✨💙 Snow ✨💙
"Niggas can kill me but they going with me ✨ Mobb deep
My heart stopped beating. I pulled the trigger the same time this burly big nigga pulled his.
But the bullet didn't strike me
I watched Mason drop to the dirty ground with a bullet in his neck and roll into the swamp
The one who faked an intruder alert for us eyes widened when i let both of my choppas rip into his body and skull next. It blew and ripped his body into pieces
My lil goon started letting his shit rock immediately and a gunfire fight ensued
I was numb but tears of fury laced my eyelids.
"What the fuck mon?" Ackoni yelled "cease fire!"
"Rat a Tat Tat That Tat Tat Rat A Tat Tat Tat!"
I let my choppers go, shooting at anything moving in my eye sight with a heart heavy
I felt like i was outside of my body. All I could see was black. I moved closer like I was invincible even though a bullet shot into my chest and making me momentarily breathless.
My bulletproof vest absorbed it even though I could feel the impact on my chest
"I will fucking kill all you muthafuckas! Your mothers! Sisters! Bitches! Kids! Aunts! uncles! That was my muthafucking brother!" I roared watching some take cover and run from the power of both choppas I held. I watched it rip some men into shreds and making a blood bath
Nothing but gun powder was In the air. I was outnumbered and out gunned but my heart wouldn't let me stop from getting vengeance for Mason even if I had to die in the process
One of the Jamaicans stepped closer and started shooting with some power towards my way. My lil goon shot him in the back of his head and i slapped thick leaves and limbs out of my way into the swamp. Mason was bleeding out and body resting on the rock and filthy water
I dragged Mason out of the swamp by his shirt . he felt like dead weight making my heart crumble. Rocks and dirt covered the bottom of my feet as I put all of my body power I could muster and pulled him further into the woods and blocked from the trees and leaves
. I was keeping one choppa raised with my finger dancing on the trigger looking all around the forest. I could see a few niggas moving around and the birds and animals making noises
It was hot and I was sweating with a mixture of tears streaming down my face
As soon as i peeked out to see if My lil goon was alive bullets came shooting into my direction .
"Bop! Bop! Bop! Bop! Bop!"
I was right behind the tree Ackoni advisesd me not to be. I didn't even give a fuck at this point.
Ackoni came from wherever he took cover and came out into the open.
"I had me son with me! My fucking son! And nobody gave two fucks mon! Stop the shooting! I'm back to stay! You both are my family!" Ackoni screamed out
I slid down the tree and pulled Mason up to me to look him in the eyes. That were low
"Mason" i cried out like a baby. My tears poured down my face hard. My emotions overcame me. My hand started blistering and burning from the tree and my arm burned. I could see the bullet hole in it as blood pored out. The bullet went straight through and all of sudden I could feel the familiar pain of getting shot sensation
My adrilleane must been so high because I didn't even know I was shot or exactly when. My body felt pain and my heart was in pain.
I wanted to be dead. If Mason was gone wasn't no point of being alive knowing it was all my fault
Blood leaked from his neck and I held him closer with my head resting on his
I didn't care how i exposed I was anymore or in the open. I just wanted my brother back. These Niggas could kill me for all i cared. I had nothing to live for. I just wish this wasn't my fucked up reality . I should have never brought him out here. He should've turned back around. I screamed out from the pit of my stomach
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Mason please don't leave me. The girls waiting for you to come back home. You know you and Erica going keep trying till y'all finally have a boy. I admire you so much. Your so fucking laid back and thoughtful. You let me lead without any jealousy or malice in your heart. I love you so fucking much Yo. You all i got fucking left. Don't do this to me!" I never felt a pain like this . Jah was gone and i lost my brother. I sobbed into his shirt and i could hear nothing but silence.
My lil goon came from under the rocks and came over to me.
"Damn man. Not Mason. He was like a father to everybody. A father to me" his voice cracked dropping tears
"He's gone Snow. I'm sorry" Ackoni stated somberly and i didn't even know he was near me. I cried from within the depths of my soul
" i took your word as truth" i whispered to him. I jumped to my feet and rushed him.
I left my choppa hang from the shoulder straps but removed the glock from my waist.
