Dean
"Come on Dean you need to go home and shower get out of this room your parents are probably worried" Pete says looking at me with a worried expression. He's wrong though my parents aren't worried my mom doesn't know and my father doesn't care. "Come on at least eat you haven't eaten in a week now" he says shoving a muffin in my hands. I haven't eaten, spoke except to the doctors but that's just one word answers to questions or asking if Winters made any progress or to Winter, or left this room since Winter was put here. That was a week ago turns out she fainted from lack of food and blood loss the doctors say she anorexic. I guessed as much but I didn't want it to be true so I never really thought about it but saying it makes it true. Pete's been here to but he goes home and still acts like a human I know it's affecting him too he just deals with it differently. "Come on man talk to me I'm worried about you all you've done this past week is sit in that chair watching Winter your gonna get sick" he's right I probably will get sick but Winter is more important and she's in a coma right now. "I have to get to work call me if anything changes ok"he says and I nod waiting for him to walk out. "Winter love can you hear me the doctors said that talking to you would help but it's not working" I say to Winter in a horse voice. "Please just wake up I can't think straight without you I need you your the only thing that's keeping me alive your my air and I can't breathe without you" I plead with her. "I haven't left I promised I would stay by your side and help you and I'm not breaking that promise" I grab her cold hand and wrap it in my warm one rubbing my thumb over her knuckles. "You've been here for about a week now Pete's really worried he doesn't show it that much but I can tell" I stop and wait for a response you'd think I'd be used to one sided conversations now but I still wait to her voice in my head. Sometimes I can guess how she'd react to what I say but other times I'm left clueless. "Winter why did you do it why did you hurt yourself so bad you had to go to the hospital" I ask the same question I ask everyday and wait painfully for a response that I won't get. "Please wake up I love you Winter so much I need you more then you know I have so much to tell you and I want to know about what goes on your head" I say feeling completely unable to do anything. "You might not know but I'm broken just like you and I need you to help put me back together just like you need me to do the same" I've gotten to point where I say anything that comes to mind but it's still true I've just taken the filter off . "Please just do something to let me know that your ok I love you " I say and then I feel a squeeze it's light and almost feels like it never happened.
I'm probably imagining it I heard if you really want something to happen you can trick yourself into believing it happened. Then it happened again stronger this time and any doubts left. "Winter" I ask and then she opens her eyes and my world starts turning again as I stare into her brown eyes . "Oh Winter you don't know how worried I was about you I need to get a doctor and your brother I can't believe your awake" I say she makes a motion as if to ask for something to write with it's weak but I can see it. I nod and hand her my phone she smiles a thanks and starts typing. "I love you I heard everything you said and I'm sorry" I read the text and a suddenly I'm embarrassed I sounded like a baby I can feel my face heat and I get even more embarrassed at the fact that I'm blushing. " I'm gonna go get the doctor" I say running out and I see her face light up in a smile as she knows I'm only saying this to avoid talking about it. I walk and I try to find doctor Rhodes she was the one who talked to me when I first came here. "Doctor Rhodes it's Winer she awake" I say happily which is a big change to how I was when I first got here. "Really that's great let's go back I need to check on Winter and make sure
everything is ok and that she knows what's going on" she says and we head back to her room. "Good afternoon Ms.Micheals I'm Doctor Rhodes how are you feeling" she asks once we walk in. Winter gives her a nervous smile and a thumbs up in return she gets a confused look from the doctor probably wondering why she didn't talk. "Oh yeah Winter is mute so she can't answer in spoken words just sign language and classic writing" I say. She nods before checking to make sure everything with Winter ok. "Ok so your probably wondering why your here" Doctor Rhodes says with a smile Winter just nods in return trying to keep it simple. "Ok so you fainted from lack of food and blood loss and you have an eating disorder called anorexia ok sweetheart" she says nicely Winter looks down not meeting our gaze and nods. "So your gonna have to stay here for a week due to suicide watch and then you'll have to see a therapist every other day honey" again Winter nods not looking at up.
