"Swiftie, you have to talk at some point." He sighed as I revved the engine of the old pick up truck.
"I talked..." I said softly. "And I just did again." It was a take back. To see that there was a peanut... I mean baby, inside of me.
He laughed, "So where are we going?" He asked.
I shrugged. "Somewhere."
"Please be happy." He pleaded.
"How can I be happy, Taylor? I don't want this! I have never wanted this!" I slammed on the brakes at the stop sign and started balling my eyes out. I was pounding on the steering wheel and screaming at the top of my lungs. "You don't understand what I'm going through!" I turned and screamed into Taylor’s innocent eyes. "The one time I have sex I get knocked up!"
"That's right..." He shrugged. "I wouldn't." He fell into the back of his seat and threw his hands through his hair.
I pulled my curls back from my face and wiped my eyes. I swallowed hard. "Babe, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to lash out at you like that." He continued to stare at the road with his hand latched on the handle of the door, as if at any moment to break free. "Taylor..." I put my hand on his shoulder. "I'm sorry..."
He swallowed and his Adams apple bounced. "Just drive."
I took a deep breath as I turned back to the steering wheel and started driving again. I flicked on the radio to break the silence, and sure enough, Crazy Girl was playing. Tay and I looked and each other and smiled.
"How can I ever stay mad at you?" He laughed then took my hand.
"Fairly simple."
He kissed my hand. "Never, ever! So..." He started. "Where are we going?"
"Somewhere that is really important to me!" I giggled. "I have to visit this place every time I come to Nashville."
"I don't have any idea."
"Well then you’re going to have to wait. You'll never guess the place anyway!"
We reached my favorite place ever. Bluebird cafe! Unfortunately they were closed for the long weekend.... Good for me though. I have my own key; I got it when I was 16. And plus, the owner already said it's fine.
"A cafe?" Tay asked with a raised eyebrow as I pulled up. "Seriously."
"Yes! It’s where some like to call it 'discovered' but I prefer, 'found'." I smiled and hopped out of the truck, grabbing my guitar from the back. "Let's go, common!" I opened the door with the turn of a key and grabbed hold of Tay's hand.
It wasn't an overly sunny day in Nashville, but it was nice enough. The sun shone just the right amount, and the whether was perfect. "Ok, so imagine this! I walk in, the place is just... Crowded! Every table is taken and the line is just... Way overwhelming! So, I'm standing there in line, guitar in hand, just really craving a nice caramel latte after a crazy day of school. And all of a sudden this really stressed out looking girl in an apron, comes running up to me from behind the desk. And she says, 'you play guitar?' And before I could reply she says, 'great, you wanna go over there and play something for us?' And then she was gone. So I walk over to the stool in the corner on the stage, and I'm trembling like crazy. I sit down, pull out my guitar and start strumming away, playing A Place In This World. Soon enough, people were tossing anything from the extra change in their pocket to ten dollar bills into my guitar case. After almost everyone left the girl that came up to me before came up to me once again. 'Thank you so much!' She said and she was so happy, then she offered me to come back everyday! I gladly accepted. Later that week, Scott had come in for a coffee. It just so happened I was just about finished playing a song and had gotten up in line behind him. He basically claimed I was really good and asked if I was signed to anyone. I told him no, and then we'll... Long story short, he signed me to his new label, Big Machine Records." I took a deep breath after explaining it.
"Claimed really well? Not just really good..." He smiled. "Taytastic!"
I giggled and kissed him gently. "I love you!" I rustled my hand through his hair. "Ready for a new song?"
He laughed, "more than ready!"
I like the way you sound in the morning
We're on the phone and without a warning
I realize your laugh is the best sound
I have ever heard
I like the way I can't keep my focus
I watch you talk, you didn't notice
I hear the words, but all I can think is
We should be together
Every time you smile, I smile
And every time you shine, I'll shine for you
Whoa, I'm feeling you baby
Don't be afraid to
Jump then fall
Jump then fall into me
Baby, I'm never gonna leave you
Say that you wanna be with me too
'Cause I'm gonna stay through it all
So jump then fall
Well, I like the way your hair falls in your face
You got the keys to me; I love each freckle on your face
Oh, I've never been so wrapped up, honey
I like the way you're everything I ever wanted
I had time to think it over
And all I can say is come closer
Take a deep breath and jump
Then fall into me
'Cause every time you smile, I smile
And every time you shine, I'll shine for you
Whoa, I'm feeling you baby
Don't be afraid to
Jump then fall
Jump then fall into me
Baby, I'm never gonna leave you
Say that you wanna be with me too
'Cause I'm gonna stay through it all
So jump then fall
The bottom's gonna drop out from under our feet
I'll catch you, I'll catch you
When people say things that bring you to your knees
I'll catch you
The time is gonna come when you're so mad you could cry
But I'll hold you though the night until you smile
Whoa oh, I need you baby
Don't be afraid please
Jump then fall
Jump then fall into me
Baby, I'm never gonna leave you
Say that you wanna be with me, too
'Cause I'm gonna stay through it all
So jump then fall
Jump then fall, baby
Jump then fall into me, into me, into me
Every time you smile, I smile
And every time you shine, I'll shine
And every time you're here, baby, I'll show you
I'll show you, you can
Jump then fall
Jump then fall
Jump then fall
Into me, into me
"Hey Tay!" My mom said on the other side of the phone.
