i've had little to no motivation to do anything.
that isn't good at all.
i need you to come motivate me.
can you do that? give me a sign.
of course you will.
because one day i'll wake up from this god awful nightmare and we'll all live happily ever after.
i got a call from taeyong hyung again.
he asked me if i was well, and we chatted for a while even though i kept trailing off and thinking about you. about us.
i wish this bad feeling would go away.
i wish i could feel normal and we'd be normal and you wouldn't be dead and i wouldn't have to cry myself to sleep at night.
i wish.
i wanna hear your voice, i want you to sing me to sleep.
my mom calls and texts often to make sure i'm okay.
she knows that taeyong has my back and won't let anything happen to me.
a song came on my randomized shuffle today.
our song.
how ironic.
it was heaven by troye sivan.
i cried.
do you see what you're doing to me?
i'm gonna kick your ass when you come back.
i'm kidding, my love.