ignored
i liked this song bc it was about making choices/decisions and like the last chapter was called choices so like ;) i guess this is the aftermath
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the next week at school (y/n) avoided samuel completely.
she ignored his notes in her locker and even in class she was moved farther away from him.
she walked past him as if he didn't exist.
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samuel tried his best, but (y/n) was very strong willed.
his performance at basketball wasn't the greatest.
his coach even wanted him to take a week off to get out of his slump.
his grades weren't the greatest which was somewhat good, since it would encourage interactions with (y/n).
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a whole week had passed with ignored contact and more distance between the two.
she knew it was illogical to ignore him like this and her life shouldn't be dominated by a boy.
but he was a special boy.
and she would deny her feelings despite this knowledge.
she told herself that love makes you blind an clueless
oh how blind and clueless she was.
all because of her parents' rivalry.
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he - on the other hand - knew she was having a hard time ignoring him.
he desperately wanted to talk to her.
but he couldn't find a way.
he just would watch her from a distance or ask his friends if they saw her.
love makes you do crazy things, right?
oh was this boy about to do something insane.
(obviously not without the help of his friends.)
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it was a friday night.
(y/n) was finished her homework and was now sitting listening to music.
the jj project was blasting in her room, the song slowly reminding her of samuel for some reason.
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Even when I'm busy, they endlessly ask
I'm going forward but I keep looking back
What will I become at the end?
Will I regret it if I look back later on?
I clench my fists but I'm still timidBut I stop myself and try to have courageSo I can walk again butOh no, no, no
Again today, there are questions I don't knowI'm trying to answer but I'm not confidentIs it this way or that way?I'm afraid of my decisionWith an anxious heart heart heart heartI'm standing in front of the next next next choiceBetween paths that I've never gone on beforeHow can I find my way?I'm afraid, day by day
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her mind filled with memories of walks home with samuel.
she groaned in annoyance.
even after a week of ignoring him.
he was her number one thought.
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she changed the song and sighed.
she stared up at her ceiling, not realizing that tears were uncontrollably spilling from her eyes.
just tell me which way to go.
to my parents? or him?
just tell me what to do.
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samuel stood outside her house, seeing no cars in the driveway.
at least she's alone.
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(y/n) jumped at the sound of something hitting her window.
she turned to her window, slowly approaching it.
are those... pebbles?
she opened her window and felt like throwing herself out of it.
(dkm bc that's me everyday^^^)
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samuel smiled when she opened the window.
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"there's something called a doorbell."
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"wouldn't have had the same effect."
he let out an awkward laugh, scratching the back of his neck.
"can you let me in?"
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she let him in and dragged him to her room.
"samuel, we can't-"
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he kissed her quickly.
she didn't find herself pulling away.
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"i've missed you. it's hell..."
"i know... but what else can we do?"
"the boys said they can help you out. seongwoo is close with your family, so he said he was going to cover for you when we're together."
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the two enjoyed each other's company for the rest of the night.
until (y/n) heard her parents come inside.
peeking outside her window looking to the driveway she saw the familiar car.
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"samuel! you need to go!"
after one more kiss, samuel was practically shoved out her window,
"i love you, samuel. no matter what."
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"i love you too, don't miss me too much."
"that'll be hard." she laughed and kissed his cheek.
"seongwoo will text you for me. love you!"
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as (y/n) shut her window and her blinds, her door creaked open.
perfect timing.
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"(y/n), are you okay?"
her mother's voice was calm and soothing.
"y-yes. why?"
"i need to talk to you about something important."
"what is it?"
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the next sentence shattered her heart.
"your father has arranged for you to marry ong seongwoo."
he was the very boy who was supposed to secretly her and samuel together.
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arranged marriage?
how cliché can this get?
let's just see.
LOWKEY FOLLOWING SOME OF THE PLOT OF ROMEO AND JULIET IN THIS CHAPTER WHOOPS