cleaned myself, drained the shower and went into my room to dry off.
"I see you found a solution." A voice sounded behind me.
"Fuck, shit!"
I slipped but held onto the wall. How the hell did he get in here?!
"Uh, Through the window." He sarcastically replied.
Did he just?-
"Read your mind. Yes?" I watched him." You're not only you can do that, hun."
He had the biggest smirk on his face. I just wanted to slap him so hard that he'd -
"Uh uh uhn. No violence.."
"Would you just stop fucking taunting!?"
"cough words cough"
....
Dick head.
"What are you doing here?" Not gonna ask how he found me.
"To drop this off so "you" wouldn't go on hunting mania."
He held up a bag and placed it on my bed, where he was sitting.
Is that...
"I- is that a dead-"
"Rabbit? Yes."
I turned my head the opposite direction and tightened my towel around my body, as reassurance. I cleared my throat before recomposing myself.
I turned around facing him, only to see he was a few inches from me. Not much personal space at home, I see.
"Whoa! Arm's length, buddy."
He stepped back and put his arms up in surrender for a while.
It took me a while to notice he was trying not to eye rape me so I decided to cut this surprise visit he gave me, short.
"Alright! Uh, thank you for this... Uhm... animal... *clears throat* I know that it'll be gone by the morning time... so if that's all you came to say then you can, like.. leave."
"Oh. Uh. Yeah. No prob." He backed up but kinda bumped into the bed in the process. Oy. " I'll see you tomorrow. Same time "
He informed then went to the window. Just as I thought he was gonna climb out he looked back at me. Oh, he was expecting an answer??
"Ugh, fine. Now go."
He finally climbed out of the window and left. I proceeded to put on some clothes and then sat on the bed. To be honest, I wasn't even tired. Shawn literally had me excited yet exhausted for the rest of this training. Just as I was fiddling with my fingers, thinking of what to do later on today, my dad walked in.
He turned on the lights and walked to me with his arms crossed on his chest. I just stared at him then looked away. I had no intentions AT ALL to deal with him or my mom. So what if I won't talk to them for a month? They go away weeks at a time and there's no big deal!
"Zendaya," I rolled my eyes and sat facing the window. "Don't be like that. We need to talk."
"So now you want to talk? Both of you are rarely even home, and now you want to 'talk'? Having me wonder what the hell is going on with me and you come in here, to 'talk'? I know you're trying to hire a priest or some shit to help me but guess what! I already have someone helping me. More willing than any if you ever had.!" I finally snapped.
His mouth was agape but no words came out. That astounded? Woooww.
"Now, what do you wanna talk about?"
He gave a stern look before heading towards the door. When his hand went on the knob and he was about to leave he said something.
"Get to sleep. You should get a headstart of getting ready before your mother. You have a therapy session."
Before I could respond he went and closed the door.
I flopped onto the bed with a frustrated groan. I literally just told him no and he still. Ugh. Why!?
Well... its gonna be a long ass day.
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How the hell did they even manage to me in the waiting area?
Did they drug me??
I quickly went through my mom's mind. Yup. A whole bottle of chloroform.
How did that even knock me out???
I looked over to where she was standing. Marks from my nails were traced along a part of her hand.
That's right b*tch, I'll fight you. Fight me!
After a while I saw a Chinese descent woman come out, talking to my parents. For once, I didn't wanna eavesdrop.
I just wanted to find my way out of this big ass building.
It was actually very properly oriented to be so high off the ground. And I'm talking like 30 stories.
Now, all I wanted to do right now was pee. So I went to the bathroom only to be stopped by security. They literally blocked the way.
" Wha! Can't a girl do her business??"
He just kept a straight face and motioned me to go back.
Oh. I guess he knows my records. Snitches are b*!**es, ay?
Once my parents finally stopped talking, the lady motioned for me to follow. For once a kind woman.
Once we stepped into her room I was amazed.
Paintings and what I'm guessing is her own art, adorned the walls.
"Have a seat" she instructed and for once, I immediately obeyed.
I sat on the couch with an emoji pillow, and of course, I held on to it.
She pulled her chair to sit beside me.
" Hi. " She held her hand out for me to shake it.
I hesitantly took it then proceeded with hugging the pillow. My hair, almost dark as ebony slid over my shoulders. She clicked her pen as if she didn't know what to say.
Shit, am I that scary??
"So my name is Ms. Brenda Song. But you can call me ms. Brenda, or just Brenda. What's yours?"
"Zendaya."
"Oh! That's unique. And, to proceed with today's session do you mind me asking a few questions?"
"Shoot."
It was wanting to emerge and shout "no f*** off". Heck, I wanted to say no.
"So what's your age?"
"I'm now 18," I cut her off from any other questions by my responding at once. " I attend L.A. school of arts and I have no medical history." Except for being at the hospital once or twice.
She gave a slight smile and nodded.
"It's like you're psychic. You're so fast!"
" yeah." *slightly flips hair*
"So do you know why you're here?"
"I'm guessing it's because my parents think I'm -retarded and possessed."
She looked stunned.
"I'm sure you're not-" you don't know.
I showed her a picture of me 4 months ago.
She looked at the picture then at me then at the picture again.
"Are you... are you using makeup??" She glanced at the picture, then me.
What the??
"No..."
"so pale"* she whispered as she wrote something down.
"Are we gonna continue or?"
"Ok, I'm gonna do an inkblot test."
A whoi whati now??
She grabbed a small bundle of Bristol and explained how it works...
The first one... "Oh. A lion? A mask? Butterfly?"
The second one... " it looks like a bloody knife."
There was a spark of fear in her eyes.
The third one... " um. It. It looks like entrails. Like, someone just got mauled by something and Rip! It-"
"Ohk, I think that's enough for today.
I'll call your parents to say when the next therapy is scheduled and so on
So you can wait until your parents come and-"
"No, I'll leave. Thank you for your time with me. Bye!"
I shook her hand and gave her the emoji pillow. She just watched surprised as I quickly went through the door. Now should be a good time to see Bella.
I'm tired. But. Good night. Happy New year (in advance to some) may this year be yours to make your mark on the world!