"How could you!"
"Ashley please!"
"Fuck you Y/N!"
"No I love you I really do I just-"
"You said you loved me!"
"Laur please... I do! I just..I"
"FUCK YOU."
"PLEASE GET OFF ME. IM SORRY! I-s-s-s"
My breathing becomes strained. The hands around me neck taking the light from my eyes. How did it come to this? Why did it come to this? This must be the end. Everything I have is gon-
"Y/N!!! Wake up!" I spring up and take in my surroundings. I finally realize where I am and take a deep breath. Lauren is sitting at the end of my feet, with a worried look on her face. I sit back against the headboard and close my eyes, trying to keep my breathing steady. I feel a weight in my lap and open my eyes again. Lauren is now sitting in my lap with her arms around my neck, looking into my eyes.
"What was that Y/N? You okay?" She asks stroking my hair.
"Fine babe...just a nightmare." I say leaning in and kissing her soft lips. She breaks away and kisses my forehead. I sigh in content and let her get off my lap so I can start my day. I go into the bathroom and take a shower after brushing my teeth. I put my hand against the wall and let the steamy water run down my back. Images from the dream keep replaying in my head. I try to find some peace of mind as I'm alone in the shower. But I feel a dark presence around me. Like a shadow man that lurks behind me, following my every move. Deep down I knew this was just my self conscious egging me on.
After I finished my bathroom routine I head downstairs to find Rickey and Lauren eating a bowl of fruit in the kitchen and talking about the newest fashion trends. I go up to Lauren and take a grape out of her hand and plopping it in my mouth. I make a smirk at her and kiss her forehead before turning to the fridge to get a bottle of water. We all sat there and ate fruit, talking about various things for a good thirty minutes or so. I had to say I was really enjoying my time with Lauren. Everything seemed to be so calm. We decided to go down to the beach since we didn't get much time yesterday. As Lauren and Rickey go to put their swimsuits on I take my phone out and check my notifications.
Bbygirl💙: call me.
Fuck my life. Im screwed. I get nervous as I step outside and dial Ashley's number. It ring twice before she picks up.
"Y/N."
"H-hi baby. Everything okay?"
"No." She replies coldly. I mentally prepare myself for what she's about to say next.
"What's wrong Ash?"
"I ask you to do one thing. ONE THING. Especially when you're away. I sit here and worry all day about you when you're away. And you can't even remember to call me before you go to sleep." I take a sigh of relief at her words.
"Fuck...I'm so sorry Ashley. I got really caught up an-"
"Whatever Y/N. If you cared that much you'd call."
"I do care! I'm a forgetful person, you know that. I'm really sorry Ash. I really am. I promise to remember and call you every night when I'm away okay?"
"Ok." She doesn't drop the low tone in her voice.
"Ash...please. I...I have a lot going on right now."
"I always have shit going on Y/N and I still call you!" She raises her voice.
"No...I mean... I know you do. But I'm not just talking about work." I say hanging my head low.
"Then what." She says sternly.
"I....I just don't feel great inside. I don't know why. But I don't want to bother you or show that I feel that way because I can't lose you." I reply, letting a tear fall from my face. Ashley is quiet for a few seconds.
"Y/N...baby no. Please don't feel like you can't talk to me. And know that you're not going to lose me. Especially for a reason like that because I'm here for you. You know that right?"
"Yeah..." I reply shyly.
"I'm sorry I got upset. I just worry about you that's all." Ashley has a more forgiving tone now.
"I know."
"Plus you'll be back tomorrow, right?"
"I plan on it."
"Okay well I don't know what's going on with what you're feeling but I want to see you soon so you can try to talk it out with me, okay?"
"Okay."
"I love you very much Y/N."
"I love you too Ash."
"Have a good day and I'll see you tomorrow hopefully okay? Just let me know when you're on your way home."
"I will. Thank you."
"Always babe. Talk to you later."
"Later." I say and hang up the phone.
I go back inside to get ready for the beach.
The sun was shining down on our bodies as we all three laid out in the sand. The ocean breeze kissed our skin as it blew gently down on us. Rickey has his earphones in as his sunglasses on, tuning out the rest of the world. I turn and look over at Lauren. My breath hitches in my throat. Her beauty is literally breathtaking. I stare at her for a few minutes until she turns her head and smiles at me. I smile back and we look into each other's eyes for a while longer. Lauren's gaze always sent a vibrant chill down my spine that stretched through my entire body.
