I sit at my desk as I do the homework assign for the weekend. Once I finish a large amount of it, I begin to review material for my classes. As my dark color eyes skim over the page in front of me, there's a knock at my bedroom door. "Come in," I call to them, my eyes never leaving the page.
I hear the door open and footsteps coming closer to me. Once I hear them stop, I finish the sentence I'm reading and turn around to see who it is. "Can I help you, Oppa?"
"Yeah, you need to tell Mino and Kyung your decision," he tells me.
"I wa-"
"Don't lie to me. I know that you were just going to ignore what happened a week ago. I wouldn't care this much if you spilt food on one of them, but this is their heart you're not responding to. You can't do that." Ji-ho runs a hand through his dark hair.
"But I-"
"Jia, I know you. I know that you won't tell them how you feel because you don't want to hurt the other one, so tell them that," he says.
I exhale and rub my eyes. "You're right, but when should I do it?"
"It should be soon. I can invite Kyung over and you two can talk it out, but you need to set up a meeting with Mino by yourself," Ji-ho states.
"Alright." I glance at the ground. "You're the best brother ever."
Ji-ho pulls out his phone and sends a text to Kyung. "I know. I'll send Kyung in when he arrives."
I nod, he leaves and I return to studying. About ten minutes later, I hear a knock on my door. "Come in," I say, my voice shaking.
As the door opens, I close my text book and turn around. I smile at Kyung, who closes my door and comes over to me. My heart is pounding against my chest as he smiles back.
"I heard you wanted to talk to me," he says.
I nod and stand up. "Kyung-oppa, I need to tell you my feelings for you." I take a deep breath in and try my hardest to remember what I wrote before he got here. I've been practicing my little speech since Ji-ho said he would invite Kyung over.
Kyung rests a hand on my shoulder and smiles at me. "No matter which one of us you pick — if you pick anyone — I'm never going to be upset or angry with you."
His words calm me down slightly but not by much. I take another deep breath in and stare up at him. "Kyung-oppa, I am happy you told me how you felt about me, but as of right now I'm not looking for a boyfriend. I know this isn't what you want to hear, but I don't want to keep leading you on and potentially hurt you."
Kyung smiles at me. "It's okay, Jia. I'm glad we can continue being friends and at the end of the day that's all I care about." Kyung pulls me into a hug. "Thank you for telling me this."
I wrap my arms around him. "I'm just happy you are taking this really well."
He kisses the top of my head. "Why wouldn't I?" I shrug my shoulders. "Thanks for being honest with me."
"Thanks for taking it well." We let go of one another and say goodbye. Kyung exits my room, goes across the hall to Ji-ho's and I continue to study.
I end up texting Minho later in the night seeing if it's okay to meet up in the art room after school Monday. When he replies saying that it's okay, a mixture of happiness and anxiety rush through my body. I just hope that Minho has a good reaction like Kyung did.
Monday morning comes and I get ready for school like I do every school day. On the way to school I continue to play with my back pack strap as I go over what I'm going to tell Minho.
"Ji-ho-oppa, I'm staying after school today," I inform my brother.
"Alright," he responds. He goes back to his conversation with Kyung.
We get to school, I bid them goodbye and go to my homeroom. I sit down at my desk as Minho walks in. I take a deep breath in to calm myself down. He sits down in front of me and smiles.
"Good morning," he says. Minho's dark bangs fall into his eyes as he smiles at me.
"Good morning," I say back. We begin to talk about our weekends, but I make sure not to tell him about the conversation I had with Kyung.
***
The time has finally come, it's about time to tell Minho how I feel after everything that has happened. I grab my things as I slowly trudge towards the art room I told him to meet me in.
I open the door and there is Minho sitting at a table in the room. I stroll over to him and set my bag on the table. I open my mouth to say something, but Minho stops me before I can start. "Before you tell me whatever you have to say, I need to tell you something first."
"What is it?" I wonder.
"It's about what happened a week ago. After I saw you and Kyung kiss, I got upset because I thought I should've been the one kissing you instead."
"Minho I-"
"No I need to apologize because I let my anger out on you and caused you to have an anxiety attack. That's something I don't want to do again, I never want to treat you like that again." Minho grabs my hand and walks around the table to me. "I'm so sorry that I did that and put you in that situation."
"Minho, it's okay. I completely forgive you." I smile at him.
"Are you sure?" He looks me in the eyes. I nod. "I'm so glad." He hugs me. I reciprocate and rest my head on his shoulder.
I really need this hug from him. I missed his hugs and his touch. How could I think I that I just want to be friends with Minho after everything he's done for me? He helped me so much through the whole Bada issue.
He let's go of me and stares at me. "What did you need to tell me?" He walks over to the window sill and leans on it.
"What I want to tell you is how I feel. I already told Kyung this, so now it's your turn." I take a deep breath. I open my mouth to tell him, but he once again cuts me off.
Why does he keep doing that?
"Jia, you don't have to tell me. I understand, you picked Kyung-hyung and now have to tell me." He grabs his bag and walks over to the door. "It's completely okay, I'm just glad you finally sorted everything out and picked the better option. I hope we can still be friends." He grabs the door handle and twists it.
"Song Minho! Don't go!" I shout to him.
He lets go of the silver handle and turns towards me. I let my heart take control of me, so I run over to him. I stand on my tip toes and place my lips on his. Minho instantly reacts, he kisses me back while placing his arms around my waist.
Our lips move together beautifully. I wrap my arms around his neck pulling him closer to me. I end up pulling away first so I can breath. "Minho, I choose you," I say in between pants. "I realize that I want you to hold me when I'm scared and to calm me down when I'm anxious. I choose you."
"Are you sure because I wouldn't if I were you. I'm impulsive and-"
"I guess I'll just have to deal with you and your bad traits, just like you will with mine." I smile at him.
"Are you serious about this? I'm not being pranked right?"
I peck his surprisingly soft lips. "I'm completely serious."
Minho pecks my lips and stares at me. At this moment, I realize how incredibly impulsive and reckless I was a moment ago. I feel this blush creep onto my face. I let go of Minho's neck and rest my head against his chest.
I feel his chest vibrate as he chuckles while hugging me. "You're so freaking cute," he whispers. "My adorable girlfriend."
The blush intensifies as my heart flutters at his words. I'm his girlfriend now. He's my first boyfriend. Today has been a pretty good but nerve wrecking day.
"Jia?"
"Yes?"
"How are your brothers going to react to this?"
I glance up to him and shrug my shoulders. "I'm going to say bad. I wish you luck." I smile at him. "I'll patch up any wounds you get from them."
"A girlfriend and a personal nurse wrapped up in one, this is amazing." He pecks my forehead. "Best deal ever."