Morgan's POV
**Morgan's POV
"Sean, you seriously need to relax. I told you, box macaroni and cheese is fine with me. Stop stressing." I chuckled as I watched him fuss about making dinner.
"No, it's not fine Morgan. I promised that I was going to cook you a special dinner. I didn't asked you over here just to feed you plain cheap box macaroni and cheese." Sean fussed before going into the fridge again taking out all different kinds of cheese and other ingredients. "Since I didn't get to make something more special, the least I can do is make us a proper homemade Mac and cheese. Again I'm sorry about losing track of time and..."
"Sean, I'm serious. It is totally fine. You need to stop stressing now. Personally I really don't care if you invited me over to eat plain crackers and water." I walked over to him and held his hands trying to get him to calm down and stop his fussing.
"Really? Because I do have a lot of crackers in the cupboard." Sean said causing me to burst out laughing. "And delicious clear cristal water."
"Finally, you're back to normal." I smiled at him. "If you had continued running about and fussing like that, I was positive I'd see your head spinning off somewhere in another dimension."
I've got no idea what has gotten into him this evening. He was usually the cool composed one but tonight he was totally different. I guess he must've really wanted to impress me and thought he had lost the opportunity to do so.
I personally didn't care if he decided to fry eggs for dinner, it was the thought that counts right? And I was just happy to be with him tonight.
"I need to tell you something," Sean said holding me closer to him by my waist. "I just have to admit something to you first."
"What?" I smiled laying my hands on his chest.
"You smell really good." Sean said to me.
"That's it?" I said laughing again." Thanks babe."
"It's true. You smell good enough to eat but that's not what I wanted to confess to you. I'm a little nervous tonight." Sean said to me.
"You are? Why?" I asked looking at him surprised.
"The truth is, you're the first woman I've ever invited over or brought home ever since my wife...Christine died." Sean informed me. "All these years, I've never dated anyone else or brought another woman home because it felt like I was dishonouring our memories but....but I've met you and I really like you Morgan. I want to move on- with you- so I decided it's time. I invited you here tonight for dinner and I just felt like I'm screwing things up already by being late and not able to start dinner early. I really want you to give me a chance and..."
I tipped on my toes and place my lips on his to shut him up. Sean was so incredible sweet and I understood everything he was saying but he was worrying for nothing. Kissing him was the only way to shut him up and make him realised that I wasn't going anywhere just yet.
"That's what you wanted to tell me? Sean you had me worrying it was something more serious. I totally get everything you are saying. I'm sorry about your wife but I'm glad you decide to take the chance with me." I kissed him one more time. "I really like you too Sean, I like you a lot. I am giving you a chance, you don't need to try to impress me. I am here and I'm not going anywhere wuthout a reason okay?"
" You're a great guy and I'm lucky to have you. You have absolutely no reason to be nervous or anything. So like I was saying before, I'm perfectly happy with box Mac and cheese alrighy? The main thing is that I'm here with you."
"How did I managed to be so lucky to get a girl like you as my girlfriend?" Sean smiled before claiming my lips.
I was leaning on the counter with Sean pressed close to me as our lips moved together. My arms were wrapped around his neck holding him closer to me while his hands were on my waist inching lower. Sean's hands had made their way down to my butt and now roaming around and completely having their own exploration. I moved my fingers into his hair and his hands have now held me as his possession as our tongues dance together. We were having a really heated make out session right there in the kitchen when the sound of water boiling over startled us causing us to pull apart.
"Sean?"
"Hm?"
"I know I said I didn't care if you invited me over to eat crackers and water but I don't think I'm up for burned wate.r" I chuckled pointing at the pot on the stove.
"Right," Sean laughed as he went to turned down the stove and lift the pot cover. "I should probably add the macaroni now."
"Yeah."
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"You have to admit that box Macaroni and cheese isn't as bad as you made it seemed." I said to Sean as we were finished eating.
"Alright, I admit but still I think homemade would have been way better." Sean insisted.
