Pov: Janette
It was sunny day here, the sun from above is almost killing us from the heat. Why do this place is like the closest place from the sun, and why do I need to come along with this people, right they're my cousins. And here I am in my very beloved province I almost forgotten. My brain is still processing why am I here at the 1st place. Why did I choose to come here, when I knew I hated this place so much. The worst place to have a vacation with.
Flashback:
I just graduated from college, I've done something meaningful for once in my life. I'm so sure my mom would totally call me once she knew, it was all over my social media accounts, the post of my friends congratulating me, from actually graduating after all the not so good things I've done so far.
Zzzzzzz zzzzzzz
Something's vibrating in my bag, yup my phone is ringing dang that was fast. Mom's puppets sure knows the latest news.
Hey mom, wazzup how u doing?
Where are you?
I'm at the planet Earth for a moment mom, where do you think I am?
Don't be a philosopher on me Janette!!! Now where are you?
*Oops my eardrums almost explode there, gosh that was loud, is she holding a mic with speaker on it, because if she's having it while talking to me, then again she's in a lunatic mood.*
Janette!!!!
Yes mom I'm here, jeeez you don't need to shout. I'm on my way home from an event of something I think you knew already.
Why didn't you tell me? I should've been there to personally greet you?
Well 1st reason I never thought I would actually past my thesis, 2nd I also never thought that I would be able to pass the exam, 3rd I thought I was always a failure in your eyes. Is that enough reasons to answer your questions mom?
You unrespectful bratt. Why did you think I send you there? Because I wanted you to finish your studies and be something when you grew up, is it necessary for you to answer me with your loosy words?
*Why there's a water dripping from my face? Do this car has a hood, it's not even raining. Before I even realize it the person beside me is looking at me with concern, I was crying. Well that's embarrassing.*
So sorry mom, I think I'm just in a moody situation right now, guess I'm getting my monthly visit soon. So is that all? Is there something more that you need to say?
*Gonna have to make this phone call not last longer.*
Your gonna need to go back here, don't give me some of your lame excuses on why you can't, I have heard them so many times. And I don't take a no for an answer. If you don't come here by the end of the month, I'm going to remove you from the list of the people getting my inheritance do you understand..
I was still looking at my phone and replaying all the things she said. I'm going to go back to that dreaded place I once abandoned. This is supposed to be a perfect day for me. Why did this had to ruined me. Now there's even more weight on my chest than I had when I'm studying.
End of Flashback
She sure knows how to manipulate me, that not new though, she's known to be so manipulative. Now I had to endure this heat coming from the sun, I could almost cook an egg in my skin.
Hey are you ok?
*That was Stephen takin me out of my thoughts, taking me back to reality.*
Yup, can't you see? I'm totally fine, my clothes were almost wet, I'm under the tree with you and them, with this bicycle that you guys lend me. I'm so so fine.
Oh c'mon it's not that bad, this was like the old times, we used to do this, your even game to race with us on the highway in exchange of who's going to treat us for the one that comes last.
That was before, past is past. This is present, and I think we're old enough for us to still do this. Don't you think so?
Nope, I dissagree. We haven't seen you for so long. Just understand us, we miss you, and you owned us this.
Ok then. Call them, break is over, let's race.
4 of us racing to reach the finish line, and I was loosing. Damn this boy's sure is fast. I couldn't win them anymore. To think this is unfair, I'm in a disadvantage. They're boys, I'm not a boy. I'm a girl and this is totally unfair, why did I even ask them to do this. Now I hate my decisions more than I hate the sun.
Your last, means you treat us.
*That was Kris, also my cousin, he was smiling ear to ear, it's so wide I think his mouth going to ripped*
Ok fine what you guys want. Dinners on me.
Just please don't ask me to buy you expensive foods. I'm unemployed/job seeker woman. My money is my life for a moment.
Oh we aren't gonna ask you for the expensive once, your in a province.
"That was Nick, also my cousin. The serious one but playful sometimes*
Ok then. Lets all go home first and take a nice cold shower and rest, we'll meet at plaza later at 6pm.
We all head home. I wasn't so sure until when I'm going to stay here. But for now, why not enjoy the accompany of my cousins. It's not really bad, I would rather spent my time with them, than staying at home listening to her not so good words coming from her mouth all day.
My old room looks the same, seems like she didn't touch anything in this room. The poster of my favorite bands is still hanging on my wall. The cabinet that full of my writings, I vandalized it myself. Even the cover of my bed hasn't changed a bit. It's been so long since the day I walk out of this room, this house. But now I'm back again to the place that made me my life a living hell.
