2017 finally! I am not a person who created some resolution for every year. I always let myself go with the flow. I am getting more confuse when people ask me about what my dream is. I can't even said it. Maybe I don't even have a dream. Am I lucky? I always considered myself as a lucky girl. I do what I love now. I love to sing, to rap, to dance. I also love to draw. And I can do that things at the same time, it's pure joy. I thank God that 2016 went smoothly. We received so many loves. Won tons of music show, even won an award. We missed rookie awards, but within the year we got song of the year, artist of the year. I am so proud of my team.
2017, I decided to cut my hair really short. I thought I would hate this boyish look, but I love it too much. Of course fans are mad at me perhaps, but I want to do what I want. Even JYP himself shocked when he saw me with this new haircut. He said, next time I should gave him a heads up first, my bad. First thing that happen in 2017 is Idol Athlectic Championship. I really love this time. Time to meet another group and have talk with them, make friends. That's always be my theory, fact is I will be enjoying my time with my member.
Mina Unnie's get her chance to show off her skill again this time. She through a hard time last year when she failed too much in ISAC 2016. She even cried, I know how hard she practiced. That time we also buy with TT comeback, she even made time to practiced at the gym even for a late night. On the D-day, she was just nervous. This time, she prepared even harder, I once came to the gym to saw her practice. She and her determined mind are so something that worth watching. She did everything just beautifully especially when it's related to ballet and flexibility. This time, she will win for sure. She's so nervous since the dawn. The rhythm gymnastic is the last competition. She has to be nervous for 6 hours. But, she's Mina Unnie, she won't let you recognize that she's nervous. The whole time she's just sitting still behind me. Her eyes fixed to one point, she even humming her song for the performance all the time. All of sudden she hug me from the behind.
"Are you nervous, Unnie" I have to ask this while I'm the one who nervous now too probably.
"Hemm" She say it while resting her chin on my shoulder.
"Don't worry" I pat her head. "Just do your best, no need to think that you have to bring our team the gold medal"
"Hemm" She say it again with pouting, I peek at her, she's too cute.
"I need strength from you" She say it again.
"Here let me give you" I put my hands on top of her hands and stroking it. "Don't be too nervous, okay? What ever the result is, I know how hard you tried, I know how hard you practice. The output will never betray the process, Unnie"
"Thank you. As expected you could give me strength"
"You're welcome"
We sit in that position for a very long time. Talking about random things in order to get her mind subside. I am happy that she hold me and I holds her now.
I really really love watching her doing a dance. She did dance so beautifully. This time she chose a ball to be her property. They said that ball is the hardest property since it has round shape. But Mina Unnie did it perfectly, no mistake like last year. Perfect. As I said, the output will never betray the process, we took home the gold medal for sure. She's the only athlete who done it with perfection. She cried again this time, a good cry. As my members hug her, I just watch her. She whispers thank you to me. That's enough, I don't have to hug her, she knows already that I feel proud of her.
Thanks to my men haircut, we have 2 short haircuts in our group now. I now become the new girl crush. I don't expect that, I don't want that title. That belongs to Jeongyeon Unnie forever. I think I will grow back my hair just like OOH AHH period. I love short hair cut. It suits me. It wasn't until Super Event that Jeongyeon Unnie forced me to said "I love you" to Mina Unnie. It was one of the moments where I should tell good words the other person beside me, Mina Unnie happened to sit beside me. I was calm. I told her what I really feel about her. I don't like seeing her hurt herself when Idol Athletic, she was already pretty I don't have anything to say about her prettiness, then Jeongyeon Unnie whispered to me that I should tell her, I love you. Without giving a second thought, I said it while whisper to her. She was so timid with my action, I can't stop laughing at my action to cover my nervousness.
We do a comeback with another new song. It was the best song so far for me. I really love Knock Knock, and another song on this album that I also really love called Melting. It's so good. Our promotion time was really short but we achieved another trophies for it. So happy. Twice getting more and more attention, there's a talk about Japan debut as well. Finally, the Japan Line can comfortably promote us in their language. It's been so hard for them.