I pushed my gun into Ackonis forehead "Snow Listen you do have someone to live for-"
"Shut the fuck up! Your words don't mean shit to me nigga! Your not a man of ya word. Talking bout these Niggas wasn't going do shit! Why my brother shot? Huh? I didn't even know you and paid for your lawyer fees, worked magic to get you out the system! This how you repay me lil Nigga?"
"I told you I couldn't trust everyone"
"You the same nigga who bitch held ya balls. You let a bitch trick you out your freedom. Your common fucking sense. Your a fucking kid. I should have never followed your lead.I don't have shit to loose"
"Yes you do because August-"
"Fuck August that bitch ain't more important than my brother! This my fucking blood brother on the ground! I should body your ass! You couldn't even control your Bitch! That Bitch was on my fucking nuts every second of the day!"
He looked at me with no fear in his eyes only holding regret, sympathy, and anger. Ackoni didn't blink as speckles of spit from my mouth hit his face
Holding his hand up to halt the Taliban gang as they aimed at me and was now out of hiding
"Go head and kill me! I don't give a fuck!" I shouted at them
"Mason is good! He just got grazed pretty bad! Passed out from the impact of the rocks!" My lil goon spoke up.
"I see why my sisters hates you now. I personally like you as a person but you don't like you for her. She can do so much better. You killed some people I've known for a very long time and I stood here screaming for them to stop so no one else would not suffer. To spare you"
I let my gun go and hit him hard in his mouth drawing blood.
He licked his bloody lips and I rushed to my own brother. My arm was stinging with much pain and i felt a little winded.
✨❤️ August ❤️✨
I never knew having a premie would have me experiencing so many emotional highs and lows. I never knew I would firsthand experience this
"Skylar is growing and has come a long way" my nurse said. I was so happy to be feeding her by a bottle of my breast milk
Skylar weight gain has been steady, most of the tubes and lines have been removed, and my baby was now in an open crib rather than in an incubator. I went crazy with shopping online since she now wearing "baby clothes" and last month was when we started to feed from a bottle I got all kinds.
"The hope was her development occurred the same rate as the pregnancy so..."
"So what?" I was scared to hear she had a setback even though those words were normal
I brought Skylar closer to my chest and wanted her to come home so badly. I basically lived here and took my finals on my laptop here. At first she was breathing fine then randomly she couldn't breathe on her own. She was back breathing just fine now and without a nasal canula
" it's been a long journey and it's been four months. she's 38 weeks PMA. We're going to miss her. She can go home. Your baby is feisty and our little warrior"
Tears of joy slid from my eyes
The other NICU Mother's, the staff I grown so close to them like my own
"She's beautiful" Snow voice boomed into the room making my entire back tingle and heart freeze. It was like time stopped and my heart dropped
He came over to me with an arm sling but grabbed her from me gently
"She looks just like you dad. Oh my god" my nurse cooed. I didn't know what to say and felt my nerves work over time. His cologne and presence was strong as always . He smiled a little showing golds in his mouth. He had a fresh temp hair cut and all the nurses whispered about him
"I'm sorry August but he needed to know dat she existed. I thought I almost lost my son. And it open me eyes. Plus his friend was here at John Hopkins doing research so he was already here. But Skylar needs him" my brother spoke coming further into the room
The nurse grabbed her while he got seated since his arm was in the sling
Once Skylar was in his arms his eyes light up with love and adoration.
"Wow look what I created. Your so pretty and perfect Skylar. My babygirl and my world. My heart belongs to you now. I can't believe I'm a father" He was consumed with her and she smiled at him grabbing her tiny fingers around his index one . She reached out her other hand out at his lips . I could see the love he had in his eyes and I felt bad.
"Okay guys do you have a car seat ready?" She asked
"Yeah" he replied nodding down to this car seat I seen online
The nurses all came inside and took pictures of us for the wall that shared inspiring stories of premies. They talked to us about being home with the baby. Snow gave them a duffle bag filled with cash
"Break bread with everyone here. I'm thankful for the time the delicate and great care you all provided and keeping my daughter afloat. I called earlier and got some information on Skylar stay. I'm full of gratitude." Snow said shocking everyone
"We can't accept that" the R.N shook her head
"Keep it among yourselves. I'm not taking no as an answer"
The nurses hugged him and he backed away from one
"You can invest into a toothbrush now too, lil mama. No need to be embarrassed. It is what it is" he told her, ignorant as ever
I looked at him but he didn't even look my way.
