Not Exactly Love Letters

1.

I'm happy you got what you wanted and I'm happy you made such an impact on me in such little time. I know it doesn't sound genuine, but even on the days I try to convince myself that I hate you, I know there's not one single part of me that could ever feel that towards you. I only have love for you. Even after you had it planned the whole time to do what you did, I don't blame you. That's just what you do. I hope you find a way to know love one day though. I know you think you knew love, with your ex and all, and that she ruined the only sense of it you had, but trust me when I say that wasn't love in the slightest bit. At least not what she had for you (cause when you really love someone it changes you for the better. It's the person that might change you for worse, she fucked you up, not love). You don't just wake up one day and find that you don't love someone anymore, love doesn't have a start and a finish line. If you grow to love someone or you end up falling in love with someone, you'll always have a part of you that loves them, no matter how much you try to convince yourself you hate them.