Louis' PoV.
It's been 2 days since Niall flat lined. They revived him, thankfully. I haven't left his bedside since.
I also haven't said anything to the boys either. Right now, they are at our house getting stuff I'd need. Like a change of clothes and a tooth brush.
I'm pals with someone that works here, so they are letting me use the hospital shower If I need it.
"Louis." Harry said to me. I look up at him and Liam walking through the door, a backpack on Liam's shoulder.
"I'm sorry." He says as he walks over to me. I look at him quizzically.
"It's my fault. I shouldn't have kissed you, and.. yeah..." he pause and looks at the ground shamefully.
"It's not your fault Haz. And I forgive you." I say quietly. He smiles at me.
"ok Louis. I think you should eat something." Liam says to me. I shake my head no.
"No. 'm not hungry." I mumble.
"You haven't eaten anything since we got here. That's what? 2-3 days?" Harry says. I look at Niall.
"Niall wouldn't be happy if he knew you aren't eating." Liam points out.
I sigh, knowing he is probably right. I nod, slowly standing up.
"I'll stay here." Harry says. "Liam go with him."
Before I leave, I place a kiss on Niall's un-bruised portion of forehead.
Harry's PoV.
I sit down when Liam and Louis leave.
I grab Niall's hand lightly and sigh.
"I'm sorry Niall. I never should have touched Louis." I rub his hand with the pad of my thumb.
"I can't believe you and Louis are or were dating. Are you two even together? I hope. You two would be good together. And babies? Wow!" I smile lightly.
"You're pregnant! Well.... Were pregnant..." My smile drops, and turns into a frown.
"God this is my fault. What have I done?" I sigh deeply before resting my head on Niall's bed.
Louis' PoV.
Liam and I walk down to the hospital cafeteria in silence. I get a bagel and tea, while Liam gets a muffin
"I uh.... Went to Niall's room when Harry and I went back to the house. I found this. I thought you might want to read it." Liam places a small book onto our table.
"What is it?" I ask i I pick it up, inspecting it.
"It's Niall's song journal. He showed me some songs in it a bit before the accident. I think you might want to read them. They're pretty good." I nod and open the book.
I smile slightly at the first page.
'Property of Niall T̶o̶m̶ Horan.
do not read!!!
If I find out you have looked in this book, I will kill you in the most painful way imaginable.'
Wow. Ok. Wait... What was he trying to put. He crossed something out, then put Horan.... I shrug it off and move on to the songs.
I see many different song titles, each one accompanied by the date they were written, and how the beat of the song goes.
Dedicated To The Boys:
Act my age.
Hmmmm sounds interesting.
'One, two, three, four'
'When I'm fat and old and my kids think I'm a joke
'Cause I move a little slow when I dance
I can count on you after all that we've been through
'Cause I know that you'll always understand'
'I won't act my age, no, I won't act my age
No, I'll still feel the same around you
Hey!'
'When I'm fat and old and my kids think I'm a joke
'Cause the stories that I told, I tell again and again
I can count on you after all we got up to
'Cause I know that you truly understand'
'I won't act my age, no, I won't act my age
No, I'll still feel the same around you
I won't act my age, no, I won't act my age
No, I'll still feel the same and you will, too
Hey!'
'When I can hardly walk and my hair is falling out
We'll still stay up 'til morning
We'll throw the after-party, oh, yeah, oh, yeah'
'I won't act my age, no, I won't act my age
No, I'll still feel the same around you
I won't act my age, no, I won't act my age
No, I'll still feel the same and you will, too
Hey!'
I read act my age, and smile. Niall was always saying he'd write a song for us. I guess, this is that song.
"Did you read Act My Age?" I ask Liam. He smiles at me anf laughs lightly.
"Yeah. Harry and I looked trough the book at home. He cried a few times while reading some songs. Don't tall him you know." Liam chuckles. "Ok. Look at the songs dedicated to you."
I nod, and turn my attention back to Niall's song book.
Multiple songs have 'Dedicated To Louis' at the top, It melt my heart.
I read all the songs written to me. A small sad smile is plastered to my face, as I hold back tears the best I can. One song catches my eyes though.
Truly Madly Deeply
It was written the day before the accident
'Am I asleep, am I awake, or somewhere in between?
I can't believe that you are here and lying next to me
Or did I dream that we were perfectly entwined?
Like branches on a tree, or twigs caught on a vine?'
'Like all those days and weeks and months I tried to steal a kiss
And all those sleepless nights and daydreams where I pictured this,
I'm just the underdog who finally got the boy'
'And I am not ashamed to tell it to the world
Truly, madly, deeply, I am
Foolishly, completely falling
And somehow you kicked all my walls in
So baby, say you'll always keep me
Truly, madly, crazy, deeply in love with you
In love with you'
'Should I put coffee and granola on a tray in bed
And wake you up with all the words that I still haven't said?
And tender touches, just to show you how I feel
Or should I act so cool like it was no big deal?'
'Wish I could freeze this moment in a frame and stay like this
I'll put this day back on replay and keep reliving it
'Cause here's the tragic truth if you don't feel the same
My heart would fall apart if someone said your name'
'And truly, madly, deeply, I am
Foolishly, completely falling
And somehow you kicked all my walls in
So baby, say you'll always keep me
Truly, madly, crazy, deeply in love with you'
'I hope I'm not a casualty,
I hope you won't get up and leave
May not mean that much to you
But to me it's everything, everything'
'Truly, madly, deeply, I am
Foolishly, completely falling
And somehow you kicked all my walls in
So baby, say you'll always keep me
Truly, madly, crazy deeply in love with you
In love with you
In love with you
With you, oh!'
Tears were in my eyes, ready to spill. I saw a note at tee end and i decided to read it.
'To my dearest Louis.
I am truly madly deeply in love with you. I will be till the day I die.
{Dear future Niall,
Sing this for Louis. Don't let him go. He is way too good for you. But for some reason, he loves you, make sure to keep him happy.}
I finish the note and song, and I start to cry. Niall. He loved me, and I cheated on him.
I just want Niall to wake up.
I want him to come back to me.
I wish I could turn back time. But i can't.
Now our twins are gone, and Niall could be next....
A/N:
Word Count:
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Heylo!!!
How is everyone?
I wanted to use one of Niall's new songs from his new album, but i decided on truly, Madly, Deeply.
I hope you guys like the chapter today!! Let me know your thoughts!!
Have a lovely day!!
- Laylania xxx