I hate you
When you suddenly appeared
Then flew out into the earth
Since what time do you like me?
I don't remember
When did you call my name in the first time?
I also didn't remember
After all of those then you disappeared
I remembered only your slight shadow
I barely didn't know your appearance
Since when we know each other?
I really didn't remember
I only remember your voice
You said "I am your senior college friend"
Years has passed, but your shadow
Even only a slight but it settle
Somewhere in me
What I know then we never met each other
And then suddenly you came
I didn't remember the exact time your appearance
Bekasi? Jakarta?
What I remeber is only our talking in Monas yard
Together like a couple
What I knew my heart beat fast. Desire.
I didn't recognize what story you told me
It was like I understand you
No, I am not
Nope
I just trying to understand myself
Learning the desire inside me
The desire control my mind
I lack my logic thinking
Therefore....
I was not a patient one but I was
I was not a good listener but I can
Moreover I could only silent when you said
"There is someone that I can't leave"
Broke
My heart broken
Hate
I hate so much
How can I witstand my pride
What did he think about me?
Do he think I am such a pathetic person?
But, because of it....
I could only silent
Or trying to understand
Because of it....
I didn't want to make you hesitate
I walk back
Going to the reverse path
After all of those time I hate you a lot
That makes you always live in my memory