It was near midnight.
I was up, staring at my ceiling.
Waiting for my “boyfriend” to come home.
That word tasted sour in my mouth.
He doesn’t deserve that title anymore.
Not after what I found.
You lay here with me, you're shuttin' down
I smell her on you, I'm focused now
I know what's goin' on in your head, yeah
I know what's happened here in our bed, yeah
Your phone is buzzin', so pick it up
I know she callin', so what the fuck, ah?
I should've known a cheat stays a cheater
So here we are
We were so perfect.
Everything was beautiful.
I loved him and he loved me…..
Or so I thought.
The first time I found out, he said sorry.
And I forgave him. Trusting him to stop.
But……
He didn’t
And there goes the alarm ringin' in my head
Like somebody said, "Don't you trust him?" No.
Textin' from his ex, what did you expect?
Now you're lyin' here knowin' where he goes
Now he gotta get you
Karma is a bitch, yeah
Same way that they come that's the way they go
Now he gotta get you
Rewindin' the picture
There goes the alarm and the sirens go
I couldn’t count the times I would come home and he would be in our bed.
Naked or covered in hickeys.
Or when he’d come home late.
Smelling like cologne and covered in lipstick stains.
As much as he tried to hide it, I always knew.
And sadly always forgave him.
I just couldn’t bear losing him.
I loved him.
But here I sit, waiting for him.
I wanted to confront him.
There goes the alarm
I saw it comin', I let it go
My girls will tell me, "I told you so."
But I was so intrigued by your style, boy
Always been a sucker for a wild boy
I'm better than this, I know my worth
I might be gettin' what I deserve
But I ain't stickin' 'round for the rerun
What's done is done
I heard him come in through the front door.
I usually go and hug him and give him a kiss, asking how his day was.
Not today though.
He needs to know how much he’s hurt me.
I heard him come into “our” room. I ignored him.
Instead, I was packing.
“Ohm, where are you going?” He asked in his sexy southern accent.
I was about ready to crumble and ask for forgiveness.
But I couldn’t.
That should be him. Not me.
I needed to stay strong.
And there goes the alarm ringin' in my head
Like somebody said, "Don't you trust him?" No.
Textin' from his ex, what did you expect?
Now you're lyin' here knowin' where he goes
Now he gotta get you
Karma is a bitch, yeah
Same way that they come that's the way they go
Now he gotta get you
Rewindin' the picture
There goes the alarm and the sirens go
I didn’t answer him. He asked again.
I just tried to hold in my tears as I finished packing.
“Ohm answer me!” He was angry now.
I turned to face him, tears streaming down my face.
His brown eyes automatically softened.
He knows he fucked up.
He looked so hot though which made me cry even harder.
My heart wanted to just fall into his arms.
To let him use me.
To let him abuse my love for him.
But my brain said no.
There goes the alarm
Now he gotta get you
Same way that they go
Now he gotta get you
There goes the alarm, yeah
Same way that they go
Now he gotta get you, yeah
I wiped away my tears, my hazel eyed hardened
I grabbed my bag and walked past him, keeping composer.
But…..
He caught me by my arm and pulled me to him.
I didn’t want to submit.
I wanted to pull away and just leave.
But his warm embrace kept me from doing so.
I just sunk into his arms.
“It’s okay, Ohmie. I’m so sorry.” he would whisper this repeatedly to me.
Bang bang, two shots fired
Man down, one fool, one liar
Ring ring, trust gone missin'
House on fire, house on fire
Bang bang, two shots fired
Man down, one fool, one liar
Ring ring, trust gone missin'
House on fire
I couldn’t leave him now.
I loved him too much I realized.
He can get better. He can get better.
He can stop his cheating.
I can forgive him.
I can ignore my brain telling me to leave.
To leave and never come back.
And listen to my heart instead.
It tells me that I love him.
I need to stay.
And there goes the alarm ringin' in my head
Like somebody said, "Don't you trust him?" No.
Textin' from his ex, what did you expect?
Now you're lyin' here knowin' where he goes
Now he gotta get you
Karma is a bitch, yeah
Same way that they come that's the way they go
Now he gotta get you
Rewindin' the picture
There goes the alarm and the sirens go
“I knew you wouldn’t leave.” He said.
I didn’t know what he meant by that.
But it doesn’t matter.
I still have him. I still love him.
He can stop the cheating.
The lying.
The abuse on my heart.
I know he can stop.
“Now unpack your stuff and we can have some fun.”
I just nodded.
I forgive him.
I love him.