I was waiting for Snow to say something to me, be an asshole, lash out but he said nothing. It was like I didn't even exist. I actually went to church earlier so at least I looked good and my real hair was longer going past my breasts but he didn't pay me any mind
He held the car seat and I felt my heart pick up speed as he maneuvered around. It was awkward and tension filled
I felt comfort with Ackoni beside me but I could see Snow veins in his neck protruding going down the elevator. When the doors opened a silver Range Rover awaited outside
"Nigga let me help you" Mason and Erica stood cooing over Skylar. Mason helped him properly strap her in and I wondered what the patch on his neck was about
Erica didn't even speak but shook her head at me in disappointment
I felt panic and grabbed Snow tattooed arm. It was The end of May now and the sun was shinning bright and hot
"What are you doing? She can't stay with you. I won't let you take her from me"
" I would never ever use her to hurt you. I would never keep her away from you. Rob you of that. I'm not built like that ma. Her needs and well being triumphs everything. Including yours" he said smoothly breaking my heart with every word. Seeing him in person up close made my heart stir. I missed everything about him
"Snow I'll see you later" a drop dead gorgeous woman came up and hugged him.
She reminded me of Megan Good with Carmel glowing skin and a shapely figure. She was clearly a doctor with glasses on her face And long flowing black hair . I peeped her name tag . Dr. Yessica Young and couldn't even hide the frown on my face. Her bottom lip was busted and I thought about making her shit worse feeling my body temperature rise
Snow eyes filled with recognition and I felt stabbed in my heart. I knew he fucked her i felt It. I watched as they took eachother in and It made my skin crawl to see her eyes filled with lust. His squinted and only seen him look at me like that. Filled with concern. He cares about her?
"What the fuck happened to your lip?" He asked her
I bite my bottom lip so hard to keep myself from wigging out
"I'm here now, your old news" I said staring at her directly unable to hold my tounge
"Chill" Mason told me and I felt betrayed by his ass. Wowwwww. I thought
"You better wipe de fucking tears August. She's not your concern" Ackoni whispered
I was tearing up? I touched my face pissed my emotions were so out of control
"Aight I'll holla at you later" Snow nodded as she strutted away giving him some stupid ass answer that even he frowned about
He opened his car door for me and I got in saying nothing and breathing in and out deeply
"So that's your girlfriend?" I asked
"You didn't want me. What I got going on doesn't concern you." He said plainly void of any emotions
"Aight Chill" Ackoni spoke up from the backseat at Snow words
We rode past the old "box" house he had me in and a flood of memories swept me. The "Drugs Sold Here ! Guns are inside!" Was still spray painted that i done and i remembered Jah trying give me his gum and me shooting him down once again. Damn RIP Jah
20 minutes later we were pulling up at Snow home he had. Going inside I was surprised at the lavish baby room upstairs
"A chandelier above the crib? What it it falls on her ?" I snorted.
"I'll move it" he pushed the crib over and Ackoni held Skylar in her car seat. I walked into the huge walk in closet impressed but not vocalizing it. She had all types of top notch overpriced baby stuff. Snow was really going all out
Skylar started crying and me and Snow both fought to get to Ackoni. He unbuckled her and I felt jealous as she quickly calmed down as Snow held her with his good arm
"Yo estaba dispuesto a dar mi vida, sin siquiera saber que tengo que vivir, así que no llores Skylar. Papá está aquí para limpiar cada lágrima ahora" (I was ready to give my life away not even knowing I have you to live for, so don't cry Skylar. Daddy is here to wipe every tear now). he soothed her
I went in her baby bag to get a bottle and he shook his head
"You was just feeding her at the hospital. Isn't it's every two to four hours?" He asked then pulled out his phone
He showed me a google search and I didn't even look at it
"She's a preemie. And don't disrespect me"
"Disrespect you how August? I didn't yell, call you out your name or anything. How can she respect me if I'm disrespecting you? Skylar won't ever see that side of me" he kissed her cheeck and I wanted my baby back in my arms
Everyone burst into the room to crowd inside all happy to see the new addition of the Savage Family. Bearing gifts. Balloons
Erica pulled me to the side and got in my ass. My mother was hurt but hugged me hard. Everyone had their Phones out and flashing pictures of her and her room. Her eyes fluttered open looking all around
"She got your father eyes nigga. Grey as dirty snow" Bronx smiled as Snow beamed proudly and put a tiny diamond snowflake necklace on her neck.
