Alysha pov,
Miss Camerons lesson wasn't that bad at all, in fact it was like she blanked me, strange.
have her and my dad had an argument already?
it wouldn't surprise me..
i sighed,
i checked my timetable to see which lesson i have next,
english.
i walked accross the buildings towards the english block, i find it fustrating how everything has to be spread out and separated across our school.
im moaning alot today, even more than usual, but i didn't get much sleep last night, my dad was on skype call to miss cameron.
my dad has skype.
lol.
i walked into the classroom, and sat into my original seat.
my original seat is next to Jay.
not Jacob.
Jay.
i used to have a massive crush on Jay, he used to be really nice to me, he never disrespected a girl, whether they were ugly like i was or if they were beautiful, he was nice to everyone. I always found him attractive whether other people didn't, he was perfect in my eyes, he had brown silky hair, and deep, blue eyes.
"hey Alysha." he looked at me strangely?
um okay?
i thought he had a girlfriend,
i felt hurt when he got in a relationship with someone else, even though i was dating jacob, i was still jealous of his relationship.
"hi."
"so what you doing tonight?" he raised an eyebrow.
um why do you care? you never did before.
"probably nothing. and i can't be bothered to do anything."
"Oh."
"Why?"
"I just wondered if you were going to carls party tonight?"
Now im not even risking that, after the way hes been towards me.
"Well im defiantly aint now!"
"Why? i think carl likes you."
If hes trying to set us up, it wont work
"What are you jay? the school cupid? i dont like carl, i never have and i never will. hes a jerk."
"Thats good then."
?
"I mean i could take you to the party if you like."
"Id love to but im busy, so it doesnt fit in to my schedule."
Pfft shutup alysha you dont even have a schedule.
"schedule huh? well whats in this schuedule of yours?"
"uh. what?"
"yeah thats right Alysha, i've seen the way you used to look at me."
yeah USED.
"you think i have crush on you?" i sneered,
"well why wouldn't you? im a goodlooking lad?"
um.
"nah. thats just vein."
"i don't like being told any different, to what im usually told, anyway well look i'll write you down my phone number, and you can text me."
i nodded,
but really i was just going along with it to humour him.
like id really text him!
"look you havent done the work! it's not good enough your predicted a B grade Alysha, and you Jay the same," Miss Jenkins interupted our conversation.
she does my head in, she yabbles on about grades and stuff, then gives us all this weird work to do!
Then her hair and makeup, don't even get me started on that.
i shrugged,
B grade my ass.
"shrugging is not an excuse! its very fustrating to see that work is only a D grade when it's meant to be a B, your clearly not putting the effort in, is there something wrong at-" she paused, as she saw all the bruises and cuts up my arms.
shit.
i quickly pulled my sleves down before she saw anymore.
"i think we better have a chat after this lesson."
jee.
"why do you have to stay behind? whats so special about your arms?" Jay tugged at my sleves.
No way am i being humiliated here, if the word gets out ive been self-harming i'll never get to live it down.
"fuck off Jay."
"Angry?"
"No, just leave me alone. your as bad as carl."
"dont ever compare me to that asshole."
he's still as bad.
im done with boys, i don't even know where i stand with Jacob.
But he's been trying to get my attention for the whole of this lesson.
This lesson dragged on, i just wanted it to be over already.
i stared at the clocked, two minutes to go!
"put your books away." Miss jenkins shouted.
no.
then the bell went, i wanted to walk out.
"Alysha wait."
fuck sake!
"what do you want miss?"
"Just wait till these leave." she pointed at certain indivduals, with that, i saw Jacob waiting for me outside the classroom door.
"right, now its just the two of us. show me your arms."
NO!
pedo much.
"no!"
"Alysha, this is serious stuff! it has to be reported."
"No! im not having this school or you knowing my business. its my business and its personal."
"you selfharm. you feel alone."
how does she know this?!
"i was your age once you know."
yeah about twenty years ago.
"i heard that! and actually less than ten years ago."
i dont really care.
"can i go now." i rolled my eyes.
"no."
"what?"
"sit down, and tell me whats wrong. whatever has happened it can stay in this room."
but its to extreme to be kept in this room.
"i don't want to."
