* they are now 16 . I skipped a year I had no ideas sorry . feedback ! vote ! love you ! read on !*
it has been 4 years since ross moved . 3 since Haley left . and 2 since Hannah died :,( . amity is now 18 and she has left and moved into he lynch's old house . the lynches still haven't heard of me except for the instagram thing . and did I mention Harvey and Henry are both 9 ! bella is currently begging me to go to an R5 concert . and they are visiting Littleton tonight . " im not ready bell !" I complain and flop on my bed . " yes you are ! come on please " she begged . " it's been 4 years " I tell her . " look you still wear the friendship bracelet for a reason it will be fine I promise " she begged . " fine I give in . " EPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS GONNA BE SO MUCH FUN !!!!!!!!!!!" she squeals it is currently 6:30 and the concert starts at 7 . " HOLLY MAIL !" mom called . " hold that thought . I skipped down the steps . " it's your note to the futer you wrote when yo were 7 . " she tells me I smile . "OH AND HERE IS ROSS'S he isn't here so maybe you should read it " amity says holding up the envelope . I took them both up to my room . I opened mine first
hi it's your younger self ! in the future i hope that i stay bestest friends with ross and the lynches . i NEVER EVER ! want to lose him as a friend ! i also really want to be good at sports so people will stop laughing at my un athletic ability . and i wish to be a good big sissy to Hannah and the new babies !!! .
okay -so some advice i can give myself is , haha my self , stay yourself , myself ? i don't know whatever . keep our cool awesomeness because that's what we are . you should also be nicer . being mean gets you know where . i learned that the hard way . that's a story we both know so no need to explain . stop eating so much so we don't get fat . and STAY BEST FRIEND WITH ROSS HE KEEPS US SANE !!!
my life ? well ross and i have lots of fun . we do dance contests all the time . he taught me how to play my guitar i got for my birthday from him . rocky is teaching me how to sing along with my guitar . rydel is my crazy minion she is how i look awesome everyday . riker and Ryland and ross are my play buddies. them and my sisters have lots of fun .
sincerely yourself .
haha . I was so crazy and socially awkward back then . and still am . lets see lost the lynches already x.am nicer check . stay myself check . lost ross x . still sane with out ross check ! .lost Hannah was a good big sister . check . there is really nothing else because I already lost everything else . next i opened ross's
dear older ross,
I want to one day be an actor on Disney channel ! maybe be head in a movie . being in a famous band would be cool too. yea with all the girls . that would be ROSSOME ! I don't really think there is that much left in my brain fart of a brain . I guess to have a good best friend , a hot girl , and yea that's it bye myself
from you / me /us
wait . he didn't even mention my name in here . here I was putting him in every sentence but im never even made it in his future . !!!!!!!!!!!!! UGH !! ross shor friking lynch .
" okay lest get you ready " bella said entering the room again . I crumbled up his paper and stuffed it a jacket . sure he would love to see this at the concert . I put on my famous fake smile . " okay sure !" UGH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. " put this on " she says handing me a stck of clothes . I shrugged and changed . it was a black floral spaghetti strap dress that went down to my knees with the white jean jacket I stuffed the paper in . and some black heels . I showed bella and she clapped . " okay we are gonna curl your hair just the ends so sit " she instructed . she curled my hair like she said she would . and I put on some make up .. all I did was some black eyeshadow , light blush , and some red lipstick . bella clapped for me and exited the bathroom . she was already ready wearing a lime green plain backless dress that wen to her knees . . she wore a white jean jacket along with it and white heels . her long brown curly hair was in a curly mess of a poney tail and she wore crème colored tear drop earings. I had on my white hoops . her tan skin matched perfectly with mine and we shared the same hazel brown eye clor . you couldn't even tell we weren't biological siblings . I grabbed my iphone off the stand and my whit purse we linked arms and walked down stairs . she was 1 year older than me so she was 17 . she had this HUGE crush on rocky . she loved him so much . I think she just wanted to go to the concert to see him in hope of meeting him . " BYE MOM , DAD WE WILL BE BACK BY LIKE MIDNIGHT !" bella yelled throught the house . " keep your phones on so we can contact you if needed ' they answered . we went to my yellow bug ( yes I have a car im 16 ) and we drive to the concert . they were in the middle of Q&A when we entered . I had a question myself so I raised my hand and I was luck enough to get picked . I nervously took out the paper I crumbled
