you know just what to do
to make me feel so incredibly alone
you burrow deep into my heart
every nook and cranny is infatuated with thoughts of you
you tear me apart
you make me feel like a stranger
to myself
but how is it
after you destroy the bitter pieces of what's left of me,
and make my heart yearn for your ice cold eyes,
i can still love you just the same
d.l.b.
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how is it
those three words
can make someone's whole existence worthwhile,
while shattering another's heart
how is it
those three words
form protection, happiness, and serenity
but also pain, hurt, and despair
how it it
you love her while i love you
d.l.b.
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keep your desire
adorable and unique
for you
are
my sun,
my moon,
my stars,
forever i will love
you, my dear
forever
d.l.b.
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your name
just a silly little 5 letter word
yet every time someone says it
i swear, the sun shines a little bit brighter,
the air smells a little sweeter
just a silly little 5 letter word
but that 5 letter word
changes my life
d.l.b.
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it's nights like these
when i want you
curled up beside me.
i'll listen to your heart beat
while you listen to mine.
we'll wake up in the morning
happy as can be
because we have each other
d.l.b.
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sometimes i pretend how life would be with you by my side.
no, not imagine.
pretend.
pretending is so much more valuable than imagining.
imagining can only take you so far.
pretending can take you anywhere
pretending is realer
and more fanciful.
imagining is cloudy
while pretending is crystal clear.
so no,
i don't imagine us side by side ready to take on the world.
i pretend.
d.l.b.
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526 miles away
oh this distance is too much
my eyes can only take so much crying
i long for the day
i can hold you in my arms
i'll be 0 miles away
and i'll be happy
but alas,
today isn't the day
i guess i'll just have to wait
526 miles away
d.l.b.
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i can't even begin to describe how much you mean to me
you're my rock,
my shield,
my protection.
and i love you for that.
but not only for that.
for you.
d.l.b.
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insomnia
keeps me up at night
or that's what everyone thinks
but in reality,
it's not insomnia
it's you
d.l.b.
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oh how i wish
you were here with me right now.
right now at this very moment.
i think i'll go crazy without you
but having you right here,
right now,
would make it all ok
d.l.b.
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today,
you told me you were coming.
coming those 526 miles
just to see me.
it made me feel special,
like i was on your mind.
and when i asked you about the others,
you said i was the only one.
but my heart started breaking,
when you said you had to go.
i'll be waiting,
waiting for my heart to soar once again
d.l.b.
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oh how i long to hold your hand
kiss your lips
run my fingers through your hair
d.l.b.
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if i had any wish
in the whole world,
just one,
i'd wish for a plane.
so i could take myself to you.
d.l.b.
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you make me feel
so many emotions
at one time and
i don't think that my mind
can handle it.
d.l.b.
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i'm waiting to get a package
from your cute little house
526 miles away
and once i do,
i'll hold it close,
knowing you once did the same
d.l.b.
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still no package.
but that's okay.
i'm sure that you're just taking your time
kissing every inch of my little gift
knowing that i'll do the same
d.l.b.
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it makes me sad
that you think that
i don't have enough time for you.
because i have
all the time in the world
especially for you
d.l.b.
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i don't know what you're doing right now.
and frankly,
i'm not quite sure what i'm doing either.
but what i do know,
is that we're under the same sky.
and even though,
you could be watching a movie,
taking a dip in the pool,
or even just sleeping,
while i'm sitting here writing this poem,
we're together.
in a weird little mixed up way.
d.l.b.
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i haven't talked to you for 5 days
5 agonizing days
sitting around
waiting
for something
you
d.l.b.
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maybe if everyone
were a bit more like you,
the world would be happy
d.l.b.
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i thought you had forgotten about me
so when i saw the message
pop up on my screen,
my heart overflowed with happiness
and excitement
d.l.b.
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sometimes i feel like
i get in your way
and you would just be better off without me
d.l.b.
