What Am I To You? (Gakushu As...

By Blackshade_Shadow

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Y/n and Gakushu knew each other ever since childhood. But it changed when they went into Konugigaoka Junior H... More

Ch. 1 New Classmate
Discontinuing
New Years
Ch. 2
Ch. 3
Ch.4
Ch. 5
Ch.6
Ch.7
Ch.8
Ch.9
Ch. 10
Ch. 11
Ch. 12
Ch. 14
Not an Update
Ch. 15
Ch. 16
Happy New Years
ON HOLD
A/N
HIATUS

Ch. 13

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By Blackshade_Shadow

Hey guys..wassup? Sorry if this is gonna be short or something? I can't sleep and I'm just burning up for no reason, my whole body is hurting me for no reason too.

So, this is gonna be the next chapter. I hope you enjoy it.




For the next two weeks, you, Karma, Nagisa, Kayano, and Karasuma continued to practice the song you chose. You remembered the song by heart, and so did they.

You still hung out with Asano, but deep inside, you felt like you were breaking every time you saw him hug, or be all loveable with Silva. You couldn't get the kiss out of your head even if you tried.

One time, you continued to bang your head against the wall to forget the scene, but sadly, it only caused you to get a concussion. Other times you would just get lost in your thoughts, sometimes the kiss coming back to you, other times it's just a dark and empty realm.

Anywho..today was the day of the Battle of Voices. Each section of the school was happy, from the A's, to the E's.

Everyone stood in the background of the stage for only the ones who would preform. You and your team were checking out the equipment.

"So... How are we going to get this on the roof again? The roof has no barriers or fences I'll have you know." Kayano spoke out fiercely, her eyes flaming. She's all about protection ain't she?

"We'll just have Koro-Sensei do it for us Kayano. He's always willing to help out." Karma responded to her, an evil grin forming against his lips. You punched him in the back of the head, causing Karma to lean forwards, holding his head. He snapped his attention towards you, his eyes fierce with anger. "What the hell was that for!?"

"That, was for your idiocy. They have elevators here you know? It goes straight to the entrance of the building." You placed your hands on your hips, your clothes ruffling.

You chose to wear your (f/c) tang top, dark brown pants, your normal ankle high black boots, and you had a little bit of makeup on. Only just the blush and a winged eyeliner. How can girls be so good at makeup?

Nagisa and Kayano deadpanned, before they began to move the instruments for E-class to the elevator. You stood guard in your secluded area, your arms crossed as you watched the elevator close.

You heard footsteps behind you, soft, flowing footsteps. You moved your hand to your front pocket, pulling out a pocket knife slowly. Arms wrapped around your neck from behind by a hug.

"Well well well, I didn't know you'd be playing today (Y/n)!" A familiar voice was heard behind you. You sighed softly in relief, putting the pocket knife away before anyone could see it out. You turned around in the arms, looking at Ren who was giving you a cheeky smile. Odd...

"Yeah, we are, this is for everyone in the school Ren. What's up with you?" You crossed your arms over your chest, watching as he opened his eyes, a look of seriousness shining through them.

"I heard Asano kissed you the other day, and pulling himself back before anything got 'too out of hand'. Is that true?" Your eyes widened slightly, your nails beginning to dig into your forearms. You growled lowly, kicking Ren in both of his shins.

"Speak of that day again I swear, I will make your life a living hell with me!" You threatened, Ren holding his hands up in front of him in surrender.

"Okay okay, but did it happen? Did you enjoy it?" You sighed, might as well tell him the truth.

"Yes, it happened, yes, I did enjoy it. But, as they say, good things always end badly..." Ren lowered his arms, wrapping them around you in a hug.

"He'll get how you feel (Y/n), he will.." you huffed softly against his chest.

"That's what they all say..." Your voice was muffled from your head in Ren's chest, but he heard it loud and clear. You pulled away from him when you heard more footsteps, two pairs actually.

Two people turned the corner, walking towards you and Ren. One was a girl, with silver long hair, and red eyes, while the other was a boy, strawberry blonde hair, and violet eyes. Silva and Gakushu.

Silva's arms were around Gakushu's arm as they strutted towards Ren and you. You shifted your gaze away, placing a hand on the necklace that Gakushu gave you. Gakushu and Silva stopped in front of you and Ren, Ren keeping his full attention on Gakushu, though sometimes, he'd look at you to make sure you were okay.

