Its Monday now and j is currently sleeping beside me . its only about 6 so I still have about an hour and a half before we need to go to school . after everything that happened last night we sort of cried ourselves to sleep . I can't believe my mother is in that much denial . I mean he hit me and she thinks it's my fault ? then she hits j for sticking up for me . I don't think I'll ever look at her the same . come to think of it , I don't think I ever looked at her as a mother . maybe before I was 7 and everything went to shit I did , but not anymore .
I got out of bed as quietly as possible making sure not to wake j up . my body was aching so bad I feel like someone just pelted me with rocks . I made my way to my bathroom making sure to lock the door . I did my business before pausing and looking at myself in the mirror .
i looked like shit . my hair was sticking out in all kinds of directions and I had a nasty bruise on my face . I touched it lightly and winced at the sudden jolt of pain I felt . "yep that'll be there for a while" I groaned to myself . how was I supposed to go to school like this . I was going to get so much shit for this .
I pulled my shit over my head and whimpered as I saw a huge bruise on my side . just looking at it hurt . I need to be careful but at least he's gone now . I hope .
I change slowly making sure not to bump my bruises and then brush my teeth . I run my fingers through my hair not even bothering to brush it or make it look . I walk out of the bathroom and find j gone . she probably went to go change . sighing I grab my jacket- since I'm wearing short sleeves - and head downstairs .
Mom and j are sitting at the table eating their breakfast in silence . I can practically feel the tension but I don't care I only care for Jessica at this point .
"see you later j" I say softly to her . I didn't miss the hurt look my mom gave me when she noticed I didn't say anything to her . I just shrugged her off as j nodded and made my way towards the door . grabbing my bag and making sure I had my phone in my pocket I started walking .
I hope today doesn't suck , I thought to myself .
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So far nobody has questioned my bruised face and I'm grateful for that . I don't feel like dealing with peoples shit right now . the day has been pretty uneventful . so far I haven't seen Chris which is gr-
My thoughts are cut short when I'm slammed against the wall of lockers ,"watch were your going queer" he snarls . I stand by the lockers a little longer until he goes around the corners . I'm biting my lip so hard its bleeding . I feel like I'm about to pass out . squeezing my eyes shut to prevent the tears from spilling I take a shaky breath before continuing down the hall .
I arrive to algebra early as usual and take my seat just as my teacher walks in . I hate this class . its not that I'm dumb its just that most of the people in here are idiots . the teacher always gets frustrated and I can see why . I don't understand how people can do this for a living . some of these kids are so rude and disrespectful . if I was a teacher I'd probably be in jail by now for slapping someone . I also feel kind of bad for my algebra teacher because she's pregnant and she has to deal with these kids . I can only imagine how she feels .
The rest of the kids file in just as the bell rings and I'm left to try and deal with these idiots .
Finally it's the end of the day and I'm on my way home . not that , that's a good thing but still . at last I have j on my side now . I sigh shaking my head before I near my house only to hear yelling . I hurry up the driveway and open the door .
The first thing I see is j her face red and angry tears flowing down her cheeks her hands clenched into fists . the second thing I see almost makes me want to die . mom and him are standing together their arms wrapped around each other .
"what the hell" I say softly . I walk over to j and stand next to her .
"liam honey-" I'm quick to cut my mom off at that .
"don't-don't call me that" I say firmly even though I stuttered a bit . her eyes gets sad but I honestly don't give a shit .
"what's going on" I ask after a brief silence . I look to my mom but she just stands there . that makes me so mad .
"is anyone going to say anything or what" I slightly raise my voice . j turns to me and tells me what I didn't expect to hear .
"mom said dad is coming back "she growls out . fuck that he's not doing that how could she be so stupid . I look to my mom in shock . I give her a look of disbelief before grabbing Jessica's hand and leading her upstairs .
What the hell is wrong with that woman . did she not see him hit me . had she not seen him come home drunk all those nights . did she not remember having all of those arguments with him . she's gone insane . is she really in that much denial . I'm so sick of her shit .
I slam the door shut and lock it once j is safely inside . why does he have to come back ? what if he tries to hurt j instead of me one day . oh hell no . at this point I'm pacing in my room pulling my hair to keep from exploding .
"that fucking bitch why is she so stupid" j yells throwing a pillow at the wall trying to keep calm . then someone nocked on my door .
"go away !" j yells at whoever is at the door . they obviously aren't having it as they continue to knock . I know it's not my mom .. oh god its him . I turn to j and look around my room . I know he's going to do something to hurt me or her so I try to find the safest spot .
"quick j go hide in my closet" I whisper to her as I make my way over and open the closet door for her . she gives me a look of confusion but then the nocks become bangs and she flinches slightly .
"please j hurry" I plead . she makes her way over and sits at the very back of my closet . oh god please don't see the blood on the carpet . there's no time to think I say to myself . right now I need to make sure he doesn't hurt her . as I'm about to make my way out she grips my arm tightly .
"liam no you hide too .. what i-if he hurts you again" she whimpers the last part her eyes welling up with tears . wow before I would never think j would actually care , but we've gotten closer and now I see she really does care .
"it's okay . its okay" I repeat trying to make her not cry even though I know its definitely not ok . he starts banging harder and I flinch at how hard he's nocking . sighing quietly I close the closet door hearing j whisper a quiet 'liam' before going towards the door .
I hesitate before slowly reaching out and twisting the lock . immediately he barges in and pushes me to the bed . i wince a little as my body hits the bed roughly .
"did you really think I would leave that easily" he hisses in my ear . I cringe at his words oh god here it comes .
And it did . he slapped me hard enough to where I saw black dots for a couple of seconds . oh god I hope j isn't getting traumatized even more than she already is right now . he picks me up from my collar and slams me into the wall right next to my closet door .
"you worthless piece of shit . you thought you could get away didn't you" he chuckles darkly before continuing "you thought it'd be that easy didn't you ? well your wrong" . he knees me in my stomach . oh god another bruise . I wish j wouldn't have to witness this right now .
"p-pl-please" I wheeze out desperately clutching my stomach . he drops me so I'm on all fours now . right when he's about to kick me the sound of the front door closing stops him . I sigh but I guess he heard it because next thing I know he kicks me in the stomach to shut me up . he quickly leave the room and I'm left on the floor in pain .
"liam" j says in a watery voice . she crawls over to the door and shuts and locks it . before making her way back over to me . she puts me so that I'm leaning against her and she hugs me tight . I can hear her sobbing but right now all I feel is pain . pretty soon I let the tears fall not being able to hold them back .
"I'm so so-sorry liam . why didn't you tell me before" she whispers clearly shocked by what just happened . the only thing I can do right now is hold her hand while she rocks us lightly back and forth .
"I'm so sorry liam" she whispers quietly .