"Maybe you can cook me that next time but either way, I'm stuff and it was really good." I said to him as I placed my plate in the sink.
There was suddenly a bright flash of lightening outside through the kitchen window and then there was a loud crack of thunder that had me jumping in fright.
"Oh crap, is it really going to rain now?" I said as the rain started and another lightening flashed followed by another thunder which had me closing my eyes tightly and covering my ears.
"You're scared of the thunder?" Sean asked chuckling.
"No, but I don't really like them much. It's just really loud and... Oh my God, that's another one!" I flinched covering my ear and closing my eyes again.
"You are scared of them." Sean let out on amused chuckle.
"So? They're frightening." I said hugging myself and looking outside through the window. "Wow, it seems it's really going to pour."
"Come here," Sean smiled pulling me to him and hugging me before us walking back into his living room.
"I really didn't know it was going to be pouring tonight." I said as I pulled out my phone to look at the time. "Wow, it's 9:36pm. I didn't even noticed the time has gone so far."
"You know you can't drive back tonight right? It's pouring outside and it's late. It is too dangerous to be driving now. I'm not going to allow you to leave in this weather by yourself at this hours." Sean said to me. "You're going to have to spend the night."
"What?"
"I promise you, I won't try anything." Sean said to me genuinely. "You can have your own room if..."
"No, no that's not what I'm concerned about." I chuckled "It's just that I dont exactly have clothes for a sleep over."
"I could loan you a shirt. I have like hundreds that will cover you well. You can pick your choice." Sean smiled.
"Okay, thanks." I chuckled. "I love having preference in which one of my boyfriend's shirt I like better."
"They're upstairs in my room though." Sean pointed up.
"Okay, are you going to go get it or..."
"You're coming with me, I'll give you a tour to my bedroom." Sean smiled taking my hand in his.
When I just got here, I was surprised at how big Sean's house was and the fact that he lives alone in such a big house. Walking up the stairs with Sean and him giving me a little tour, I found out that this house had four bedrooms, three upstairs and one downstairs. There were three bathrooms in total- one downstairs, one upstairs and an ensuite in Sean's room. Downstairs there was a living room, a dining room, a store room and the huge kitchen, the house also had a balcony and a porch. So yeah, I think it was pretty big for just one guy- too big.
"Which one of these do you prefer?" Sean asked taking out three different shirts.
"Which one would you like to see me in?" I flirted as I sat on his bed watching him.
"This one," Sean responded holding up a long sleeve blue button up shirt and putting back the rest.
"Thanks." I smiled as I took the shirt from him.
"You can go change in there." Sean pointed to the ensuite.
"I'm alright," I shrugged as I pulled my shirt over my head revealing the black lingerie lace bra that Kim had bought me.
I could see Sean's eyes widen with surprise and him swallowing as he saw what I was wearing. I wasn't totally clueless to not see that Sean obviously liked what he saw and was trying to maintain control.
I don't know what came over me that told me to do that but I did. When I saw Sean turned his head trying to give me some privacy, I couldn't help but smile to myself. This was the first time Sean has ever seen me in a bra and he was suddenly acting...I don't know- shy?
I thought I should have been the shy one since he was seeing me without my shirt. I wanted to tease him further since this was how he was behaving. I smirked as I pulled off my pants and stood there in my lingerie undergarments.
"Sean," I called trying to get his attention. "You can turn around now."
"Oh God. Wow," Sean eyes were wide with surprise and then with admiration. Sean cleared his throat before speaking again. "Wow, you look... You're beautiful."
"Thank you," I smiled as I walked closer to him. "You seem shy or something. Did I make you uncomfortable or something?"
"Yes," Sean responded causing me to be surprised "But not in the way you mean."
"Then in what way.. Oh, right." I nodded as I looked down and realized what he was talking about. "Uhm, Sorry?"
"No, it is okay. It's just that... I haven't really seen someone I'm attracted to like this in a while." he gestured to my attire with his hand.