"You ready Ren? We play in five." Gakushu looked over at you, seeing how you looked away from him. Why have you been ignoring him? Was it because of the kiss? Surely it wasn't, it didn't mean anything, right? Sure, he did feel the spark the first time he and you kissed, he couldn't help himself, he just craved it more. When he kissed you the second time, he felt like his body and mind became weightless, he felt like he was flying through the clouds, like he was on Cloud 9. He never wanted to stop the kiss, but then he remembered Silva, and remembered you were his best friend. When he pulled away, he and told you to forget it, he couldn't help but notice a pained look in your eye, was he seeing something? Ever since that kiss, he couldn't really kiss Silva that much anymore, he wanted to feel your lips against his again. He hungered them, his lips missing yours.

"(Y/n), are you okay?" Gakushu reached a hand out to you, but you moved back slightly. His hand stopped, as he retracted it back. There it was again, that pained look.

"I'm fine. You should go get ready.." you shifted your hair so it could cover your face, hearing as his, and Ren's, footsteps left.

"He'll never fall for you, get that through your thick scull. He's mine, and he always will be." Silva laughed as she walked away. You grinned slowly as she disappeared from your sight, just a bit, only a little step, you couldn't have killed her, having her blood on your hands, but you didn't.

Once your team came down from the roof, you all went to the front of the stage, watching as Gakushu and his 'friends' got on stage. They all got ready, and began to sing Immortals, by Fall Out Boy.

Honestly, Ren was a great singer, he surely out did himself. Gakushu played electric guitar, while the others played their own. To say they were good was an understatement, they were great actually. Everyone in the room cheered out, some of the E-class too.

Soon after, B class, C class, and D class went to play. After D class played, they gave you five minutes to set up, which you did. You had Irina take everyone outside, as you, and your group ran upstairs to the roof.

You pulled on your headset, with the built in microphone hooked up to it, Karma had the same thing. You made sure we had someone who knew how to play all the instruments, just in case something happened to one of the team.

After you all got set, it was E-class's turn. Someone had placed a projector against the wall of the school, a camera pointed at you and your group so everyone can see it.

You nodded towards Kayano, who started it off with the piano. Then, it was your turn.

(Play music)
(You, Karma)

How can you see into my eyes like open doors?
Leading you down into my core, where I've become so numb
Without a soul, my spirits sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back, home.

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me you inside
(Save me!!)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me!!)
Save me from the nothing I've become.

You moved close to the edge, keeping a distance from it.

Now that I know what I'm without
You can't just leave me
Breathe in me and make me real
Bring me, to life

(Wake me up!)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me!!)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up!)
Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me!!)
Save me from the nothing I've become

Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life

Frozen inside without your touch
Without your love, darling
Only you are the life among the dead!

Your foot slipped underneath you, causing you to fall off the roof. Karma pulled off the guitar quickly, throwing it to the person as he dived to catch your hand. Gasps echoed from the crowd, Koro-Sensei getting ready to make himself one of those giant balloon things to catch you from falling before you hit the ground. You dangled from the side of the building your eyes staring into his, telling him to keep going, which he did as the both of you struggled to pull you up.

All this time I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me!
I've been sleeping s thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything
Without a thought, without a voice, without a soul
Don't let me die here
There must be something more!!
Bring me to life

(Wake me up!)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me!!)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me!!)
Save me from this nothing I've become!

Your hands slipped, as you began to plummet down to the ground, but yet, you were determined to finish the song, as were your group.

Bring me to life..
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside!!!)
Bring..me to life!!

Just then your body landed on something soft, and squishy, though, your breath was knocked out of you. You laid there for a second or two, feeling the thing wiggle underneath you.

"Thank you, father.." your voice was hoarse, your body felt drained.

People began to swarm you, as you hoisted yourself up to stand. You waved them off, saying everything was fine, and it was all part of the act, even though it wasn't. A couple minutes passed, Kayano, Karma, Nagisa, and Karasuma came from the doors of the school running towards you, as well as Asano.

"You gave us all quite a scare (Y/n). You're so clumsy." Kayano breathed, a smile tugging at her lips. Karma stayed quiet as he stared at you.

"Don't ever...do that shit again!" Karma declared, his eyes lit with anger, but also concern. You grinned, pinching his cheek and pulling it.

"Was Karmy-Warmy scared that I almost died? You're too cute." Karma flushed at your new nickname for him, first it was Kitty, now Karmy-Warmy or whatever the fuck it was.

You released his cheek, turning around when you were engulfed in a hug by Gakushu.