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i like to read
fairy tales and pretend
that you're the prince
who's come to save me
from this horrible disaster
d.l.b.
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even just the little things you do
make me so happy
you're so adorable and cute
i don't even think you realize it
d.l.b.
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i so desperately want to tell you
all these feelings i'm having inside
and how much i long
to see your smiling face every day
but i say to myself,
"oh i'll tell him tomorrow,"
but what happens when tomorrow doesn't come
d.l.b.
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two boys
both wonderful
one is close,
the other far
one is young,
the other old
one is tall,
the other short
one is known,
the other seen
both wonderful
two boys
d.l.b.
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everywhere I go,
i see things that remind me of you.
oh look,
he would like that.
oh look,
he would say that.
oh look,
he would do that.
d.l.b.
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today's your birthday.
you're so wonderful, did you know that?
god knows if you'll ever see this.
i feel like i'm being pushed away by you.
but maybe it's just me.
happy birthday.
d.l.b.
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i thought you had forgotten about me.
so my heart leaped when i discovered you didn't.
i had forgotten about you for a bit.
but then everything came back.
d.l.b.
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oh my goodness gracious
you're the cutest
you make me so happy
and i just don't know
what my life would consist of
if you weren't in it
d.l.b.
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occasionally i'll look to see how you're doing.
but it just makes me sad
to see you can be happy without me,
because i can't be happy without you.
d.l.b.
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you came to me in a dream
and told me you loved me
after you had left me
what if my dream comes true?
what will become of us then?
i still remember what you looked like in my dream
you looked frightened
and i was confused
d.l.b.
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right now,
if someone were to ask me,
"what is he to you?"
i wouldn't know what to say.
because i don't know what you are to me.
and i feel us drifting apart every second.
but 4 months ago,
if someone were to ask me,
"what is he to you?"
i would know exactly what to say.
d.l.b.
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i watched you in a video today.
guess what happened.
nothing.
nothing happened.
my heart didn't start to race,
my palms didn't start to sweat,
my cheeks didn't begin to blush,
nothing.
it felt wrong.
like i needed to be doing something i wasn't.
i used to do all those things.
what happened?
d.l.b.
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i had a dream about you last night. i came to your show to surprise you and i sat in the second row. you came onstage and saw me and you smiled and i smiled and then you came down and sat behind me in the third row and put your hands over my eyes. you said you had a present for me. then i woke up. i don't know what my present was. maybe you were going to tell me that you loved me. i don't know.
d.l.b.
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i really think he likes me
happiness
joy
fulfillment
wonder
anxiety
despair
i really think he hates me
d.l.b.
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it's been one month since your birthday.
you used to make me so happy.
and now i'm just sad.
d.l.b.
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the only good thing
that came out of liking you,
was some really good poetry.
d.l.b.
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forgetting about
you. like a fish forgetting
what to do to swim.
d.l.b
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don't come running back to me.
you'll only make things worse.
i've cried over you too many times.
please don't come back.
d.l.b.
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the times i miss you,
are the times i remember
you're not coming back.
d.l.b
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i don't think things will ever go back to the way they were before
why did you cut me out of your life,
where i was lonely,
and sad,
and very confused
i know
d.l.b.
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you came running back to me.
and you only made things worse.
i cried over you too many times.
please go away.
d.l.b.
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if loving you has taught me anything,
it's to cherish every moment with someone.
you never know when they'll decide to leave.
d.l.b.
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i wonder if you're tired of me as much as i'm tired of you.
i wonder if you've cried over me as much as i've cried over you.
i wonder if you think of me as much as i think of you.
i wonder if you loved me as much as (i loved you)
d.l.b.
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remember when
we first met and I said that you were cute?
remember when
we joked about our futures together?
remember when
we made eachother laugh so hard we cried?
remember when
we used to stay up late talking to eachother?
remember when
you told me you loved me?
do you remember when?
or am i just a memory in the past?
d.l.b.
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