Being with Pac this past month been amazing
Finding out I'm pregnant making stuff more hard for us Pac and suge Knight law suit going crazy the media going crazy and then Pac been charge with a rape charge recently so he's on the news to left and right ,Trying not to get stress out for our baby but it's been making me wanting to faint so my sister Kayla is living with me so I don't be alone Ms Shakur is with Court with Pac , He didn't want me to come with him for the Rape charge case and to be honest I don't want to go but I have to because he's my man and I have to be there for him
It's 10: 15 it starts at 11 pm I only have a half an hour to get there so I Already took my showers and stuff and put this on
I ran down stairs and kayla cooking in the kitchen
Me: Kayla I'm going to see Pac I'll be back
Kayla: um No your not Pac don't want you to go
Me:That's my man in that court room Kayla I'm going
Kayla and I don't have the same father but same mother,She was my back bone and I was hers when I was in California she was the first person I call to cry in the phone this is her
As you can see we're Twins.
Two years older then me mom says we have the same head shape and eyes and i agree with her ,I'm just shorter then her.
Kayla:Your not going Ashley
Me:Watch me
I said walking out
Kayla:Fine let me come with you then
Then we both left and got in my Land Rover and went to the court house to see Pac
Kayla:Don't stress yourself with this ok Ashley
Me:I'm not ok I just need to be there for my man
Kayla:You it's over a month now and nobody knows who you are
Me:Well they gonna know who I am today
When we got to the court house and we saw all the paparazzi I have to admit this going to be a stressful day so I parked the car and walked towards the court room i open the door and looking for Pac or Ms Shakur somebody Kayla and I looked around then we saw Pac talking to He's lawyers around a circle with me being nervous ,worried and excited to see he's ok I scream out and ran to him and said
Me: PAC!!
Kayla: Ashley wait!
She yelled behind me but I didn't care Pac is charged with a rape charge don't know what the jury going to say I have to hug him kiss him see him ,not seeing him in a orange suit
Pac: Ashley!? What you doing here I told you to stay home
Me: No, I'm staying here with you your my man and imma ride for you and I'll die for you I love your ass Pac !!
Pac:I Love you Too baby
We hug as I felt him kissed my head
Pac:I never thought..when I have a kid..I might be going to jail
Me: shhh.. Don't talk like that baby it's going to be ok
Pac: No it's not Ash...
He took a deep breath and hug me even tighter
Then Pac's lawyer Mr Quil came up to us
Mr. Quil :It's time Mr.Shakur
Pac: ok baby take a seat with my mama alright
Me: Alright baby
We kissed quickly and went are separate ways
Kayla:Come on Ashley
We walked in the court room and I saw Ms.Shakur sitting down nervous I can see it in her face me and Kayla walked up to her and I tap on her shoulder she turn around smiled hug me and Kayla
Ms.Shakur: are you ok hunny
Me:I'm fine just...nervous that's all
Ms. Shakur:Don't Stress Yourself Your with child
Me:I try not to
Then it began after 2 hours of going back and fourth it was time for the verdict
Judge:Has the jury reach a verdict
Jury women: Yes we have your honor
Judge: for count of rape how the defendant
Jury women: Not Guilty
Everyone in the court room was relieve I was defending relieve
Judge: Order !! Order !!!... for the Count of sexual assault
Jury women: Guilty
Everyone gasped and some was relieved ,my legs felt weak and I felt like I was gonna cry
Ms Shakur was so upset I stare at the girl who accused my Man of this shit...But how... she looked at me and turn her head back
Judge:Mr Shakur you will be in a New York county jail for 8 Months and three weeks
Me:What...
Pac:It's ok mama Ashley
Ms Shakur: it's alright baby boy I know your scared it's ok
Me:Baby
Pac grab me and hug me close and kiss me
Pac:Don't worry ill be out before the baby is born ok
Me: alright
He put He's hands on my small bump let me go and hug my Kayla
Pac:She's your little sister so you know what to do watch over her for me and the baby ok
Kayla : of course I'll see you soon
Then they put him in hand cuffs he looked at me on more time and look at me one more time and mouthed "I love you"
Me:I love you too
I said out loud and they took him to the back I took a seat while Ms Shakur and Kayla was talking then the girl came up to me and whispered in my ear
Girl: You know he might not have rape me,but we did had sex so you know that means he cheated on yo Ass
I looked at her then slap the Shit out of her making her fall back she try to come back ran towards me and but guards and her lawyers pulling her away and Kayla and Ms Shakur pulling me away , this was some kind of game to her ? But is she right tho she can't be she's just a slut in my eyes
Girl: Bitch Your just He's baby mama bitch you the same way as I from the pole and to the palace hoe!!!
Me:And your just a pathetic girl get you a life in stead of ruining mines bitch!!!
She finally left the room and I looked at Ms Shakur and Kayla I just burst out crying... could he cheated on me? is it true then I saw Haitian Jack Pac was with him in the concerts maybe he know I quickly ran up to him and said
Me: Hatitan !!
He turn to me and looked at me in a confused look
Hatitan: Yes look no autograph ok lil mama
Me:What?! I'm Pac's girl you was there with him at he concerts and shit did he fucked that bitch
He look at me a chuckled and said
Hatitan: I kinda introduced them so yes one thing lead to another and sorry to say this but your this girl he met in an party not any party a hotel party and we all know how them kind of parties can get and he told me he really loves you but he likes other women haha
Kayla: ok that's you know enough
Pulling me away from him walking out the door
Me:Do you think he was serious?!
Kayla: Ashley Please calm down
Me: No I'm not!! Like Pac told him about what I use to do and... ugh!! Let's just go
When we got to the house I packed everything
Kayla: You Don't know if he did
Me: I just need to be stress free so can I stay with you and Matthew I miss my nephew
Kayla : of course
I finished packing and I left the key under the Matt Kayla had my stuff
Kayla: Who gave you all this clothes and Bags jewelry
Me:Pac
Kayla damn
We took off in her car and went to her house in Brooklyn
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Kayla: You can stay here until and after the baby is born
Me:Thanks Sis You talk to mama since she arrested
Kayla:Yeah I told her your pregnant she wants to apologize to you so when ever your ready
Me:I should do it tomorrow I miss her
Kayla: Yeahh
Then my four year old Nephew Matthew came running in
Matthew:Auntie Ashley!!!
He hug me by the legs I picked him up and hug him Vary tight
Me: I miss you so guest what
Matthew: what?
Me:Your going to be an older cousin how exciting
Matthew:Cool!
Me:Yeah it's gonna be Cool really cool
Kayla: ok Matthew legs go to bed
I look at the clock and it was 8: 18 pm it did took us a long time to get all my stuff packed in the car.
Me:Good night Matthew
Matthew: Good night Aunt Ashley
He kissed me on my cheek and ran out the room
Kayla: wake up at 10 am going to see ma
Me: ok
I took my shower and and put these pj on
Said My prayer to god And I went to sleep thinking about Pac and our baby that I'm carrying.