The Next Day...
Finn's POV:
"Finn! Get up! You have to leave for school in 10 minutes!" I hear my mom say
"I'm coming! Just 5 more minutes" I say back
"Nope. Get up." She says, and rips the blanket off of me
"Mom! It's freezing cold!" I scream
"Well now your up" she says, and leaves my room with my blanket
I groan and get up out of the bed. I go into my closet and pull out whatever shirt and pants I grab. I don't even care if it matches. As I'm getting my shirt on,my mom stops me and hands me a shirt that I guess matches. I smile at her and she smiles back. I get my shirt on, splash some water on my face, and put some shoes on.
"Love you Mom! See you after Glee!" I yell
"Love you too!" She screams back
I walk out the door and start walking to school. I brought water with me this time so that I don't pass out again and make my mom have a heart attack. Yeah, that wasn't fun. But the whole way there, the only thing, well, person I could think about, was Rachel. That she was still with that jerk. I told her I loved her for Pete's sake. And I had literally just broken up with Quinn. I don't want Rachel to just be a rebound girl. I wanna have a real relationship with her, and go out on dates because I really love her and I want to be with her. Not just because I'm lonely. I don't know if telling her I loved her was the right idea. I was halfway to school when I saw Rachel's dad's car speeding the opposite way of school with Rachel in the back. She looks back at me with what looks like tears in her eyes. I decided to just ignore it because they were probably late for a doctors appointment or something. Hopefully everything was ok. I walk into school, and am greeted by Quinn, again.
"Quinn, seriously, I've said it once and I'll say t again, I don't want to talk to you." I say
"It's not me. Puck needs to talk to you. He says it's urgent." She says, and walks away
Being the idiot I am, I text Puck
TEXT MESSAGES:
Finn: What do you want Puck?
Puck: Meet me in the choir room
Finn: Ok
I start walking towards the choir room and not two seconds later, Puck is running down the hallway with me behind him. We get to the choir room so quick I forget what I was in there for
"What do you want Puck?" I say
"I'm in some serious trouble dude" he says
"Knock someone up again?" I say, still bitter about what happened
"No, not this time. But I could go to juvie" he says to me
"Juvie!? Puck what the hell? What'd you do?"
"Let's just say that I could go to juvie and I need your help to keep me out of juvie" he says quickly
"Why should I help you?" I say
"Dude, this is the law we are talking about here. Not some bitchy fight. Can you help me out?" He pleads
"I'm gonna regret this." I sigh. "What do you need?" I say
"I need you to say you don't know where I am and that I haven't talked to you in 3 months" he says
"I'm not lying to police Puck"
"Your not going to. Your lying to my mom. She's the one sending me to juvie if she finds out" he says
"Dude, I don't have a good feeling about this" I say
"I ran away ok? A couple days ago. And she thinks I broke the law and I haven't but somehow she has a lot of evidence saying that I did so if she comes near you at any point, say you haven't spoken to me lately, ok?"
"Fine. Will do." I say, and go to walk out of the choir room
"Hey, we cool dude?" Puck says, and puts his hand out for me to shake it
"No" I say, and keep walking out of the room
That Morning..
Rachel's POV:
My alarm went off at the usual time, and I went to get up out of the bed, but for some odd reason, I didn't have it in me to get up like I usually do. It's like I just turned weak. I had no strength left in me. I wasn't even that far along, this shouldn't be happening yet. Whatever. I don't think too much of it and I go back to bed. I wake up 20 minutes later in excruciating pain in my stomach. Everywhere just hurt. I tried to get up, but I couldn't.
"Dad! Daddy! I need help!" I scream
I hear them running up the stairs
"Rachel! Rachel! Are you ok?" They say
"My stomach hurts really bad. I need help getting up." I say, trying to be calm
"Ok, here" my dad says, and puts my hands around his neck
I get up and I start to walk, with a lot of help from them. As I'm walking, I feel something trickle down my leg. I immediately start to panic, and I cry.
"Rachel, what's wrong?" My daddy asks
I look down, and my worst fear came true. There was blood trickling down my leg
"I'm bleeding." I say
"Bleeding? What do you mean by bleeding?" My dads say, with a panicked tone in their breathes
"I'm bleeding!" I scream
"Let's get you to the hospital" my dad says, and runs down the stairs to get his keys. My daddy picks me up and runs down the stairs with me in his arms. My dad runs outside and unlocks the car. My daddy puts me in the back, and hops in the passenger seat. My dad gets in the drivers seat, and starts driving. We pull out of the driveway, and I swear that with every turn he makes, the pain just increases more.
