*bold and italic=Lyrics of the song =)
(Let's travel back to 2014 🙃 tho walang victory party dito, diretso kasal agad, di rin naman aattend si K sa party kahit ulitin natin sa storya. Char. P.S. Sabaw story po ito, pagpasensyahan nyo na 😛 labyu ol fam)
We are currently cuddling up in her couch after a very tiring day at work
"You know what love?"
I faced her and tucked the strands of her hair in her ears
"Yes love?" She answered sweetly
"Everytime we're together, in this position, parang feeling ko wala na akong mga problema"
"Ha? Bakit?" She asked confusedly then faced me
"Kasi po you are that type of person na pag nakita mo or nakasama mo, puro happy and peaceful vibes ang madadama mo" I answered then kissed her temple
Kung sana pwede lang habang buhay na kaming pwedeng mag ganito. Sana...
"May problema ba,Vice? "
"Wala naman, naglalambing lang. Alam mo naman, mamaya sa kanya ka na ulit"
"Vice"
"Shhh I know, I know. Matatapos na din to diba? Pwede na natin magawa lahat ng gusto natin gawin"
"Soon Love" then she kissed my cheeks
I decided to play a song and asked her for a dance which she obligingly accepted.
We swayed for a couple of minutes until one of my favorite song played.
Perfect, nakiki ayon ang cellphone ko sa moment namin
You're in my arms, and all the world is calm
The music playing on, for only two
"K, if I ask you to runaway with me, what would be your answer?"
"What kind of question is that?"
"Basta sagutin mo nalang"
"To be honest, I don't know what to answer Vice. I mean, it's super okay with me to be with you forever but I still have many--"
I placed my index finger in her lips to shut her up
"Okay na, okay na. I get your point. "
"Sorry" she said then hugged me even tighter as we swayed to the music's beat
"K, wag mo kong iwan ah?"
"Of course not"
"Promise"
"Maubos man ng tuluyan buhok ko?"
"Di ba ubos na talaga? Joke lang love haha"
Aba bastos to ah. Kung di ko lang to mahal eh baka tinumba ko na to
"Tse. Ewan ko sayo"
"Joke lang nga po. Oo kahit mawala tuluyan ang hair mo"
"Memetey?"
"Oo nga po"
"I love you, K"
"I love you, too Vice"
So close, together
And when I'm with you, So close to feeling alive
We were really into our moment when suddenly her phone rang
"Oh shoot yael's calling"
"Sagutin mo muna"
"Okay lang sa'yo?"
"Bakit naman hindi? Boyfriend mo naman sya ah. Sino ba ko para pumigil?" I answered then faked a laugh.
She excused herself and left me at her living room
Kung alam mo lang kung gaano ko kagusto basagin ang cellphone mo tuwing tumatawag sya
"Ah love, You need to go. On the way na daw sya pauwi." She told me once she entered the room again and started to clean the bags of chips that we ate.
I grabbed her hand to stop her from cleaning and pulled her closer to me.
"What is it Vice? I need to clean. Pauwi na si yael, ayoko namang maabutan nyang magulo ang liv--"
I shut her up by closing the gap between us.
I saw her eyes widened but eventually closed it then wrapped her arms around my nape then I held her face carefully like a fragile object to deepen our kiss
"Last" I whispered to her once our kiss ended
I kissed her again then bid my good bye to her.
Once I exit her home, I leaned my back against her door and tears slowly streamed down my face.
"We were So close yet still So far"
A life goes by, Romantic dreams must die so I bid my good bye and never knew
"Karylle ano tong binalita sakin na ikakasal kana daw?" I furiously entered her dressing room without even knocking then stood in front of her, clenching my fist
"What? Saan mo naman nalaman yan love? Nagbibiro ka ba?" She nervously answered to me
"Putangina Karylle! Oo o Hindi! Engaged ka na ba kay Yael? Subukan mong ibahin ang usapan, kakaladkarin kita palabas at doon tayo sa harap ng mga kasamahan natin mag usap" naiiyak kong sambit sakanya
"I'm sorry" she answered then hugged me tightly
Lord bakit lagi nalang akong iniiwan?
"I'm sorry Vice! I'm sorry! I love you so much!"
"Karylle, bitaw"
"I'm sorry! I love you! I can explain" she hugged me even tighter as I struggle myself to let go of her hug
"Explain what Karylle? Na mas better si yael kesa sakin? Hindi na kailangan. Alam ko naman yun"
"No Vice, no" she said while crying
"Then what, Karylle? Anong ie-explain mo sakin? Na ginawa mo lang ang panakip butas sa mga kulang na oras ni yael para sayo? Na pinaglaruan mo lang ang damdamin ko? Na pinaasa mo lang ako? Ano K?! Ano? Sagot!" (DJ pahiram muna HAHAHAHAHA)
She slapped my face and parang nabuhusan ako ng malamig na tubig dahil dun
"How dare you to tell me that? Vice ginawa ko lahat ng makakaya ko para mapasaya ka at maipakita sayo kung gano kita kamahal tapos sasabihan mo ako ng ganyan? Wow Vice! Just wow! Ni hindi mo nga ako hinayaan na mag explain!" She answered with anger and sadness in her eyes
Di ko dapat ginawa yun, si Karylle yun Vice, alam mong mahal na mahal ka nya
Pero di pa rin sapat na rason talaga ang pagmamahal para sa iba upang manatili
I calmed myself down then faced her
"If he is the one who truly makes you happy, who am I to be a hindrance to that? Sino ba naman ako? I'm just guy who is hopelessly in love with a girl who can never be mine"
"Vice please"
"K sana sinabi mo manlang na hindi ka pala masaya sakin, hindi yung bigla bigla ko nalang malalaman na ikakasal ka na pala sa iba" I said while there is a continuous stream of tears running down my eyes
"Vice please, don't say that, I love you and I'm very happy when I'm with you"
"So why K? Why? Why do you have to leave me behind?" I told her then walked in closer to her
"Vice, Vice, I need..."
