Unspoken poetry

my life

I was the girl in the corner
Jist turned eighteen
Ever since i was little
It was always my dream
To mary a man who would
Treat me just right
With loving bestfriend
For the rest of my life
But as i grew up my friends
All grew cold
So i twisted my life just to fit in their mould
Now my biggest fear is that
Ill be rejected
Ill try anything to feel
Loved and accepted
I post photos on instagram
Hoping that now
My body attract what
My heart cant somehow
Slowly turning myself
Into somethng im not
Desperate for anyone
To think that im hot
but that love that i crave
Has never come through
And all the dreams that i once held
Has havent come true
I tried parties and drinking
Just a little to start
Anything to fill that big hole
In my heart
Now im sleeping around
Hoping love will be found
But my heart lies empty
From the sorrow im drowned
Beacuase deep down i know
That i am not bold
On the outside ill build
So my life will seem filled
But on the inside
Im never completed
I.NEVER.DID