"Don't do that again (Y/n)...I really thought you were going to die.." Gakushu mumbled in your hair, his arms tightening around you. Your hands were pressed against his chest as your head was in his shoulder, your eyes clouded. Damn, he has more of that mood change that girls do.

"You know I won't die easily...the only way I would ever die is if I end up killing myself Gakushu. I told you that when we were younger..did you forget already?" Your voice was soft, almost like a whisper. His arms grew tighter, so tight it could break a bone or two, not for you.

"I remember..I just don't want to loose you." You scoffed, pushing him away. 'I don't want to loose you' he says, bitch he lost you when he decided to kiss you and told you to forget it.

"Please" you began, rolling your eyes. "You have Silva to take care of you don't you? Besides.." you pulled him down to your level, putting your lips against his ear, his body shivering from your breath against the shell of his ear. "You already lost me when you decided to kiss me, then told me to forget it."

You released him, taking a few steps back away from him. Did you really just do that.. Asano looked at you confused, tilting his head to the side. You laughed solemnly.

"You really are an idiot aren't you?" You laughed more, Ren putting his hand on your shoulder shaking his head. You shrugged his hand off your shoulder, your eyes staying on Gakushu. "I loved you, I still love you, and yet you went with Silva. I stayed there for you all the way, all the way, but then you lost touch in trying to stay with me, remember?" You seethed softly, Silva coming up to Gakushu's side, holding his hand. "You don't know how she acts towards me, she acts like a stupid, worthless slob of a bitch. She took the one thing I had loved away from me, yet look at me now...pouring my pathetic feelings for you. When we 'kissed', I was honestly happy, I felt like I was in heaven. You took my first kiss, my first french kiss, and then you decided to pull away, and say 'just forget it ever happened.' do you know how much that had hurt me? Wait, you don't, you've never been in this situation befo-"

SMACK!!!

You took a step back, holding your right cheek, a large, red, handprint left on it. Gakushu stood with his hand raised, his hand stinging, he was panting hard. That pained him, but how dare you say that his girlfriend is a bitch.

"Don't you ever call her a bitch, you've been acting like one ever since I started dating her." He sassed, standing straight. You laughed it off, looking at him once again.

"You should have known I was always a bitch Asano. Seems like you have forgotten shit already. You know, that felt good, I want you to hit me again." You stepped towards him, causing him to step back. Everyone had left the scene, well, except E-class.

"Come on, hit me, I want to feel all the pain I feel emotionally physically now by the one who caused it, you. So hit me." He stepped towards him even more, causing him to step back even more, to where his footing was misplaced, causing him to topple down, sitting on the ground.

You stood in front of him, peering down at him.

"Hit me Asano, come on, I know you have the strength in you to hit me!" You snarled, causing him to flinch. He's honestly quite scared of you.

"I won't hit you, I don't hit girls!" You scoffed at his lame sentence.

"And yet day after day, you emotionally had hit me, tortured me, punched me, kicked me, broke me down to where I am nothing now. Maybe I should give you what it felt like all those times." You leant down, grabbing ahold of his chin.

Silva screeched at what you were doing, and began to dash towards you, but she was to late. You pressed your lips against his, Gakushu flaring up, even his ears became red. You removed your hand from his chin, to his cheek, tears beginning to roll down your cheeks, from your closed eyes.

As soon as the kiss started, it finished. You pulled away, the tears still falling, them burning your cheeks. Asano stared up at you, seeing pain, and sadness in your eyes.

"What are y-" you interrupted him.

"Goodbye Asano..." You spun on your heel, and walked away, straight towards E-class. Gakushu slowly sat up, watching as your form left the school grounds, why was his heart clenching tightly? A shadow loomed over him.

Gakushu looked up to see low and behold, his father. Gakuho watched as your form disappeared from being out of view, before he looked down at Gakushu.

"I told you she was a keeper, I told you to keep her, and now, she's gone." That's when Gakushu's heart finally clenched fully, before releasing. It pained him to see you go, your lips weren't enough. He didn't understand why he went to Silva, was to get rid of this abstract feelings for you? He didn't know.

Now, he already missed you. He should have seen it sooner, but he was blinded by hoping Silva would change him.

"Oh god...I'm so sorry (Y/n)..." He whispered under his breath, Silva staring at him in disbelief. Asano pushed himself up, standing in front of Silva.

"I'm.sorry, but this is not going to work. (Y/n) was right, you were treating her cruelly." Gakushu turned away from Silva, and took off the school campus to your house.

I will make this up to you (Y/n), even if I have to sacrifice myself to make you mine...



And there we go. Hope you enjoyed it

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