"Whatcha thinkin about?" Lauren asked.
"How beautiful you are." She blushes and looks away for a second before directing her gaze back at me.
"I...." Lauren started to say but stopped.
"You..."
"I....I"
"Y-y-yooou...."
"I love you." Lauren said calmly looking into my eyes. Those three little words sent chills down my spine. It was at least 90 degrees outside but I got the shivers. I was speechless. I knew at this point I was in way too fucking deep but I had to make a confession at this point.
"I love you too, Lauren." I replied as a tear fell down my cheek. She smiled widely and scouted closer to me, kissing my cheek.
For the rest of the day Lauren and I splashed around in the water and laid out in the sun. I honestly learned so much more about her laying on the beach and talking. We talked about everything from how our favorite color was both blue to sharing the same political beliefs. I could honestly say I was truly in love with her and who she was. Surprisingly I felt like I almost, almost, was more in love with her than I am with Ashley. But I don't know if that's completely true. They are both passionate people so naturally I love them both so much.
Once we had spent the majority of the day at the beach, we went back home. Lauren offered to cook for us, no sorry she insisted to cook for us. As she was preparing dinner I told her I was going to call my mom and go on a short walk. I walk back outside and admire the sunset for a bit before I start walking. I dial Ashley's number and continue down the sidewalk. It only rings twice before she picks up. I wait for her to say hello but hear nothing so I speak first.
"Hey ba-"
"Where are you?" She asks sternly.
"What? Babe I told yo-"
"Have you checked any social media lately??"
"What? No why would I?"
"Please tell me why YOUR EX posted a picture of you two on her Instagram." Shit.
"Babe I can explain."
"Good. You have two minutes."
"Two minutes?? What the hell I-"
"I'm counting down..."
"Okay okay! Taylor found me while I was down here working with some other producers and tried to blackmail me saying if I didn't take a picture with her to clear her name because of breakup and all the shit she got for that and yeah." After Im done explaining Im a little out of breath. "Ashley I would never get back with her."
"Oh...hm."
"What?"
"You really expect me to believe Taylor is at an event for upcoming producers?"
"Well it's not just upcoming I mean there's a few well known ones like me of course." I try to sound as convincing as possible but I felt like I was falling into a deeper pit. I didn't know what else to say.
"Ashley..."
"What?"
"Do you love me?"
"What?"
"Do.you.love me?"
"Of course I love you Y/N."
"I would never get back with Taylor or do anything with her."
"I...I know. But I have just one last question for you." I took a deep breath in and prepared myself.
"Oh...okay."
"How would she blackmail you?"
"She's Taylor Swift! Who knows what she has on me." Ashley let out one last sigh.
"Okay....fine."
"I'm...Im sorry."
"It's fine...babe. It's fine. I gotta go. I love you."
"I love you too Ash."
And with that I hung up and dialed Taylor's number. It also rang twice before she picked up.
"Hellllooooo."
"Fuck you." I spat into the phone.
"Wow okay, rude."
"What did I say! No posting the picture until I give you the okay."
"Whoops."
"God I can't fucking stand you."
"Then sit."
"...."
There was a long silence after her comment until I just hung up.
I headed back towards the house to find dinner already made with Lauren washing her hands and cleaning up. I walk up behind her and take the dirty pot she was about to wash out of her hand.
"Dinner looks almost as amazing as you. I'll clean up." She giggled at my comment and turns around putting her hands around my neck and kissing my nose.
"Did you just compare me to food?" She jokes.
"Yeah. Delicious looking food." I replied winking. She blushed and I helped her set the table. Rickey came in right after of course and we all sat down and ate what Lauren had prepared.
"Damn girl. This is some goood shit." Rickey said taking a bite of food.
"It's not shit Rickey." I replied sarcastically.
"BITCH you know what I meant." We all started laughing and continued talking about our time together and just enjoying each other's presence. I can't deny how bad I feel about all of this but I also can deny how amazing Lauren is and how she makes me feel inside. She keeps looking over and smiling at me whenever Rickey is talking to one of us and I can't help but to get lost in her eyes and smile back.
"Hey...hey!" Lauren and I direct our attention back to Rickey. "Yo lovebirds...did you hear anything I just said?"
"Uhhhh." Lauren starts.
