What if I fail?
Do I hold my head up high and say it's going to be alright.
Do I tell my heart to stay strong and keep on moving forward.
Tonight I want to close my eyes.
There is no need to fight.
Sometimes I feel as if the fight inside has died.
Can't I just close my eyes and know that there is no need to fight.
Will you provide.
You have always provided.
I don't want to live this way anymore.
Living from hand to mouth on a daily basis.
Telling myself that it's alright.
All my hardships are limited to my faith.
My faith is what makes me who I am.
I am disgusted by my sins.
By my thoughts and doings.
God will you provide?
Tonight; will I be able to close my eyes and know that you do provide.
I am so scared and afraid for the new-
But my faith in you will grow.
I only want what you believe is right for me.
I will close my eyes and know that you will provide.
Yes I have asked why?
But I haven't blamed you.
If I have then I am sorry.
You have provided.
I watched a miracle happen.
From rice and two pieces of chicken a pot of food was made.
Twelve people fed.
I watched you provide even when we had none.
Three rooms and four families.
All warm and safe.
What else can I say.
You provide in ways that I cannot explain or even deny.
Thanks for coming through for me.
Even when the clouds of doubt rained down, you provided.
So tonight I close my eyes and know that I do not need to fight.
God you do provide.