my world

Sickened by hiding behind a smile.
This smile of mine is just as fake as this world of mine.
I wish to escape the world, even for a moment.
Hiding from everyone, avoiding everything.
The only place that I feel that understands me is the music I listen to.
It keeps me fueled.
Here we go again with these deep feeling wish would leave, but is the only way I feel alive.
Everything feels the same.
I look around and am lost even though I've been here before.
I never planed things to go this way, but that's okay because I can still walk.