He was doing the most. "I think it's cute" the voice said reading my mind. " girl i wish Fred was a good father. be thankful and kill this energy you giving off. I'm really pissed the fuck off with you right now but my niece is gorgeous" Aaliyah came from behind me. I hugged her tight taking her by surprise
It felt good to be surrounded by everyone even though for so long I was in seclusion. It was so many kids here and Jahlia and Masons newest daughter were sitting in the crib next to Skylar.
Baby Fred was going have a headache with them even though he was a year older.
When everyone left I wanted to ask Snow did he just assume I was moving in. Did that girl live here? How important she was to Him? I did let him go but I was dead wrong about keeping Skylar away and seeming him handle her with so much love made me feel nothing but guilt. I didn't like this weird energy between us. He went out to get food since he didn't have shit here. I started snooping around
I wondered did he go see her? The doctor Bitch. Aaliyah did a check on her so quick I was getting all types of tea of her being at the studio , strip club and Instagram pics of her posting Snow on her kitchen counter with two braids.
💙✨Snow ✨💙
August blew me so bad and the old me a few months ago I would've knocked her top off . I had hella food in the deep freezer I just needed an excuse to get away from her.
I needed to smoke to cool down before I choked her out. She knew her kidney condition so what if Skylar needed my blood or anything? Did her stupid ass forget she was fucking drugged? So technically my daughter was too!what if she suffered brain damage or something crazy?
That was a low blow and no matter how she screamed to her brother about Queen lurking in the shadows I would've been crushed if Skylar died and I never got to meet her. That was some selfish ass shit for her to do
Her face flashed in my head doing better times and i shook my head at how easily she got me worked up.
The mother of my child was the most beautiful girl I ever laid my eyes on and nobody could tell me different. But her actions lately haven't reflected the beauty she had inside. She was acting like a bitter insecure bitch for months but besides that August still had me in a chokehold. I just didn't show her that and she better hope I didn't loose my composure when I got back
"Hey Snow" Yessica jumped into my car and took off her lab coat drifting me out of my thoughts. She coughed a little from all the haze i smoked in here
I could tell something was bothering her. I know she wanted to question me about the car seat i was strapping in and August earlier this morning
"Don't you have something you want to tell me?" I asked her staring into her eyes
She shyly looked down and I could tell I made her nervous. She was trembling
"Am I'm the floor or I'm up here?"
"Before I left town, i saw my father" she whispered with tears lacing her eyes
"Your lying but if you fucking one of ya lil bitches im not mad. Just don't let no one fuck up your pretty face Aight?"
Her father was a frail dying man, weak and a fucking stick. I wanted to know her background since she was so much in my space. I gave him some change in a cup once on a corner in Dade County. I knew for a fact what she was spitting wasn't solid
Tears started spilling out of her eyes and she made an ugly face which was hard cuz Yessica was a dime
"You lied to me too.you didn't tell me you had a baby! You didn't tell me about that girl August! You didn't even correct her for disrespecting me"
"That's my Bitch even when she's not my bitch. I kept shit one hundred with you the entire way. I told you I'm not the type of nigga to fall in love with, i even told you how you deserved someone better. More straight laced. I apologize ma but what we had was fun and you cool as fuck. Educated, sweet and beautiful. You would have been mine but i couldn't give you my heart when it already belongs to someone else"
"I know what i agreed too but it still doesn't lessen the hurt I'm feeling. I still fell in love with you. And knowing you were just using me as a rebound hurts. You didn't say that part! I knew about other females you entertained but i thought you were changing for me! I thought by us being opposites we would become something. All the time we spent and fun times meant nothing? Absolutely nothing? You just were using me as a distraction? They told me you wasn't shit! I gave you my virginity! My Virginity! I didn't deserve this! I hate you! Your nothing but toxic!" She cried out into her hands .