" one day I want to be a Disney star . maybe be lead in a movie . being in a famous band would be rossome . maybe to have a nice best friend and a hot girl . tell me this ross . why didn't I make it in here ! HUH? because in my letter I wrote every sentence about you , but I never made it in your stupid little letter . why is that ROSSOME !" I ask . his eyes narrow at me . " im sorry what" he asks . I shove through the crowd and step up the stairs that lead to the stage . I crumbled it and threw it at him . " take a look " I fold my arms . he picked it up and read it his eyes turned bloodshot and turned staright to me . " Holly Thomas ?" he asked . " no ross , Holly REED! my mother got married again " I told him . " it's been so long I-" I cut him off . " save it ! ya know what I didn't want to know the answer in the first place . " thank you Colorado " I smile and walk off to bella . I grabbed her arm and pulled her out of there as fast as possible . " why couldn't that wait till after the concert " she asks through gritted teeth . this is the only reason I agreed to come . I wanted to imprint myself in his mind . after the concert we will be waiting by the meet and greet truck that's what tickets you have . you can meet rocky I can talk to rydel and the rest and we can disappear again okay " I tell her she nods . we sit by the truck for almost 2 hours tweeting , instagram . we even Skype Haley . I hadn't talked to her since the funeral . finally the band came out of the screaming fans and to the tour bus . ross's eyes met mine for 1/2 a second before I looked away . im not sure if I should be mad , happy , or sad but I surely feel confused . a blonde girl in a half shirt and blue jeans with combat boots walked up to him and kissed him on the lips . she had light red lipstick on and very dark eyeshadow . she had a small gage in her he ear and it was blackand she had blue greyish eyes . " hey babe nice concert " she smiled at him . he smiled back and kissed her lips one more time . "thanks amber , hey wear is viki " he asked her . " im here sorry jersey I was mobbed " a red head with curly hair and pale skin said behind him . she had on a black R5 shirt and mid thy shorts on . she had black converse and green emeraled eyes . " hey vik wassup " they did a bro hug . I was to caught up in heartbrake to realize everone including bella had gone in the bus . my cheek felt hot and wet . I touched it to find hot tears streaming down my face . " nice talking to you ........ross " I didn't know what to do when I got his attention . so I did only what I could . I ran . I ran into my bug and sunk as low as possible in the back seat so I was unseen . I texted bella where I was .
to bell- in the car don't tell people
to Holly - kk b der n a min
a few minutes later bella got in the car and drove us home as fast as possible . never again will I do that . " I got rocky's phone number " she sand as we drove home . I took her phone and secretly texted rocky as she bragged about everything and how it was the perfect night and such .
to rockster - hey rocky long time no see . it's me Holly . please tell me that blode chick isn't his GF and the red head isn't his friend
to-princess bell- hey Holly ! sorry to say but ross has moved on . amber is his girlfriend , and viki is his best friend . but you moved on soo what was he supposed to do
to rockster - I didn't move on ! I am in love with him ! I have been for years plz don't tell him .
to princess bell- fine I won't . take care Holly .
to rockster - bye :(
" and he looked me in the eyes and said sup ! rocky " she finshed . " I have my own problems bella . ross has a girlfriend . he replaced me . " I frowned . " was he wearing the bracelet " she asked . good question . I didn't get to see if he was wearing it . " well im not sure I didn't see " I mutter . " well if you ever take it off then you have given up , if he hasn't taken it off he hasn't forgot about you " bella assures me . " sure seems like it " I cross my arms as she pulls into the driveway . she looks at me " life never seems how it is , you might be getting married soon " she winks at me . " no , he's moved on . he has a girl friend rocky said " I sigh . " wait when did rocky tell you that " she questions . " when you were endlessly blabbing about him throught the car ridde I shrug and get out of the car. " well that shows me how much you love me " she rolls her eyes and walks up to the porch step . " you commin " she asks . " nah , im just gonna stop by Hannah's grave it's only 10 :30 " I shrug . " I will tell them you are on a walk at the park " she winks . " thanks bell " I smile warmly . " of course " she smiles back . she opens the door and I back out of the driveway . off to the graveyard ! I pull into get shaved which is right across from the graveyard . it's always super busy and loud . I know great place for a graveyard huh . that's what I thought too . I park the car and look down at my outfit . still in my heels . not gonna work . I think I have some converse in the back seat . yep here they are . I quickly change shoes , put my annoying hair in a poney tail , and climb out of the car . I walk over to Hannah's gravestone . " hey Hannah . it's me . Holly . today I finally saw ross for the first time in forever . only remember when we made the deal we would never move on , well he did . he has a girlfriend and a new best friend . you would know how I felt . you know everyday I ask myself , why didn't you listen to me when I told you to get out of the street . I will always love you , even know your 6 feet deep in the ground . " I tell her standing at her grave . " that's sweet " a voice from behind said . I turned around to see the person that made my heart flutter and shatter and flutter again . it was ross