The night is still young at Jin's beach resort. All of them were having fun. The foods that Jin meticulously cooked were good. There was a karaoke, everyone was taking turns in singing their songs, except for Yuri, she's not good in singing, she says. There were alcoholic drinks too. Everyone were in their legal age to get drunk anyway (except for maknae Jungkook).
Yuri left the group to stroll along the shore because she wanted some time alone. It's been quite some time now since she's been surrounded by many friends, which she's not used to yet. She's been with Xena alone ever since, before she went to SNU.
Yuri was sitting the shore line, only her feet was being washed by the sea water. She's thinking alone, she has drunk a few shots anyway. Her mind was flying. she's thinking.. about... Jimin. Due to her being drunk, she laid her back down against the sandy ground.
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Jimin's POV
I didn't notice Yuri leaving the cottage. Where could she be at this time of night? I need to find her.
From a far, I saw her lying on the sandy beach. I was worried because she a little drunk, I heard from Xean that she can't tolerate alcoholic beverages. I'm a bit drunk too, my world is spinning, but I'm too worried about Yuri to think about myself now.
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Yuri was about to fall asleep when she heard footsteps. She rolled her eyes up to see Jimin standing beside her. Jimin also lied down, looking at Yuri's face that is lighted up by the bright moon above them.
"What are you doing here alone?"
"I don't know, I just wanna be by myself and think about things."
"Why only now? You have always been telling me everything, and you know you can always tell me anything that's bothering you. You don't have to keep things to yourself."
Silence came in between them. Yuri cannot answer back. She sat down, still not speaking. Jimin held her hand and looked straight into her eyes.
"Why are you shaking up my heart?"
Yuri wasn't sure how to respond to Jimin's query. She doesn't know why all of a sudden, Jimin's asking a weird question. Though she wants to turn away from Jimin's gaze, she can't because Jimin's eyes were like serious and sincere. She wants to walk away but she can't becuase he's holding on to her hand really tight.
Jimin's face was suddenly in front of Yuri's. Her cheeks were turning red, her ears getting hot, face to face, their lips met. Jimin caressed her small face, his lips still memorizing Yuri's tender lips, how it feels and how it tastes. Yuri snapped out of the magical kiss, not knowing what to do, she ran away from Jimin.
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Yuri's POV
When he asked me, "Why are you shaking up my heart?", I thought, what does he mean by that? But his eyes looked so sincere that it drew me closer to him. I felt like his gaze was about to swallow me. I can't retreat.
His lips were very gentle. I didn't expect Jimin to steal my first kiss... but it turned out to be a passionate first kiss. I don't know if I'm just drunk that's why I'm able to think this way. I'm not sure what I'm feeling for Jimin. I don't know if this is what you call love... but what I do know is that, when he's gone, his absence weighs heavy on my heart.
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It's been 2 weeks since the gang's summer vacation. it's also been 2 weeks since Jimin haven't seen Yuri. Yuri has been keeping her distance from Jimin after what happened in the beach resort. She's been hiding, running away from what she's feeling. She's so confused and unsure of what's about to happen when she sees Jimin again face-to-face. Jimin, on the other hand has been regretting what he has done that night. He's thinking, if he didn't do that (kiss), he wouldn't probably lose Yuri, or that Yuri wouldn't be afraid of him. He's been so desperate, emotionally unstable and worried that he cannot concentrate in BTS' practices and recordings. His co-members started to feel uneasy with him, they feel that Jimin's starting to be a burden to them with how he's acting now. Only Jhope knows what's going on with Jimin.
Outside room 406-A, Jhope was waiting for Yuri's class to end. He has to talk to Yuri by all means. When the bell rung, Jhope immediately searched for Yuri, and when he did, he grabbed her outside the room to the rooftop. Suga and V were waiting there.
"How are you Yuri? Has everything been fine for you?" Suga begun.
"I would be straightforward with you," Jhope continued. "What's been happening to you and Jimin?"
"I heard you're hiding, or running away from Jimin. Why?" V asked with his deep voice and serious face.
"Don't you know how Jimin is greatly affected by YOU running away from him?" Suga said straight.
"I - I don't know... I ju - just don't know how to react," Yuri answered back.
"What do you mean you don't know? After you let Jimin fell very hard for you, you're just going to dump him like he's nothing to you?" Jhope raised his voice in anger to Yuri, for the first time.
"Jimin's been out of his mind lately, he's been skipping practices, and when he's with us, he's mind is out of nowhere. We're all thinking that he's becoming a burden to us now, he's pulling us down," Suga continued to explain everything to Yuri.
Tears fell from Yuri's eyes. All she's thinking now is Jimin. All she wanted was for Jimin's bright future with the career he has chosen. She never thought that Jimin would fall down like this and would be a burden to BTS. She's beginning to think that she's so selfish. She run away from Jimin because she's not sure how she felt for him. It's her first time to care for a man, to enjoy being with a man and to be confused with her own feelings.
"I don't know... all the while, I've been confused with my feelings. I really don't know how I feel for Jimin, that's why I thought getting away from him would be best for the both of us," Yuri struggled to let her voice out.
"It's okay if you're still confused, but when you become sure of how you feel, tell Jimin directly, talk to him. Denying your feelings won't solve anything. Please be more thoughtful to Jimin. For him, you are his everything," V let out his opinion on the matter.
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A week later, Yuri has thought real hard on her feelings. Now she's sure of it. She's ready to face Jimin at all costs. She contacted Jimin and asked him out for a walk.
Yuri was waiting by the park near SNU. It was 6p.m and there were a lot of couples walking holding hands around her. Suddenly, a drop of water fell to her cheek. It was about to rain, although it was still summer, because of too much heat that evaporated, the clouds can no longer hold it. Yuri wasn't prepared for the rain. She was just wearing a thin, white shirt and her usual jeans because it was hot. But she decided not to go, she'll still be waiting for Jimin no matter what.
Jimin read Yuri's text late. He forgot his cellphone in their dorm which is a bit far from the park where Yuri was. He rushed, run as fast as he could under the rain. He saw Yuri, sitting by the park, holding her hands and trying not to care about the rain. He run toward her... and hugged her from her back.
"You silly! What are your doing out here in the rain? What if you catch a cold?"
"Jimin? I thought you were not coming..." Yuri faced Jimin, while he was still hugging her.
"I'm so sorry I was late, I wasn't able to read your text sooner. I'm rea-" Jimin was explaining but he was cut by Yuri's finger.
"It's okay, don't explain. What matters is you're here," Yuri touched Jimin's lips with her finger.
"I'm the one who should be saying sorry. I'm sorry for running away from you, i'm sorry if you felt like I dumped you like you're nothing to me. It was because I was confused with my own feelings. At first, I didn't know how to react when you kissed me. It was my first," Yuri started expressing herself.
"It was your first? I'm so happy to be your first kiss," Jimin grinned.
"I'm glad too that you're my first."
"Honestly, I was so depressed when you left me. I thought I've lost you forever, and I regretted kissing you, but now... all I can think about is you, Yuri," Jimin confessed.
"I love you more than anything, I hope you love me too," Jimin continued his drama.
"I - I... love you too," Yuri uttered in her sweet voice.
"Woohooooow! I'm a boy in luv!", Jimin shouted at the top of his lungs with the widest smile you could ever see of Jimin, then kissed Yuri on her pinkish lips so tenderly.
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It was autumn when we met.