6pm arrived and look at this guys I am with, their smiling from ear to ear, and should I say that I don't feel good about this. They're up for something, must be ready whatever the hell it is,
Janette you came late, it's 6:05pm.
Yeah right. It's only been 5 minutes. I remember I don't have a car or anything so I had to walk from home to here Nick.
Ei sorry dude. I just can't wait for you to treat us. It's been yrs, like decades ago. Don't need to give me that sarcasm jeeezZz.
*Be thankful we're related, if not I would've kick your ass by now*
Ok let's go, where are we heading?
We take a stroll first. A lot of things change since you left. They renovate this place as you can see and there's a lot we can do here now than before.
Them talking like this, I look around me. I can see that not only people change but also places you've been before. Like that playground that was on the left side of the street, it is now on the center. Street foods are everywhere and mini restaurants that I don't see before, that water fountain that seems to glow a blue and red light whenever the water comes out. This place sure change a lot. But some still remains, like the statue that is on the right side. We were just walking, telling each other a our own stories while trying to grow up. Until we stumbled with this tiny restaurant. A lot of people is on the line getting their source of energy, food. Three of them decided that we should eat here. While me here trying to see how are we able to get into this crowd of people. And I hate waiting and getting on the line.
Seeing how annoyed I am with this, they presented to eat somewhere else. How in the world are they saying this, when it's written in their eyes they wanted to eat here. So as the angel cousin I am to them. I gave them the money and just ask them to buy it themselves. Because I ain't getting on that crowd no matter what.
Stephen and Kris presented to go an the line living me with Nick.
Hey Janns you seemed pretty annoyed since you came here. Is there something wrong?
Totally there is, why did you think I came here all of a sudden?
Maybe because you wanted to just stay here,,
Nope, you got it wrong. It's because of her. She kinda threaten me. And she succeeded on it this time.
It's not that bad you know, I mean we're here you can hang out with us just like the old times.
You guys do works right?
Yes, but after that we have nothing to do. That's what I'm saying.
Nah I don't think it's gonna work. I think I'm going to look for a part-time job while I'm here, since I have nothing to do. My mom's mouth isn't opening yet for any order.
Yah, why not. This guys are taking too long, I'm starving.
*I had to look at bunch of people. They we're at front already.*
How's life here by the way?
You know just that and that, then you can connect them then there is this.
*While pointing at himself*
Good for you then.
Here they are, after the long wait. After the distribution of foods. I ask if there's still left from that money that I gave them. All they say is no. Gosh this thing is expensive. I mean this food.
What kind of food is this that has to cost me $10?
Eat first then after that you can ask.
Let's get some seats then.
I'm still wondering about this. How in the world this thing cost me that amount of money. I'm broke, I shouldn't spent a lot on this kind of things.
An open space looking through the kids playing skateboards. What a view to look at while eating.
My eyes got wide, wow this is delicious dang. No wonder it's expensive.
Delicious isn't it?
Wow I didn't expect this much steph. It taste good.
Told yah.
I had to look at them, they're good looking guys and I just realized that. Now I'm wondering if they have girlfriends. They didn't open that up. And so I have to.
Do you guys have gfs now?
*They all look at me, then look at each other as if they're having a talk using their eyes.*
Nick and Stephen were on a not so serious relationships. A fling is the right word. Me I'm on the lookout.
Let me guess on that Kris. No woman gets your attention. I never heard you having an affair with one even before. Are you by any chance a gay?
*Coughing isn't the answer to my question Kris, stop overacting jeeezzz*
How about you? Do you even had a boyfriend before? Or now do you even have one.
*I shrugged, busy eating my meal*
We don't know anything about you since you never updated your profile status on any of your social media accounts.
*They still don't know. I thought they knew, we've been together since like we were 5. I think I should just tell them,*
Guys listen very carefully. Pay attention to what I'm going to say. I'm not straight nor will be one someday. Why is that? Well I'm gay, lesbian. I like women more than men. If you guys still don't know, now you know.
*With wide eyes the look on their eyes were nothing but questions. I bet this guy's are asking why on their heads*
Don't look at me like that. 3 of you all of the people should already know by now. You guys knew me since I was little.
Well sorry for not knowing, you've never showed us that you are. We even thought your numb, you never had a crush on anyone.
Kris I do have crushes before. It just that they're not boys. They happens to be girls.
Fair then. Well I'm gay too, these two knew, I like men.
Fair enough.
We just laughed it out the whole night. We had so much fun. I miss them. We're all on our twenties, and this feels like were back from being teens. I miss them, this but totally not this place. When will I be able to get out of this place. Mom is really taking her time. Is she trying to torture me here because it's really working. I think I should go ahead and find some work to do. I might die from boredom here. Loosing a pocket money isn't very ideal for me. I might run away again and I need that badly if I do.
