I'm a year ahead of the game
Survived those obstacles for over two decades
Fought for my life
Lived the way I want
But then, I don't where to go next
Most of the time, I feel lost
They do not see this "lost" personality of mine
They only see me smile every time
And, laugh at everything
They don't see what's inside of me
They don't know these things which are running through my head
Right know, I feel so confused
Why do I feel such thing?
Some people say feeling lost is such a good thing
HELL NO, it is not.
Things go deeper and deeper
Something's not right
My mind is consumed by depression
I just wanna give up
But my mind and my heart somehow tell me not to
I know I am not weak
I can still fight all these
I have so many reasons to live
To many things to be thankful for
I will live for all the people I definitely love
I won't give up
I will free my mind from these thoughts
Thoughts that are slowly killing me
These things can't ruin my life
They can't control me
At the end of the day, I realized something
Feeling lost is such a good thing
Knowing that there are people who'll guide you
Show you the way
The real essence of life
Of course, will lead you to the path where you truly belong
For us to find ourselves
And not to feel lost again.