Sometimes
I suppose I am happy
Like when I am with friends
I throw my head back, covering my mouth
Shaking with laughter
Laughing at a joke someone made
But then days turn to nights
And my carefree grin turns into an unexplainable sadness
Etched onto my face like a tattoo
And I lay in bed
Thinking about all the things I could've said
All the things I'm too afraid to admit
Admitting only on paper, with a pen and my mind
It's a night like this when I realize my fear
I am many things
I am happy and sad
Outgoing, and shy
Rambunctious and quiet
But mostly
E M P T Y