I've been here for like a week now. I'm afraid my mental health would go unhealthy. Why is it so hard to find a job in this town. As I stumble upon this poster saying Hiring. Well this might be my lucky day, I will be working on a bus terminal then why not. Out of all I know the manager and so I don't need to be interviewed.
You will be working here as a cashier. You can start tomorrow.
Thank you sir. I've been really looking for something to do. It's so boring staying at home.
By the way it's been awhile since I've seen your mom. How is she?
*Oh I almost forgotten, this guy A.K.A my boss now used to work on as my mom's secretary before, how ironic, I wonder how he ends here*
She's actually at home and doing fine as you know she is; and still strict on a lot of things. It's suffocating me to be honest.
I see, it seems like your still holding your past to yourself. Don't be so hard on her, she's old give her some of your time.
*He still remember our family issues, well how can someone forget that. It's so crazy and crappy.*
Let's see, now that I'll be working, 12 hrs a day, Monday to Saturday. I'll be busy starting tomorrow. Sunday is my rest day. Maybe next time I give her my time.
Ok then. See you tomorrow.
I got home thanking the Lord for giving me a job. Now that I think about it, me and my mom haven't talk yet or anything on why I'm here. Maybe I should ask her.
Morning comes so fast, first day of work. Gotta get going. It's not so bad here, all I had to do is to collect the payments and give them their tickets. I'm really liking this and the pay isn't so bad. I could stay here all day long, all night long.
Only so I can avoid the memories that keeps coming back from my head.
Hey Janns heard your working?
Hi Kris yeah I got one. Cashier on a bus terminal.
How was it?
Good actually. I'm liking it so much.
Cool, so you down on drinking tonight? We're planning to hang out tonight.
Nah pass. I have work tomorrow, had to wake up early.
Dude it's Saturday tomorrow...
So? My break is on Sunday. That's when I'm free.
*Now he's looking at me, like if I'm serious*
Ok then, whatever you say.
Here eat this. I don't want it. It taste terrible.
*While giving him the sandwich I bought somewhere here*
It's been a week right since you started working. Have you encounter someone interesting?
*Grin on his face, it would be so much better if I could slap him, right here right now. What is he doing here by the way, we were at this small restaurant not far from my working place*
I think it's you who needs to find one. Is there any guy in your work your interested with?
*A serious look from him. I knew there's someone already. What should I tell him? I'm not good at this. He's not saying anything, but his eyes gave him away.*
What? Are you expecting me to give you some advice?
Isn't it obvious? Why do you think I'm here.
Oh now I see. You came all the way here because of that. Nah I need to go back, break time is over.
C'mon Janns. Now that I knew you were gay. Don't you think we should support each other?
*Pleading eyes isn't gonna work on me Kris*
Gosh ok fine. Later meet me at home.
*Now he's smile can go up to his head. Damn why did I say yes to him? Breath in, breath out analyzed why? I can't say no to them.*
Later that night, I got home, change my clothes only to find Kris on the living room already waiting. Gave him the signal to come up to my room.
While sitting comfortably on my bed, and him on the little sofa.
Tell me who is this guy first?
Name is Gerald, we're co-workers and we're at list at the same age. He's also 25 just like me. 5ft tall, he's like the cutest thing ever and he got the dimples.
That was long Kris, I didn't ask you to define him I'm only asking for the name.
Oops sorry. I didn't mean to, I just... You know what I mean.
Totally, But I don't know how to give you an advice since this is a guy not a woman.
Well, I just wanted to know, what are your thoughts about him. Do you think he likes me too?
I don't know dude. Tell me the details.
Ok, so in work there's always a signed task for every employee right? But this man obligated he's duties not once but many times. Only to find him closed to my approximate range. We always eat together and when I need a hand he's suprisingly there to help. Like he's everywhere wherever I am. But I'm not sure if he's gay, that's what driving me insane. If he's gay or just being nice. If he likes me or not.
Does he look like gay? I mean in physical appearance.
No, he's everything but that.
Ok. Did he flirt on you even once? Like touching your butt of somekind?
Nah but there is always tension whenever we got closer to each other. I don't know bout him but that's how it is for me.
Tension? I've been in so many tension before. What kind of tension exactly?
Oh c'mon Janns you know what I mean.
Just kidding. Ok so I think you should talk to him. Like real talk. Just you and him, if the tension comes up and your brain is asking you to do this then do it. Follow your instinct is what I mean.
So you think he likes me?
I don't know. Maybe could be the answer. Since you've said he's everywhere wherever you are that could only include he maybe likes you. Or maybe not because maybe he just wants a friend that's why he's being nice. Talk to him anyway that's the only way. And follow your instinct maybe it will lead you into something good.