"Hey it's ok Winter look at me" I say gently and slowly she looks up at me but still doesn't meet my eyes. We're gonna get through this you wanna know how I know because your one of the people I've ever met with all the messed up stuff you've had to go through and yet your still sure you might slip and fall but that's why I'm here to help you get back up because I love you" I say sincerely I'm gonna help her get better and make sure she knows that shes loved. I watch a tear falls from her face and on to her lap and quickly wrap my arms her in a tight hug. "It's ok baby I love you" I say again my wolf whimpering in my head seeing Winter so visibly sad and hurt is killing him. "Ok so besides that you are going to have to continue to see the therapist after you leave but you'll only have to go twice a week unless you feel you need more then twice a week ok" Doctor Rhodes says and I pull away from Winter so she can respond but stay hold her hand. Winter gives her a thumbs up and she tells her that they will be bringing lunch soon then she leaves. ' Where's Pete why isn't he here ' I hear Winters voice echo around in my head it almost calms my wolf down hearing her voice but he knows by the sound of it that she's not ok. "Oh I forgot to call him he went to work or something give me a second" I say and I pull out my phone texting Pete that Winters awake he responds back saying he'll be here in five minutes. "He's on his way we've both been so worried" I say feeling some of my sadness from earlier come back. "Why did you do Winter I tried to ask Pete if he had any idea why but he said he didn't want to talk about it" I say remembering when I had asked Pete while we were waiting for a doctor to tell if she was ok or not. ' I am got a letter from my mom that said why I was a wolf and Pete wasn't and I found out some news that really didn't want to know ' she says and I nod giving her hand a squeeze. ' I'm adopted but not officially my mom had um offered to take care of me until my real parents could they were only about 16 when they had me and couldn't handle the stress, but um then they died and so my mom and dad were practically forced to keep me and I was probably just a burden to them Pete didn't know until I told him the night before I got here ' she says her voice breaking during some parts. ' I guess at that moment everything just crashed down ' she continues I lean over and wipe away a stray tear with my free hand and give her another bone crushing hug. "I'm sure Pete doesn't care if your him blood sister or not you guys grew up together well for the most part" I say and she nods.
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Winter
I grip my head in pain as a painful shoots across my forehead causing me to cringe, maybe it's because of the blood loss but that was a week ago. Why would my head be hurting now? Honestly I don't know. Dean and Pete left a few hours ago we hung out for about four hours after Pete got here and they would have stayed longer but visiting hours were over and they already gave them an extra hour. "How are you feeling Winter I got your dinner" one of the night nurses I assume says as she walks in with fake happiness. I give her a thumbs up and she leaves. Honestly I don't know how I feel I'm numb and don't know weather to be relieved or disappointed that I'm still alive. The only thing that's letting me know that I'm still alive is the steady beep of my heart monitor and the surging pain in my head. Gah I've never had a headache this bad it's even worse then one I had before I was hospitalized. It's weird right I never used to get headaches often I would maybe get them once or twice every couple of months, but never this bad. I don't know maybe I'm worrying to much and my depression is causing them I don't even know if that's how it works. Your a failure and a disappointment now you couldn't even end you misriable life. Dean was hoping you would die praying that he wouldn't have to take care of you anymore but you had to wake up. I thought that voice would be gone by now why isn't it I did everything I even landed myself in a hospital. Oh not everything your still breathing. Please why can't you just leave me alone. I can't even call for help because well I'm sure you know why by now besides it's not like anyone would care. I can't believe you failed at the one thing you wanted to do maybe that's all you can do fail. Please just leave me alone go away I don't want to listen to you shut up. My heart monitor starts beeping faster as I start to panic. Suddenly I see a girl who looks like me only she has a darker look to her. Aren't you gonna say hello she say and I realise she has the same voice as in my head. I've given that voice a place in my life a visible body and it makes it so much more real. Go away your not real go. The beeping gets faster and faster suddenly doctors are rushing in surrounding me. I'm as real as you make me I won't disappear until you have enough control to make but I don't think that will happen anytime soon your so weak the girl says and I start crying. "Winter calm down what's going on" one if the doctors say but I can't comprehend what he's saying as I'm to focused on the girl. Who are you why won't you leave me alone why I'm you well mostly but you can just call me Alex if it makes you feel better. I feel I sharp pain in my arm and then I start to feel calm and sleepy the world becomes clear and Alex disappears. My eyes fall form my sudden tiredness and I give in falling asleep.