"Need what?" I held her hand
"Assurance"
"Assurance? Haha nice K! Very nice! So all this time you were not very sure on what we have? Puta! Ano to karylle gaguhan?"
"Hindi sa ganun vice, let me explain" she answered then held my hands then placed it in her heart
"Hindi na K! Alam ko naman na wala kang assurance sakin kasi bakla ako! Diba yun yon? Dahil sa pagiging bakla ko kaya hindi mo mahanap yang putanginang assurance na yan!"
She remained silent when I told her that. I'm sorry K, tao lang din ako, nasasaktan din pa minsan minsan
I sat on her couch inside then she followed although we sat on the opposite sides, leaving a big space between us.
No one dared to speak until I choose to break the silence
"I guess, hanggang dito nalang talaga"
I said the held her hand, but still leaving a gap between us
"Look Vice,I'm really sorry. Alam kong kamumuhian mo ko after this but I just want you to know that I love you so much"
I held her hand even tightly after hearing her say that
That's it! I can restrain myself from hugging her so I pulled her closer then let her head rest in my chest
"Can I do this for the last time?" I didn't even let her answer and I just kissed her
"I love you so much, Karylle"
I told her in between our kiss
"I love you too, Vice"
The kiss was full of love, passion, needing, and sadness
I was the one who broke the kiss then left her room without looking back or saying anything to her
March 21 2014
Today is the day. The day she will walk out of my life and start to spend the rest of her life with her husband
I arrived at the church exactly 5 minutes before she will do her bridal walk
The theme of the wedding was very vintage style and the church is located at tagaytay
So close, was waiting waiting here with you
And now,forever, I know all that I wanted to hold you close
She is now currently walking down the aisle, she looks gorgeous as ever. Yael is very lucky to have her.
"I'm glad you came" she told me as she stopped for a while to talk with a huge smile on her face
"Of course,I wouldn't miss this for the world and congrats, natupad na ang dream wedding mo" she answered
She just smiled as an answer then continued to walk down the aisle, leaving me behind, wanting to grab her hand and pull her away and to escape from everyone
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"Love what is your dream wedding"
"Kahit ano at kahit saan naman as long as your the groom"
"Enebeee kilig ako mamsh"
"Wankosayo"
"Pero hindi, ano, seryoso na love, ano ba dream wedding mo?"
"Kahit ano nga basta dun ako ikakasal sa taong mahal na mahal ko"
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"Vice look at this church! It's so pretty!"
"Saan naman yan?"
"Sa tagaytay! If I'm gonna get married, I would definitely choose this church!"
"Soon, Love" I held her hand then kissed it
Enough of the flashbacks, lalo ko lang sinasaktan ang damdamin ko
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"Karylle sama ka muna sakin saglit" I grabbed her hand and lead her outside their reception to the balcony which I discovered when I was roaming around since I was not interested to the program
"Vice baka hanapin nila ako"
"Hindi yan, nagpaalam ako kay yael na kakausapin kita wag kang mag alala"
We reached the balcony then I faced her
"Ano ba pag uusapan natin Vice?"
I didn't answer her and just took my phone out of my pocket then played So Close (ayan yung nasa multimedia mamshies)
I held her hand and placed it around my nape then I placed my hands on her waist then we started swaying to the beat of the song
The space between us was getting smaller until we were just hugging each other while we danced
I looked straight into her eyes and all I can see was sadness. I closed my eyes and leaned my face forward to hers, closing the gap between us for the last time.
"I love you" we said in unison after the kiss which made us laugh.
"We're so close to reaching that famous happy end, and almost believing this one's not pretend, let's go on dreaming for we know we are. So close, So Close, and still so far." I sang the last lines of the song to her and then slowly pulled away.
We heard the emcee was calling her and that was her cue to leave.
She ran to me and kissed me for the last time and bid farewell to me.
I guess that's that. Hanggang dun nalang kami. Nothing more.
I'm very thankful for those times I shares with her. Those memories will be engraved in my heart and will treasure this forever. And those memories are enough to heal my wounded heart.
Ganun naman diba? Pag mahal mo, papakawalan mo, iisipin mo muna ang kasiyahan nya bago sayo.
Pero kahit gano kasakit man ang sugat ang iniwan nya sakin, kaya kong magparaya para sakanya.
Wala eh, Mahal ko sya.
YEHEY! Tapos na ang unang OS ng kabalastugang to HAHAHAHAHAHA anyways, pasensya sa super chaka na update 😂 wala pa talaga kasi ako sa mood mag sulat 😂 asahan nyo sa susunod maayos na yan 😂🤘🏻 yun langz. Thank you sa pagbabasa 🙃💛