Your maybes are making anxious.
That is because I can't answer you with yes or no. Gotta stick to maybe.
*He's hand we're on his face now, shows how much this thing is complicating him in every way. Why didn't I noticed it before, he's so much gayer than I am. Now I can't help but smile, we both don't have any ideas before now we're everything but that.*
The edges of your mouth is going up. Your making me anxious than I'm already am.
Yes kris I know, that is called smiling but I ain't crazy don't worry. Just realized something that you we're gayer than you look like.
How did you know you were a les Janns?
Just as how did you know you were gay kris.
Do you have someone special right now? You only told us your a lesbian but are you in a relationship of somekind?
Well nah. I only had flings but I've never been in a real relationship with someone.
Why is that?
Right now I really don't want to answer that. So you can go home now. I need my sleep.
Ok. Goodnight then. I'll go my way now. See you tomorrow night. I've talked to Stephen and Nick, so we can hang out all together.
Morning comes so fast. I'm at work, travelers on the line getting their tickets. Buses are coming in and out of the terminal. Seeing people looking at their designated buses. It's really a chaos, I've been told that Saturday is most busiest day. That's when people are going somewhere since it's weekend. Travelers keeps on coming and the line is long. Gotta make this thing fast. And I wasn't done until 2pm. My stomach is growling from hunger. The buses stop coming out. Since they all dispatch. And there was only 1 bus coming in so I think it's best for me to get out and get something to eat. Sandwich would do the job so I bought 3 of them. Can't blame me I'm hungry.
As I take the my seat on the waiting area. The bus came in, dropping all the travellers out one by one as they carry they're luggages. But I don't care for that now, I'mma eat my food first. I'm almost done when I noticed all the people that comes out of the bus are now gone. They must've go on their ways now.
Untill I saw this woman, sitting not far away from me, it caught me off guard but I eventually got my self back. She's only not just alone but the loneliness on her face is very visible. She looks so vulnerable. I wasn't that kind of person who talks to strangers but I can't just ignore this woman looking like that, might as well do something against my own law just this once. Approaching her isn't helping my very not so calm heart from beating so fast, but my body seems to have their own life. And so I had to talk...
Hey am are you alone?
*She's aren't just beautiful, but this woman sure is gorgeous. Damn*
Hi, yeah just waiting for my ride.
*I don't know why my heart is beating so fast, it's not like this is the first time I've seen a beautiful woman, what's wrong with me*
I'm sorry for interrupting your alone time here. But here I think you need this.
*While giving her the drink I brought, it could help her to feel more at ease. She seemed tensed, though I think I'm more tense than she is*
No it's fine. You take it.
Are you sure? Because from what my radar is saying your nothing but fine. And I have a very unique superpowers to feel that.
*Gosh where did I get that, I'm corny... A very small hint of smile came to her lips but it was gone before I even realize it. Is it only in my own imaginations*
Yeah right.
*She doesn't believe me, fine then I guess I should just tell her, I didn't take psychology classes on summer vacations for nothing*
I actually been through in your position. So I know how it feels. It's hard when you knew nothing seems to matter anymore.
So you mean you knew what I'm feeling?
*While keeping that straight face*
Absolutely, I didn't mean to offend you or anything but you seem so emotionless., like you don't feel anything. That's what your appearance are saying,
*I just realized that at the moment, that she's been keeping a straight face all along*
Here take this ok. You don't need to thank me or anything. It's just that I've been there and I just want to make you feel better.
*While giving her that genuine smile*
Thank you
*See... That's what I'm saying, she didn't smile back or anything, she just gave me a flat thank you.*
Your welcome, have a safe and happy weekend.
*I need to go back to work. I've done what I have done.*
Hey
*Now what? Turn back look at her again, my heart would go unhealthy if I keep on doing this.*
Yes?
Do you work here?
*Now she's interested if I work here. She might report me to my boss, interfering with her life. Why didn't I think that before I approach her, but yeah whatever*
Yes I am. I'm actually at the cashier.
She just nod and smile. What kind of smile is that? I didn't saw it clearly, is it evil smile or angel smile. Before I knew it, she was already gone gone with that one hell of a luxurious car.
Boss were already at my side when I got my sense back. It was like my soul is flying away from me, he's also looking from where I'm staring. Well that is really embarrassing, had to apologise for that. So when I got back, I put everything that happened at the very back of my mind. I don't have time for any feelings that is about to grow if I didn't stop.
That's it for part 1 guys. Hope you like it. This is my first story so please bear with me. If you see any errors pls just ignore it.
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Please no hate...