"Nope." I reply cheekily, winking at Lauren. She giggles at my response and we finish eating. I get up first and grab everyone's plates. I go into the kitchen and start to wash everything. Rickey said he is tired from the beach so he heads upstairs into his room. As I'm scrubbing away at the plates I feel two arms wrap around my waist and smirk to myself. Lauren moves the hair blocking my ears and whispers into it, making me shiver.
"Wash up and come upstairs when you're done...I have a surprise for you."
And with that she kisses my neck and goes upstairs. Me, being extremely eggar at this point, start washing the dishes at a faster pace. I quickly finish about 5 minutes later and put everything away then head upstairs myself. The door to Lauren and I's bedroom was closed. I hear soft music playing in the background and the smell of jasmine scented candles seeping through the door crack. I lightly knock on the door and wait for a reply. I hear Lauren say come in with a low sexy tone. I open the door and my jaw immediately drops. Lauren is laying on the bed in nothing but a silk robe, staring at me with those bright green eyes. I stand there for a minute taking everything in.
"Well...shut the door and come in silly." She says smiling widely at me. I do as she says and walk over to the end of the bed. She scoots to the end and her legs are hanging over. I put myself in between her legs and lean in for a very heated and passionate kiss. She pulls away to strip me off my clothes and then I climb on top of her, still heavily making out. I begin to kiss down her neck and then remove her robe. Her moans are getting louder as my hands caress all of her body. All of the sudden she stops me and I give her a confused look.
"Do you think Rickey is already asleep?" She asks a little out of breath. I shrug.
"Try to get him out of the house for a bit...I don't wanna hold back when we start again." I nod and get up, grabbing my phone from the bedside table.
Main hoe👅: yo, there's a male model only swimsuit competition going on somewhere along the beach
Rickey 💁🏿♂️: BITCH WHAT
I hear quick footsteps run down the stairs and the front door slam 5 seconds after. I go downstairs and lock the front and back doors. I then go back into our bedroom and resume where I left off. I lay on top of her, kissing her neck and making her moan. I trail my kisses lower until my head is in between her legs. I look into her eyes as she slowly lowers her hands into my hair. She then gives me a nod and with that I start going down on her, cautiously and slowly. Her moans fuel my head game to the point I have her almost screaming. She starts trembling but before she can finish I pull back and line our bodies together. I look into her eyes and she pulls me into a wrathful kiss. I start grinding into her and slowly pick up the pace.
"God you feel so good." She moans into my mouth. All I can do is nod my head in agreement. For some reason, being the sex god I used to be, I have never felt this good before. The bed starts to shake as we go at it hard. Biting, kissing, and moaning is all going on as I peer into her eyes from time to time. I usually like to be the dominant one but when she tells me to let her get on top I automatically agree, switching positions. She starts grinding into me at a hard and fast pace. I start to breath heavily and my vision is getting a little blurry. She notices this and smirks at me. Only a few more seconds of her doing this and all I can see is white light. My ears start to ring and I feel my entire body, from my fingertips to my toes, go completely numb. Damn this girl literally just fucked the life out of me. I'm completely gone.
I wake up confused and sweaty. I look over to Lauren who has her robe on and is lightly rubbing her fingers over my chest. I smile at her and lean in for a kiss, which she reciprocates. She lays her head on my chest and we sit in silence for a minute before I speak up.
"So that was...umm...just wow." She giggles at me. I honestly never have had sex like that before. "Did you um...did you get to finish be- because like-"
"Haha. You're so cute. And yes I did a few times." I smile to myself knowing I had done my job right. "Honestly Y/N I think that's the best I ever had."
"Yeah...me too. For sure." We lay there for a few seconds more before I remember we locked Rickey out. "Shit! Rickey!" I say before jumping out of bed, quickly getting dressed again, and ran downstairs. I unlock the front door and see Rickey on his phone shaking his head.
"Look Rick, Im really sorry we just-"
"Girl...its fine. That's actually not why I'm shaking my head." I cock my head at him and he speaks again. "Have you checked social media lately?"
"No...why?" Rickey looks at me and hands me his phone. I look at the phone and go completely numb again. But not the same kind of numb I had earlier. I was weak...heartbroken...and didn't know how to feel. There was a news article with a picture of Ashley that read:
Halsey seen at G eazy's show behind stage as they share a kiss.
Fuck...now I'm really gone.