"ok. im going to ask you again, your not leaving until you do this. roll your sleves up, and let me see whats on your arms."
i sighed,
"ok."
she hesitated, probably because my stubborness stepped aside, and i gave into her.
i closed my eyes and pulled my sleves up.
Miss Jenkins frowned at the side, she was examining my arms, i don't like this at all.
"now do you want to tell me how you got these?"
"no."
"your young Alysha, you need support."
"well not from you!" i hissed,
then i walked out.
okay, so that was a bit mean of me, but she can't find out, and her of all people i mean no. just no.
"what do you want jacob?"
"im sorry about earlier."
"sorry for what? spreading around the school that i dumped you and broke your heart, or sorry for being clingy, i reckon you done that for attention, im sorry but i can't be with you. i don't connect with you emotionly."
"I....I" he stuttered.
jee i didn't mean to hurt him, im just gonna step back...
or maybe walk away, and find Maisie.
thats exactly what i done, i walked across to the hall, to find Maisie, i knew she'd be sat on our table.
by 'our' i mean, me, her, Karen, Luke, Carl (sometimes.), Nathan, my childhood friend, who has a crush on Maisie im sure of it.
i went and sat on our table, carl was sat their, hm.
"so Alysha, you coming to my party later?" Carl asked me, so predictable.
i shook my head,
"why we could have a right laugh."
"Carl, i'll be your friend but nothing more you need to understand that."
a smirk appeared on his face,
"friends with benefits."
And what are these benefits?
pfft shutup Alysha like you don't know,
here we go, im arguing with myself, again.
"no, just go back to your table." i pointed at where the sluts, and players sit.
i waited for him to argue back.. but he actually went..?
"Alysha are you going to Carls party?" Maisie snapped out of daydream land.
why does everyone keep asking me about this shitty party?
"no."
"why don't be boring? come on it'll be fun."
"its not really my scenery."
"shutup Alysha! its a pool party you love swimming."
and that makes the situation worse, walking round in a bikini with a loads of guys about.
"i don't want anything to happen. you know what the guys are like."
"she has a point ,Maisie she doesn't have to go, if she doesn't want too." Nathan joined the conversation.
aw cutie.
"are you going?"
"hell yeah!"
"see Alysha, Nathan won't let anyone touch you, we'll go to the mall after school and get a new bikini each, then we'll go to Carls yeah?"
"ok." i agreed.
i actually wanted to enjoy this party.
i had one lesson to go; chemistry, hm this should be interesting.
the main thing everyone was talking about was Carl's party, so yeah maybe it was a bit exciting, but i think maybe people are over-exaggerating a bit....
then the end of period bell went.
schools over, woo that was a long day, well for me at least anyway.
i walked to the gate, to meet Maisie, she was there before me, waiting for me like usual, because im the one who's always late.
"so we're gonna walk to the shop."
"what shop?! im not walking to the mall from here!"
i over reacted a bit.
"no theres a swim wear shop down the road, silly."
oh.
"come on," she tugged my arm.
k.
we walked down to this shop, it was called:
swimsuit stall.
great name huh?
it seemed a bit dodgy.
"alysha how much money do you have on you?"
"£15. you?"
"£20."
shes richer than me.
her family own a mansion, whilst mine own a four bedroom deluxe house.
we entered the shop,
there were some really nice bikinis in there, but i hadn't found one which caught my eye yet.
"this is so cute!" Maisie picked out a bikini with cupid hearts on it,
"are you suggesting i wear it?" i raised an eyebrow,
"yeah! it'd look so cute on you! and i think you should be the school cupid, your always great at giving relationship advice."
she's lost it.
i hate relationships and love.
i found a cute bikini, which had dolphins and hearts on it, i really liked it, and it was only £7.50.
"get it girl! it'll look amazing on you!"
so i purchased it,
when i went to the cashier, the guy was so cute...
I need to get a grip.
i'll never forget that face.
"come on Maisie, you've practically looked at everything in this shop, just purchase one!"
"okok, fine i'll get this one." she picked out this, silky bikini which had butterflys on it.
"whats the time?" i asked Maisie,
"4:30."
"so we're going to yours to get changed, and have some alcohol, then we're going to this party?"
