Stretching out in my bed, I notice that my laptop is still on my bed so I pull it towards me. The Skype call is still going and on the screen I see a sleeping Ben that just so happens to be topless. I see that he sent a typed message after I'd fallen asleep, it reads:
I left the Skype call on cuz I thought it would be like sleeping next to each other plus I like watching you sleep... Your so cute!!! Love You xxx <3
Aaaw! I look at him on the screen. He is curled up slightly and has his hands enclosed in fists like how babies sleep. Benedict, why do you do this too me? He is so adorable that I can't even function at the moment. At this point I look at the time. It's 8:06AM. Woah! Way too early.
I lay back on my pillows and watch Ben sleep. Okay, I sound like a creeper, but its okay to do this in a relationship - Isn't it? Laying there, I stay like that for an hour until my alarm clock goes off and its playing King For A Day by Pierce The Veil Ft. Kellin Quinn. I close my eyes and wait for Ben to wake up with an evil smile on my face.
"What the fuck!" I hear Ben curse and fight off a giggle. Then I can hear him sitting up. "How can she sleep through this?" He wonders out loud and in fact normally I wouldn't sleep through this. I can hear him ruffling his fingers through his hair and I'm half-tempted to peek; but luckily my self-control is strong enough.
"Jo. Princess, wake up. It's 9AM and you have work soon" His deep voice is slow and soothing causing me to smile. Playing along with him, I slowly stretch and roll onto my back.
"Ben... I miss you" I mumble as if I'm talking in my sleep. He sighs, probably smiling.
"Jo, get up please and turn off Pierce The Veil" He is stern and I hear him run his hand through his hair. Wait, did he say PTV? Painfully slowly, I stretch out and yawn, rolling towards my laptop and opening my eyes.
"Oh" My eyes pop open, still acting. A sad look on my face.
"What's wrong sweetheart?" Benedict asks, his voice full of concern.
"I thought you were back with me, but you're not" My bottom lip trembles and tears threaten to spill over my eyelids. I'm not acting now. His face contorts into one of agony and he strokes his screen.
"Just remember I love you no matter what the distance" He smiles, his half-crooked smile and I smile back.
"I love you too" I smile more.
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The rest of the day passed almost just like the last apart from at 5PM I went straight home and collapsed onto my sofa. And that is where I reside currently, thinking about my life. Then an idea pops into my head. Music time.
Dragging my sorry ass off of my comfortable couch, I walk into the spare bedroom which is a guest room/my music room. It's sound-proofed so that no sound comes in or goes out unless I open the window. Crookshanks is sat on the black leather chair that is placed in front of my Apple Mac. I pat his head lightly, pick up my guitar and sit down on the floor.
Before I can strum a single chord my phone vibrates in my pocket. It's a call from Ben. I quickly answer it.
"Hi" I smile at my phone.
"Hello my beautiful princess" Benedict's deep, rich baritone voice soothes me and his words make me blush.
"Stop it, you're making me blush" I giggle and put my guitar down. It makes quite a loud noise. Shit.
"Aaaw, what was that noise?" Ben asks.
"Just my guitar. I was about to do a cover of a couple of songs" I shrug, even though he can't see me.
"Ooh, I wanna hear. Go on Skype and sing to me please" He pleads, sounding like a child begging their mother for an ice cream from the ice cream van.
"OK, bye then for now" I chuckle.
"Bye" He hangs up. I quickly open Skype on my phone and sign in. Picking up my guitar again, I hear Skype ring and answer it. Then I position my phone on a box of equipment so its facing me and turn on the camera. Ben's face appears on the screen and I smile.
"Any requests Mr Cumberbatch?" I laugh.
"Umm, Strong by London Grammar please" He smiles at me. Slowly, I begin to strum.
Excuse me for a while
While I’m wide-eyed
And I’m so down caught in the middle
I’ve excused you for a while
While I’m wide-eyed
And I’m so down caught in the middle
And if a lion, a lion roars would you not listen?
If a child, a child cries would you not forgive them?
Yeah, I might seem so strong
Yeah, I might speak so long
I've never been so wrong
Yeah, I might seem so strong
Yeah, I might speak so long
I've never been so wrong
Excuse me for a while,
Turn a blind eye
With a stare caught right in the middle
Have you wondered for a while
I have a feeling deep down
You’re caught in the middle?
If a lion, a lion roars would you not listen?
If a child, a child cries would you not forgive them?
Yeah, I might seem so strong
Yeah, I might speak so long
I've never been so wrong
Yeah, I might seem so strong
Yeah, I might speak so long
I've never been so wrong
Excuse me for a while
While I’m wide-eyed
And I’m so down caught in the middle
Have you wondered for a while I have a feeling deep down?
You’re caught in the middle
Yeah, I might seem so strong
Yeah, I might speak so long
I've never been so wrong
Yeah, I might seem so strong
Yeah, I might speak so long
I've never been so wrong
As I finish playing, I feel tears slowly slide down my cheeks. He had to pick this song. I listen to it all the time when I'm depressed. I drop my guitar and cover my face hastily with my hands.
"Jo, please don't cry" I hear his voice break and I look up. Ben's face wears an expression of concern and worry. Shit, I didn't mean to worry him. Using the sleeve of my jacket, I wipe my face clean and look at the screen of my phone.
"Sorry, maybe a different song" I chuckle, shrugging my shoulders slightly.
"Yeah. You choose this time and don't cry or I will be hopping in my car and driving straight back to London" Benedict smiles and I look down at my guitar, deep in thought. I want to sing a song for him and I know just the song.
"One second" I stand up and tap a couple of keys on my Mac. Sitting back down, I smirk at his face as the song begins. I mouth the words 'This song's for you'. His jaw drops and I begin.
Aren't you somethin' to admire?
'Cause your shine is somethin' like a mirror
And I can't help but notice
You reflect in this heart of mine
If you ever feel alone and
The glare makes me hard to find
Just know that I'm always
Parallel on the other side
'Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
Just put your hand on the glass
I'll be tryin' to pull you through
You just gotta be strong
'Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Comin' back here to you once I figured it out
You were right here all along
It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one
'Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me
Aren't you somethin', an original
'Cause it doesn't seem merely a sample
And I can't help but stare, 'cause
I see truth somewhere in your eyes
I can't ever change without you
You reflect me, I love that about you
And if I could, I would look at us all the time
'Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
Just put your hand on the glass
I'll be tryin' to pull you through
You just gotta be strong
'Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Comin' back here to you once I figured it out
You were right here all along
It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one
'Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me
Yesterday is history
Tomorrow's a mystery
I can see you lookin' back at me
Keep your eyes on me
Baby, keep your eyes on me
'Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now (please show me, baby)
I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Comin' back here to you once I figured it out
You were right here all along
It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one
'Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me
I smile at him and he's smiling back. I am so lucky to have him.