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Untitled and lost

The thoughts are back again I'm taking my meds but they don't seem to be helping anymore. I still haven't gotten over jayden it's sad... and I tried to move on but it didn't work like always and now my hearts broken over him as well, I have all these emotions and I can't talk to anyone about them, because if I do they will get mad at me. this is like before I've cut again, actually alot, but that's beside the point. I'm feeling so akon I can't help but go back to the demons in my head . I want them to be gone damit I want my own drop dead Fred ! but those things only happen in the movies. I've tried to distract my self and in these endless number of early morning hours when everyone's asleep but me and I'm left alone in the dark the thinking starts the loneliness sinks in and I relies how much of a failure I am... I've got a plan.... I'm going to focus on school for a while, I need to I'm starting to fail, and not care about anything or anyone but my mentee, myself, band, and school, I feel like it will be good for me !