She removed her hands and started hitting me. It was sad as shit how used I was to this type of scene playing out but Yessica I did feel bad.
I grabbed her wrist mid swing and moved over to unlock her door.
"Im sorry Yessica. And i apologized twice which is something i don't do. Life just not a fairytale. I never told you about August but i told you what is was, far as us not getting serious. Hold ya fucking head up high. You'll make any nigga proud to have you on his side. just not for me"
I pulled off and I could still see her standing there just openly crying infront of the hotel she was staying in
✨✨✨
"Hey boys" My mother jumped out in excitement and hugged Mason
Sasha looked young, dressed young and acted young easily looking like our sister. I always thought she'd get remarried and her life together but she'll be with some OG for awhile then it's over cuz she ended things. She had a good job as a marketing director and outside looking in was the perfect woman.
Mason held my mother tight and I could see her chest fall and rise wanting to hug me too
"You can hug me ma" I said. I haven't said "Ma" in over twenty years
"No I like it better when you call me Sasha" she said with her eyes filling up with love. The type of love that made my fucking stomach twist
"We wanted to spend time with you. Regular ass normal shit ma. I already told you im not pops. This is me your son standing infront of you. I'm telling you i forgive you. I'm letting any anger, resentment and shit go. It started with you and ends with you. The fucked up mentality, trust And disconnect and being scared to love a female comes from our mother and son relationship. I had my first child a few months ago. Her name is Skylar"
"Wow a baby? Messiah who the fuck-"
"Ma shut the fuck up. And stop talking like that" I cut her off
She followed behind us and we drove to The inner harbor downtown. Her favorite place to take us as kids.
We walked around the peir , brought her anything her heart desired. Road the boat and visited Ripleys Believe it or Not. We ate from Rusty Scuppers and she took pictures of us on her phone. We ate crabs on Federal Hill park. Talked about the all her grandkids and showed her pictures. We even played basketball
something I haven't done in so long. Sasha could play a little and didn't Bitch or complain which was appreciated as we dominated the court
"I'm sorry Messiah" She buried her head into my chest suddenly
My body tensed up feeling her on me but I hugged her. Deep down i was still the little boy who just wanted my mother to love me like the regular moms. I didn't like hating my mother.
"I know it's wrong but it won't just go away. I'm still in love with you, and we can raise Skylar together" she cried out
"Ma do you hear how you sound? I convinced this nigga to find in his heart be open to forgive you and you still fucking talking crazy?" Mason spat turning red in the face and he never raised his voice, ever. Nigga damn near was screaming at her in this park scaring muthafuckas
"This just how the fuck it is with her" i chuckled and pushed her off me. Over this shit. Sasha was a sad ass bitch
"Let's go" he grabbed her up and stormed off
We pulled up at her nice ass home Mason gifted her years ago out Catonsville. Mason wiped a lone tear from his face. Sasha was eating her popcorn not giving a two fucks about nothing. I did finally see what i got from my mom it was this "I don't give a fuck attitude or nobody feelings"
"Ma get out" Mason shook his head , voice laced with heavy disappointment
Pouting her lips and making her dimples deeper how Skylar did earlier my mother innocently spoke "what did I do wrong?"
"You helped Queen drug August while she was pregnant with my seed. That's what the fuck you did wrong. Put my daughter life at risk Bitch.Stop playing stupid"
"I'm your mother and I don't approve of that bitch! I would get rid of Queen too and I can't believe you would get her ass pregnant! She's not worthy! That's Skylar mom? Huh? Mason don't just sit there and let him disrespect me!"
She greedily popped some more popcorn in her mouth and looked at me in triumph waiting on Mason to fight me as usual but nothing happened.
"I love you ma" we both said at the same time watching her start to seizure. I watched her choke to death from poisonous popcorn. I scrapped some of the Blackpoisned tree wood chips and dust shit in that popcorn specifically made for her and dangerous to consume
"You owe me a soda nigga. We said it at the same time" I told Mason chuckling. He popped me hard as hell because he didn't find shit funny.
Fuck Sasha, I loved her and always would in a sense, the old and good mother in her before her sick ways came to life