Wait, when he said he hadn't dated anyone else since his wife died four years ago, did that mean he hasn't been with anyone else intimately since then? That would explain why he seemed a little out of his game then.
"You have no idea how beautiful and sexy you look right now." Sean licked his bottom lip as he continued looking up and down my body.
"Well that's a compliment I'll gladly take." I smiled as I pulled his face down for a kiss.
Pretty soon we were on his bed making out, his hands roaming more freely since I was in lesser clothing. I was actually glad I decided to take Kim's advice tonight. I had gotten his shirt off and my hands roamed his chest as we continued making out. I was trying to unbuckle his belt when his hand stopped mine.
"What's wrong?" I looked at him confused by his action.
"I just don't want you to feel like you have to do something you that you don't want to do. " Sean said still holding my hand in place.
"Sean seriously? Does it look like I'm doing anything I don't want to do?" I chuckled kissing him again as he let go my hand.
As we continued kissing, I tried reaching for his belt again and he stopped me once again by grabbing my hand again. I couldn't help but look at him in confusion. What was wrong with this man?
"We should probably slow things down a bit," Sean whispered to me. "Take things one step at a time."
"You want to take things slower than this?" I asked confused.
"We still have time to get to know each other more and then work our way up to this. We don't have to rush anything yet right?" Sean confused me even more.
What was wrong with this guy? I mean which right thinking guy turns down the opportunity to have sex with their girlfriend? It just doesn't make sense.
As I looked at Sean totally confused by his actions, it finally hit me.
"Oh my God." I backed away from him in total humiliation.
I've just been rejected. That means he either thinks that I'm too pushy, being too wanton or desperate or something is wrong with me.
"I am so sorry." I apologize reaching for the shirt and trying to button it up as fast as I could but my fingers seemed like they weren't working properly.
Why did I ever listened to Kim? I can't believe I stupidly took her advice and now embarrassed myself.
"Morgan, Morgan stop...wait. Baby, look at me." Sean came over to me and holding my hands.
I was useless trying to button up the shirt anyway.
"There's nothing wrong with you and I'm very much attracted to you in every way possible." Sean said causing me to look at him in confusion. "I can see it that you're thinking that way. You're wondering what's wrong with you, there's absolutely nothing wrong with you okay?"
"Is there something wrong with you then?" I asked looking down at his lap.
"What? No, no." Sean laughed after noticing where I was looking and what I meant. "Everything is fine with me as well. I don't want you to think that I rejected you or don't want to do this with you because I very much want to, believe me. What I'm saying is that we have a lot of time to work up to that. Tonight feels a bit rush and I think we should have a little more time to be prepared for next time."
"Prepared?" I asked confused.
"The thing is, that's a big step Morgan and we can't afford to take certain risks. Next time we should be prepared and have protection and stuff." Sean said causing me to finally get what he was saying. "I hadn't kept any type of protection around since my wife died. So don't be embarrassed that I turned you down or anything. It's just that I don't want us taking any risk without protecting ourselves. And before you jump to anymore conclusion, I'm not implying that you're not clean or have anything. There's the chance of an unwanted pregnancy and as a doctor who talks to patients about this kind if stuff, I'd rather not take the risk."
"You don't need to explain anymore Sean, I got it. And I'm sorry, I totally just try to force myself on you, I..."
"Why are you apologising? I want you to feel free to force yourself on me any other time once we're prepared. I won't mind and I definitely won't report you." Sean teased causing me to laugh.
"You're something else Sean." I said shaking my head with a smile.
"I hope that's in a good way," Sean smiled before leaning in and kissing me briefly. "Sorry for making things weird."
"No, I was the one who made things weird- throwing myself at you like that." I said shaking my head. "Oh, and just so you know, I'm never doing that again."
"What? You aren't? Did I blew my chances of you wanting to throw yourself at me?" Sean teased pulling me to him. "Looks like I'm going to have to try convince you to do so another time."
"That's going to take a lot of convincing Mr.Mercier because unless you make the next move, this situation is never going to happen again."