3 am cathartic screams

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Everything is so weird right now. I don't feel right. Everything is too loud and too bright and too fast and too slow and my cheeks feel weird when I touch them. And I can't remember what I was thinking about 20 minutes ago which is weird for me I guess. And I find it strange that I can't see the grass and road passing by only a few feet away from properly but everything beyond that is fine. I know what's wrong, I've done this before, but I can't tell what set it off or where it's coming from, which is no surprise I guess. I don't know, I don't know, I don't know. Maybe I just need to sleep but I've already slept so much. I have no idea what's wrong with me, I mean I know, but where is it, what is it really? I can see all the parts that are fine but when go to look at the bad, it's blurred road. It isn't tangible but it's just something I'm experiencing. None of this makes sense, everything is so muddled and smushed together. I need help.