Precisely after a month of promotion, the first crisis come to our group. We've been promoting smoothly, until this day. We are gathering in our dorm watching TV. We finally finish our Knock Knock promotion. Jihyo Unnie always monitored what really happens on the internet for us, as expected she's our leader. We just laugh over things that showed in the movie. I sit across Jihyo Unnie and Minna Unnie. Jihyo silently gives her phone to her who sits on the floor. Her face suddenly turns blue. Mina Unnie looks at Jihyo with a surprised look. Mina Unnie that stormed to her room all of sudden, leave us in question.
"Why?" Everyone turn to Jihyo now.
"Check your phone, all of you"
We then check our phone. Without saying anything I directly come to Mina Unnie's room. I knock, she's pretending to sleep facing the wall. She doesn't want to face me. She keeps looking at her phone.
"Unnie..........." I said it while stroking her hand. She sleeps still. She's crying, I hear her snot her nose.
I let her be, I just also sit still on the edge of her bed. Half an hour pass, our member also doesn't want to interrupt her since I told them that she's crying.
"We're friends Changie, how people do this to us" Finally a word from here.
"I know........." I held her hand now.
Jihyo Unnie then enters the room.
"Mina-ya, don't think it through okay? I'm sure JYPE would release a statement soon"
"Jihyo-ya, you still remember right when Bam enter our room and take pictures with us. You also there. Bam must upload it somewhere. I tried to call him but he's not picking up now. You know Bam and his careless personally, Hyo-ah. How many times his account got hacked, isn't it?"
"I know, I know" She patted her back.
"The comments........"
"Mina-ya, give me your phone, don't check them! Mina, we don't have any mistake here okay? First, Bam is also 97 liner just like us, secondly he's a foreigner too that's why all of you got pretty close. Fans are smart too Mina"
"I know" Mina then rest assure.
A small scandal still a scandal here in Korea. Some fans won't tolerate it. Mina Unnie is the last member to join JYP, she had the shortest period trainee among us. Fans somehow link up here and there. Everything becomes a mess. Not to mention, GOT7's fans comments on Mina Unnie. It's so cruel.
I am so mad at myself that I couldn't do anything to protect her from this. Bam Oppa has so many fans, that is why things like this happened. And yet Bam Oppa hasn't said anything. Even to Mina Unnie, they are friends for God sake. I don't know why I really hate him now. Without I even realize, now I stand in front of GOT7 oppas dorm. I text him.
"Bam Oppa, meet me outside"
What was I think?
Bam Oppa then come out. I wait for him at the stairs.
"Chaengie?"
"Oppa, should you explain to Mina Unnie what happened? It's from your phone, isn't it? Shouldn't you be careful since you have so many sasaeng fans? Should you at least explain to her?"
Bam Oppa run his hand through her hair and sit at the stair.
"I don't know what to say, Chaengie? I just upload it to my cloud storage, that's it. Guess my account has been hacked, again. I can't even face Mina because it's already hard for her, isn't it?"
Me then also sit beside him. "She's shaking, Oppa" I try to calm myself since I know he's also frustrated. He's a cheerful type of guys, seeing him frustrated also turn my anger towards her.
"There's nothing you can do regarding this matter, I know that. We are helpless. But at least, you should call her, text her, apologize or so. You guys are friends, isn't it? She already knows that your hands clear on this, but right now she needs her friend. You"
"I know, Chaengie. I will call her tonight, no I will meet her at the office then. Better to explain this face to face.
"Yeah right. And please, try to you know, hire an IT or something to prevent any of this again in the future" I then pat his back.
"You must be very concerned about her, aren't you? Otherwise, you wouldn't knock my door at this hour, alone"
I can't answer him. I just silent. I don't even know why I budging him at night like this.
"Don't tell anyone that I was here, okay? Especially to Mina Unnie"
"Okay"
After that, Bam Oppa and Mina Unnie meet up in the office. Bam Oppa share his frustration, also her share it as well. They're both best friend. They've been supporting each other since they are the same age and come from another country. Thank God that JYPE responded quickly over this matter. I can't just stand seeing Mina Unnie is now more careful around her action, she becomes cautious. She did nothing wrong tho, but the comments on her from Once and IGOT7 are so mean and cruel. I once saw her take an anti depressant to help her sleep. She's just 20.