"yes." she confirmed the details.
we walked to Maisies house , which was roughly about five minutes away, within a blink of an eye we were there already.
"come in."
"hi Alysha, how lovely to see you." Maisies mum greeted me,
"and you too, ma'am."
"how many times do i have to tell you Alysha, its Carol."
"okay, sorry carol."
"come on Alysha." Maisie called me from the top of the stairs..
i walked up the stairs into her room,
"right i'll get changed in here, you get changed in the bathroom." she told me,
i nodded.
i got changed into my bikni, quickly, then i looked at my arms, most of the bruises hae gone down, and some of the cuts have healed over, so i grabbed some conceler out of my bag, just to cover up the remaining marks.
then i walked back into Maisies room,
"that bikini looks perfect on you!" she told me,
says her?
"thanks, but you can't really say alot have you look in the mirror?"
"yeah and im not sure about this.."
"you look fine, really."
"Hm,"
"what else are we going to wear to the party?" i bit my lip,
"shorts and a hoody."
"ok.."
once we were dressed, we consumed a tiny bit of alcohol.
"i don't think we should have anymore Maisie."
"yeah, we should get going the partys already started."
it doesn't really matter, it's not going to take us long to walk there, Carl's house is only down the road..
we walked down the road to carls house, it didn't take long.
when we arrived, jee.
well there were loads of drunk people.. people passed out, people fighting, people doing drugs and all sorts.
i don't think its a good idea.
"come on Alysha."
i followed Maisie, into Carls back garden, there were loads of sunbeds, and a massive swimming pool, it was actually quite nice.
there were loads of people, it was crowded litterly.
i looked to my side and Maisie was gone hm, typical.
"alysha." someone tapped my shoulder,
"nathan."
"your here alone?"
"Nah maisies gone a-wall."
"sounds like her, oh and that bikini looks really nice on you."
"thanks."
"if you see Maisie, tell her i need to talk to her,"
yeah he definantly likes her.
"sure."
"are you going swimming."
"not yet."
"boring shit."
"no, the waters freezing."
he laughed.
ok?
"right im gonna go get a drink, do you want one?"
i nodded.
then he walked away.
now what?
i walked over to a sunbed,
someone wrapped their arms around me.
i turnt round to face this person.
Carl.
"i knew you'd come." his breath reeked of alcohol,
"get off me."
"No, you like it," he kissed my cheek.
i really don't.
"that bikini looks really nice on you."
"and why are you here with me? go get with someone else, oh you probably already have."
"don't underestimate me, and i like you, because your-"
"excuse me what is this?" a deep voice asked carl.
"im just claiming whats mine man, Jacobs been with her, now its my turn."
then someone punched Carl around the face.
jay.
possessive much?
"sorry, i don't like it when guys treat girls like that."
"no its okay, and i should be thanking you, maybe your not that much of a jerk after all."
"omg Alysha are you ok?" Nathan came rushing up to me,
"i'll talk to you later." Jay told me.
i looked at nathan, he looked so cute when he was worried..
no i can't crush on him, hes a friend, but i can't turn off these feelings i have.
but you connect with him emotionly.
"im fine."
"maybe i should take you home."
"no. im fine. why don't you go get with some girl?"
"theres only a couple of girls here who i'd get with, and well you know im not that kinda guy Alysha."
only a couple of girls.
obviously Maisie, and some of the school cheerleaders.
he's a fine guy.
he stared a me awaiting a reply,
i don't know what to say..
maybe i should go home..
"on second thoughts, are you still offering me a lift?"
"yeah, come on."
"we gotta find Maisie first, i can't just leave her here."
He nodded,
we walked into carls house and up the stairs,
we went into the first bedroom,
not a nice sight;
the second bedroom, the same thing.
"this is the last room alysha."
"well she has to be in here then doesn't she?"
i opened the door.
i was stunned by what i was seeing..
Maisie and Jacob,
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a/n
ooooo maisies slept with Jacob, hows alysha going to act?!
the next chapters going to be interesting and is going to be a small part of the plot in the book, so um yeah.
i took ages to write this up, but its much longer..?
its unedited, so you'll have to bare with me on any grammar or spelling mistakes, or if it doesn't make sense.
i should update more often now, because its half term :)
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