so,
it's been a few months since i've written.
a lot has changed.
i dont talk to certain people
i dont do certain things
i dont act certain ways
and i dont say certain things
i feel like ive changed. for the worse, for the better, i dont know.
i lost a 13 year relationship in three hours this summer. that has made me a very angry and short tempered person. i dont blame anyone except them for that. but i feel guilty because when that happened i cut many people off. people cut me off. no one understood. people changed. i changed.
and i dont think it was a good change.
i wish i could be the person i used to be.
i hate the new me.
it's been weird not writing. i lost inspiration. with the people that came and left in my life, so came and went my inspiration. my happiness came and went. my life came and went.
i unpublished two of my stories. no one will have noticed.
anyways,
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