When I wake up Doctor Rhodes is waiting with a worried expression and Dean is sitting next to her with a worried expression. "Winter honey what happened last night the night doctors said they had to sediate you" she asks and I nod I don't remember much only having a headche and the panicing then doctors and lots of them. My memories are just snipits and I don't know why. ' I don't remember what happened ' I sign and Dean translates for me. "Ok well what do you remember" she asks in a calming voice I tell her what I remember and Dean of course translates the whole thing he's getting better at sign language. About a minute after I'm done signing them everything my memories come rushing back. I remember the voice coming to life. Her looking just like me. Telling me to call her Alex and the doctors coming in. Lastly I remember her disapearing. "Winter are you ok you look a little shaken up" Doctor Rhodes says and I just fake a smile and give her a thumbs up. Dean sends me a pointed look and then I hear his voice in my head ' we'll talk later I know you probably don't trust her but please trust me' he pleads and I nod. The doctor looks at me a little weirdly before brushing it off and pointing towards the tray of fresh food. I haven't eaten since I got I don't need to and I don't think I can stomach it must smelling it makes me feel sick and like I'm gonna throw up. They surprisingly haven't noticed that I throw the food away before they come back to take the trays away. "Ok well I'll be back later" she says and leaves.
"Winter are you ok last night I could feel your panic I tried to mind link you but it was blocked please tell me what happened" he beggs worry clear in his face. Don't tell him about me he won't care Alex appears standing next to him just as I'm about to tell him what happened. ' I just had a nightmare about um Josh and back when all that happened' I lie but he seems to believe it as he frowns and comes closer to me. "He won't get near you ever again I promise I won't let him hurt you" he kisses my forehead and I smile up him loving the feeling he brings to my numb body. Don't trust him he whishes Josh would come and take you away from him then he wouldn't have to deal you. Alex laughs in my ear as she says this. Why did she have become something that I can see it makes everything she says so much more believable and real. I became real because your weak and cant even control your own thoughts. I guess shes right but what did I do to deserve all this. Simple you were born if you weren't born everybody's life would be so much better. She right she's always right why does she have to be right. "Winter are you listening" Dean says loudly in my ear pulling me from my conversation with Alex and making her disappear .' Oh um no sorry what were you saying ' I ask sheepishly. " Well I have good news Doctor Rhodes said I could take you home long as I keep and eye on you and make sure you eat and go to therapy but either you'll have to stay with me or I'll have to stay with you" he says and I nod thank god I don't don't like hospitals but then again I don't think anyone does. ' whichever you prefer is fine with me' I say. "Well my mom's gonna be back from her trip in about two days so do you wanna stay at my house" he asks and I nod kinda glad that his dad won't be there he scares me and there's just something off about him.
"Ok well get ready cause I already signed you so we can leave whenever" he says I nod and try to stand up which I fail at. Ok so maybe staying in a bed for almost nine days isn't good for you. "Are you ok" Dean asks helping me ' yeah just need to get used to walking again ' I say and he nods this I'm when I try to walk I actually can. "Oh I brought you some clothes" he hands me a pair of skinny jeans and my black veil brides hoodie I thank him and go to the bathroom to change. When I get out Dean is sitting on the bed waiting for me "ok come on let's go" he says and he grabs my hand causing butterflies to fill my stomach flying around. You'd think I'd get use to the tingles being with Dean causes but since I'm new to whole mate wolf thing -well not really it's been awhile since I found out and I kinda am one I just haven't shifted yet. We go I to the waiting room and a few nurses and doctors smile at me whishing me good luck other just stare like they know I'm ready for this, and the fact that they don't think I can make it kinda saddens me. We got out to parking g lot and get into Dean's car of course and drive over to his house.
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Hello did you guys like the chapter it was kinda longer then usual but I hope you enjoyed reading and that I didn't bore you. I'm still not back for good but I'm trying to update every chance I get. Again I'm so sorry about this
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