"Hi mom! What's up?" I asked holding my phone in one hand and driving with the other.
"Your father and I were wondering if yell had plans for dinner tonight."
"Nope!"
"Perfect! We will make your favorite!"
"Okay, well, we are on our way home anyway. See you soon." I hung up the phone and turned to Taylor. "Dinner with my folks ok with you?"
He shrugged, "if you are, I am!"
I licked my lips, "Taylor..." I started.
"Ya?" He asked, "What’s wrong?"
"Wasn't it crazy to see that tiny peanut? Like... It was the size of a jelly bean! It was crazy small!"
"That's how they all start out, Taybear!" He pulled out the envelope with the pictures and was looking at them. "One day she will be just as beautiful as you! Well... Maybe not as beautiful, because no one can be as beautiful and flawless as you."
"She?" I asked with a raised eyebrow.
"I mean... The baby."
I giggled. "I know.
We sat down at the dinner table after we were called, as if we were innocent teenagers. My dad smiled at Taylor and I and I instantly regretted telling him everything. He sat at the head of the table and Austin rushed down the stairs. Hoping I wouldn't be tonight's conversation, I quickly turned it to Austin. "So, Aust, where is Selena?" I asked.
He bit the inside of his check. "I should know?" He replied.
I glanced at Taylor then back at my brother. "Um, well, I would think, your dating." He didn't reply. "Aren't you?"
He rolled her eyes. "She kind of slept around while I was gone. TA informed me."
"TA?" Tay whispered.
"The Agency." I whispered back. "That sucks Aus, I'm sorry."
He shrugged. "No big deal, she wasn't anything special... Ok, maybe she was, but I'm over it."
Taylor and I glanced at each other then back at him. "Who ended it?" He asked confused, as was I.
"I did... But uh, can we change the subject...?" Aus said smiling at dad.
"Ok..." Dad started and my heart stared beating faster. "Taybear, didn't you have a doctor’s appointment for..."
"Um! Yeah!" I said extremely loud, cutting him off and hoping my mother and bro didn't hear what he said.
He raised an eyebrow. "Is everything okay hunny?" Mom asked from the kitchen.
"Um...y-Ya. Why?"
"For instance, you don't usually stutter."
"It’s a new thing she caught on to when my sister was visiting." Taylor covered. "She stutters a lot!"
"Ya!" I smiled.
"Then what was the doctor's appointment for?"
Taylor and I looked each other. "J-just a check up."
My dad raised both eyebrows. "I thought it was about the baby?" He asked.
I huffed and threw my face in my hands and tried to keep from making eye contact. Tay put his arm on my shoulder and rubbed my back. "BABY?" My mom screamed and I'm pretty sure I heard a plate smash on the ground which instantly gave me a head ache. I slowly slid my hands from my face and looked at my brother staring at us. I looked behind my shoulder to see my mom standing there, mouth wide open. I wearily laughed and smiled. "Baby?" mom asked again, walking over to us. I smile grew upon her face.
I nodded my head and poked my belly. "Baby." I sighed.
"Your preggo?!" Austin said, almost laughing.
Dad gulped. "I guess they weren't supposed to know. Sorry babe."
I looked at Taylor. "And mom, it's not exactly... A blessing..."
Her smile disappeared and raised an eyebrow. "Meaning?"
I looked at Tay. "You break it to them!"
He sighed, "The baby isn't exactly mine."
There were a few moments of silence then Austin scoffed. "God damnit! That guy never stops till her gets what he wants and defeats you!" Mom and dad were a tad confused. "Jonas!" He said clearing it up.
