A/N: When writing, I thought of songs that reminded me of the chapter & I came up with:
• Dusk Till Dawn → Zayn ft. Sia
• Bad Together → Dua Lipa
• Him & I → G-Eazy & Halsey
* I forgot to mention to you guys to comment songs that remind you of specific chapters or the book as a whole. I want song ideas 💡 lol. *
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Chapter fourteen|
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My eyes studied the nurses' hands. I found it odd that she was using a pocket knife to release me from the rope. The movements intrigued me, she was delicate—light on her fingers. It's almost like she made sure to be careful. Careful is not a word I'd use to describe the treatment here. Being touched by one of the nurses felt different. I didn't know how to describe the feeling. It just didn't feel like it usually did. I didn't know what it was that felt different until she ran her fingers across my wrist. Since the rope was tied tightly, it left a bruise on my arm. I hadn't noticed it until she took it upon herself to touch it.
My natural reaction was to quickly move away. I wasn't use to someone touching me in a manner that expressed concern. Not once, being in this place has anyone cared up how I felt or how I was being treated. Nurses are expected & trained to act like robots. They're not supposed to express any ounce of concern on the subject they're treating. They're simply there to treat you to withstand another day in this place. You can't sit there & act like you care about a fucking bruise when you're fucking prepping me for my death bed.
"What are you doing?" I ask, angrily.
The touch of her hands against my skin felt tingly. I felt a sudden rush of comfort although I pulled away rather quickly.
I wait for a response but she simply hesitates. She looks down nervously.
I sat there confused.
Her eyes.
Her fucking eyes resembled someone's that I use to know.
It resembled eyes that I once looked into every day & night. It resembled eyes I was once familiar with. Eyes I couldn't help but get mesmerized by. Eyes I fucking imagined myself seeing for the rest of my life. Eyes I saw a future in. Eyes that I could never forget because they lingered in my thoughts everyday.
My mind is probably playing tricks on me. I'm seeing things it wants me to see. I'm visualizing & feeling things that aren't real.
I couldn't help but fall for it.
I place my hand gently under her chin, lifting her head up slowly. I felt the tingling sensation throughout my body when our skin came in contact. I knew she felt it too, she slightly flinched back. She didn't want to look at me. She probably felt disgusted being touched by an inmate. Yet she didn't pull away. I haven't felt this feeling of being touched since Y/n. She was the only person whose touch could alleviate me, make me forget where I was, more importantly who I was.
I tilted her head back a little more, wanting to look into her eyes again.
Finally, they met.
I swallow down hard, trying to conjure the words to describe how it felt looking into her eyes. I felt a rush of nostalgia. If god was playing tricks on me—it worked. She looked like Y/n. God was allowing me to see her—feel her one last time before this place had its way with me. I closed my eyes then I slowly opened them again. Apart of me thought her eyes would disappear into someone else's—but it didn't.
I suddenly grab a hold of her face. I removed the face mask, colliding our lips together. I was desperate, I wanted to feel how I use to feel when I kissed her. I yearned for it.
Her lips felt just like her.
I quickly pull away, getting up from the seat I was in. I pace around the room, running my fingers through my sweaty hair. I tried to avoid looking at her completely.
"I-I'm sorry. I didn't mean to kiss you. You just reminded me of someone I lov—I know. I'll let you do whatever you have to fucking do to me." I rushed, frantically. Drugging me would allow me to escape from this mess, act like it never happened. I was faced towards the wall, mentally beating myself for falling into the trap. It was an allusion. An fucking allusion that felt & looked real.
"Jason." She spoke softly. My heart started to beat immensely. I paused, the only thing I can hear was the pounding of my heart.
Tears start to build up in my eyes.
I slowly turn around, noticing that she was removing everything that concealed her true identity. She dropped the hair mask to the floor, causing her hair to drop onto her shoulders. Her face mask then fell from her hands, as she watched me carefully. Her eyes watched my closely—my stunned facial expression. I noticed that tears where streaming down her face. I let mine build up, while hers fell recklessly down her cheeks.
"Y/n?" I ask, swallowing down the lump that was in my throat.
I was still able to recognize her, although she did change since the last couple of months.
The innocent girl was now tainted. The light that once shined in her eyes was now dead—vacant.
"Say something." She breathes, her eyes searched for any ounce of emotion from my eyes. I was mute. I had a lot of questions circling in mind, however, in that moment I couldn't speak. I couldn't find myself articulating any sentence. I was in a state of shock. How is this even real?
Is she really standing in front of me?
How did she get in here?
Why does she feel the need to save me?
All of those questions weren't important at the moment. Seeing her was. I rush up to her, wrapping my arms around her neck. She quickly responds, wrapping her arms around my waist. That's when I let the tears fall from my eyes. I couldn't hold them back anymore. The girl I thought I'd never see again was in my arms—holding me.
Am I dreaming?
I pull away grabbing a hold of her face. She looks into my eyes desperately. "How did you get in here? You shouldn't have come here. This is a dangerous place." I say frantically, moving a couple strands of hair from her face. Although we were in the most fucked up place imaginable, I felt at home simply holding her in my arms.
"I'm kidnapping you." She says, gently placing a kiss on my forehead.
The tables have officially turned.
A/N: Another day, another chapter, another slay! And it didn't take me a month or year! (yes I read your comments lol) . Thank you guys for reading. ⚡️💓😆