I saw you love her,
Love her endlessly.
Your love for her made me think sometimes if what i have for you is even love or I'm just delusional.
You gave her your world.
You gave her everything you could.
She broke your heart in return.
Returned only pain to you.
I saw your world fall apart.
I saw you lose yourself.
I saw you battle for your own life.
Just because you loved her.
People called it "karma"
They said "someone who doesn't love you will end up loving someone who doesnt love them either"
But they dont understand.
You didn't deserve it.
You didn't deserve the pain.
As much as it broke my heart seeing you with her, it hurts me even more to see you still own feelings for her.
She isn't worth your time.
She isn't worth your attention.
She isn't woth your love.
She isn't worth any of it.
Why can't you see, you spend your love on someone who doesnt deserve it or its just my heart unable to bear seeing you with someone not me.
What do i call it?
Jealousy or forbidden insecurities?