Mom closed her eyes to reduce the amount of tears flowing from her eyes. Dad's face filled with anger and I wanted to defend him for some reason, but didn't.
Even though my mom made my favorite dish, her famous spaghetti and meatballs, no one said a word at the dinner table. After I finished eating, I stood up and pulled Taylor's hand up with me. "Thank you for dinner." I said softly, the walked off, hanging my head in shame. I ran down the stairs and jumped up on to my bed, squeezing my head into a pillow.
Taylor lightly closed the door behind him, and sat down beside me on the bed and started rubbing my back. He started to say things several times, but then stopped. He flopped back on his back and I heard him sigh. I popped my head out from the pillow and kissed him gently. "I love you." I whispered softly.
He turned his head to look at me. "I love you too, Swiftie."
A knock at the door forced us both of us to sit up. I pulled my knees to my chest and mumbled for whoever was at the door to come in. "Sorry, bear." My dad sighed. "I figured your mom knew."
I shook my head. "It’s ok. She'll get over it eventually; I just wish I could have told her my own way, she would’ve probably understood it better."
"But considering the circumstances, she kept her cool!" Tay laughed.
"So true!" Dad and I laughed together.
"She wants to talk to you. Is that alright?" I nodded and Taylor stood up to leave. "Like the both of you!"
"Oh. Ok." He shrugged then sat back down.
My dad left and my mom came in. "So..." She said followed by a massive huff. "A baby, eh?"
I nodded. "Scary, I know."
"And you’re keeping it... Right?"
I nodded again. "How could I not?"
"There's my Taybear!"
"Mom." I mumbled. "Are you mad?"
She sat down on the bed and grabbed Taylor and I's hands. She looked at me deeply in the eyes. "Mad? I can't be mad at you for it. I know you inside out; I can see how this happened. I know how you work." She looked at Taylor. "Thank you for loving my baby girl!" She looked at us back and forth. "Have you maybe thought about moving to Nashville?"
"Well..." I started. "Dads friend, Mike, the relater, he is showing us some houses tomorrow! We didn't plan on telling you because..."
"Because I'm me and I over react quickly! I don't blame you!" She laughed.
"But its not a for sure thing!" Tay mumbled.
"Just an idea." I agreed. "I don't know anything right now. I don't if we are gonna tell Joe, we don't know if he wants to be involved, we don't know anything. So we are just kind of out on a whim right now!"
"Taybear!" My dad called from just outside my bedroom door. "Get up and ready so we can go house hunting!"
"Kay!" I sighed, sitting up and rubbing my eyes. I rubbed my fingers through his messy dark hair, "Baby, its time to wake up." I whispered. Refusing to wake, I kissed him, and seconds later, his eyes popped open. I giggled.
Jumping out of bed I slipped on my old bunny slippers and started rummaging through my older jewelry boxes finding some of my favorite old items. Out of old habit, I clicked my High School choker around my neck and felt as if I had reunited with an old friend. After all, at sixteen, I was emotionally attached to this choker...
"This house is perfect for a couple there are two bedrooms, an office, one and a half baths, a two car garage, and as you can see, lots of yard space." The relater, Mike said.
"How many square feet if it?" Tay asked.
"Fifteen hundred."
Tay nodded. "Okay, let's have a look." He didn't sound very enthused.
"I'm game for anything; I want to get a good feel for everything!" I smiled and took Tay's hand when he reached for mine. We walked into the mainly hardwood house. Not the greatest kitchen and not even a good living area. We left that place fairly fast!
When we reached the next house, I instantly got a good vibe. I hopped out of the pick up truck and took a whiff of the rainbow'd tulips. The entire front lawn was green as Emerald. Stepping stones lead to the door way and I could easily imagine having my family here. "How many bedrooms?" I asked.
"Three. It includes living area, fairly good kitchen, a smaller garage, but it has an extra room; a bonus room!” He said unlocking the door. The house was gorgeous! And I'm pretty sure Taylor and I had both our hearts set on it. But then Tay asked how far it was from town, and my parent’s house. "An hour from town and forty five minutes away from my parents." That caught us off guard.
We glanced at each other and shook our heads, "no." We said in unison.
"Alright, well, I have one more that I think you might like and suit ur fancy!" He brought us to a gorgeous bungalow. It had three bedrooms, two and a half baths, a three car garage and a lot of gorgeous land. And if we wanted to add on to the house in the future, there was so much room we could, easily! It was a bit plain, but I will tell you right meow, I aint not decorating fool!