He's gone. I left. Seeing him with those bloodshot eyes was so hard. Not kissing him and telling him everything would be alright. Not being there for him was bad, but also necessary. I can't take it anymore. Seeing him with other girls who are prettier than me. Reading all of the rumours. Waiting for him to come home, but no that never came. Yesterday was awful. Seeing him there sitting on the stairs with his face in his hands. Seeing the pain I caused him. Leaving was the best option. I pressed my lips onto his for the last time. The spark that we had disappeared. Our special kiss changed into a normal kiss.
'Why does feel like a goodbye kiss?'
His words left a scar in my soul. Hearing him being sad is not a good thing. I changed him into this. Into a boy who cries and feels down.
'I'm so sorry, Shawn.'
I pulled back and just turned around to walk away.
'NO! WHAT HAPPENED TO US.'
He shouted at me. Tears were streaming down his face onto his chest.
'IF YOU GET INTO YOUR CAR THEN IT IS OVER.'
I didn't look back. I just walked to my car and opened the door.
'Goodbye, Shawn.'
I got in my car and just watched him break down. Crying his eyes out. Sometimes you have to leave the one you really love. I started the motor and saw him looking at me.
'I FUCKING LOVE YOU, Y/N.'