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It all starts at nightfall.
When the cold comes in
and the monsters call.
When I lose count
of the tears that fall,
When I realize that I'm nothing at all.
It starts with a bell.
When the demons come
and the monster sells
When they make me kneel
and fill my well
When it spills of milk
from something cruel.
It starts with pain.
When they tell me to behave;
to strip my clothes and never complain.
When they set me aside,
treated with disdain.
When they continue to stain
what they already stained.
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I always cried silently,
in my own little corner
hugging my worn-out teddy
drowned with justified self-pity.
hoping that someone will save me,
knowing no one will save me,
~~~
Then something snaps,
Clicks into place.
Everything is so clear now.
I have to save myself.
and only myself.
This world is only filled with monsters and demons
nothing else
Yes.
Everything is so clear now.
<I have to save myself>
No one will save me
<I h a v e t o s a v e m y s e l f >
This world is only filled with monsters and demons
< I h a v e t o s a v e m y s e l f >
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It all starts at nightfall.
When the cold comes in
and the monsters call.
When I start to count,
facing the wall
And I realize that they're nothing at all.
It starts with a bell.
When the demons come
and the monster sells
when I start to feel
what I never felt
When I know that for them
this won't end well
one.
two.
three.
"Hello again, little girl- !"
A smile breaks-
A smile different from before.
A soulless grimace stuck on my face.
Yes. Yes-
Oops. I got wet again. But it wasn't from me nor was it sticky milk...
it was red.
I like it. haha.
Again and again
I laugh.
more more more more more more more more...
Mother was wrong- playing with knives is fun.
very very fun.
Forget saving myself.
I've had fun with the demon.
too bad he was too weak
now the monster's blood is next to reap.
It starts with pain.
When they tell me to behave;
to strip my clothes and never complain.
When they set me aside,
treated with disdain.
But as I take in the monster's screams with joy
and watch her fight like a broken toy
and stick my reddened key inside her chest
to free myself from this rotting nest
I know, I just know, that they'll never again stain
what they already stained.
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