"It hurts!" I scream
"I know baby, we are almost at the hospital!" My daddy screams
As we pass my school, I can see Finn walking there. I turn around to see him staring at me. We connect eyes for a quick second, and then we turn another corner, and he's gone. I felt like he should know. I don't know why, I just felt responsible to tell him. Speaking of telling someone, I need to text Jessie!
TEXT MESSAGES:
Rachel🌟: Jessie, you need to meet me at the hospital. Now!
Jessie: What? Why? Is everything ok?
Rachel🌟: No Jessie, I'm bleeding
Jessie: I'll be right there
At least he still cares enough to meet me at the hospital. He cares about this baby though. Not me. I'm the girl who allegedly broke his heart because I liked another guy. At least I didn't take his virginity and then spread a rumor about him. I swear, if we don't get to this hospital soon, I swear I'm gonna lose it
"ARE WE THERE YET!?" I scream at the top of my lungs
"Rachel honey you gotta hold on ok? We are almost there!" My dad yells
As soon as he says that, we pull up to the hospital. My dad parks the car and runs into the hospital to get a wheelchair. My daddy picks me up and runs me into the hospital. My dads meet at the entrance and put me in the wheelchair. My dad wheels me in as my daddy talks to the nurse. I don't think he knows that I can hear him as clear as I can, but I listen in on every word
"Hi, I'm LeRoy Berry, I'm here with my husband Hiram and my daughter Rachel. I think my daughter is having a miscarriage." He says, and then it hits me. I start uncontrollably crying. It wasn't real until this moment. I might lose this baby.
At McKinley
Finn's POV:
Rachel still isn't here, and it's 5th period. The days almost over, and then it's glee. She rarely misses a practice. Now I'm starting to get worried.
"Excuse me, can I go to the bathroom?" I say to my teacher
"Yes Mr. Hudson, but be quick." She says, and rolls her eyes
I get up from my seat and walk towards the bathroom. It may be that I go to the bathroom everyday this period, but I just have to go. I get to the bathroom and take out my phone. I text the one person that I think would know what's wrong with Rachel
TEXT MESSAGES:
Finn: Where's Rachel? She hasn't been here all day
Jessie: Why would I tell you?
Finn: Just tell me. I'm not asking for much
Jessie: Something happened. She'll be fine. That's all you need to know
Finn: Tell me! Now!
Jessie: She's at the hospital. Happy now?
Finn: Why is she at the hospital!?
Jessie: None of your business
Finn: It is my business. Rachel's my best friend
Jessie: You don't need to know Finn! I'm on my way to her right now, and I'll be the one to be at her side. Now, have a good day at school.
I was so mad. How could he not just be a simple and civil person and tell me what happened? It's ridiculous. Who does that to a person? I need to get Mercedes. I go back to my class with 5 minutes to spare. The bell rings and I go to Mercedes' locker.
"We need to talk"
"About what, Finn? The set list for nationals? Your next plan to slushie us?" She says and laughs
"Rachel's in the hospital" I say
"What happened?" She says
"I don't know. Jessie won't tell me." I say, obviously angry
"Well, we are going to find out" she says, and takes my hand
"Where are we going?" I ask
"Where do you think? We are going to the hospital." She says, and walks right out of school
"Isn't this, like, skipping class?"
"I don't care about detention. My best friend comes first." She says
We start walking to the hospital. In 10 minutes, we get there. We walk in exhausted from walking, but we make it to the front desk
"Hi can you tell me what room Rachel Berry is in?" I say
"Rachel Berry is still in surgery but you can wait with her dads and that man over there until she's done" she says
"Thank you" I say, and go to sit in the waiting room with Mercedes
Jessie sees me, and automatically gets all defensive like he's gonna kill me
"I told you not to come here Hudson!" He screams
"I don't care what you say" I say proudly
"I can't believe you wouldn't tell me." Mercedes says
"I thought that Rachel would've told you. You should come. He shouldn't." He says
"Why shouldn't I? Scared she'll fall for me?" I say
"She already has! Don't you see! She loves you! She's obsessed!" He yells
"No she doesn't. Does she?" I say, and look at Mercedes
"Yeah Finn. She's had a thing for you since middle school." She says
"What? And no one had the decency to tell me?" I say, getting angry
"You were dating Quinn Finn! You were fawning over her every chance you got. You never even noticed Rachel" Mercedes to me
"Wow, thanks for making me feel better" I say sarcastically
"Rachel Berry?" The doctor says
"Thats our daughter. How is she?" Her dad says
"She's in recovery. I'm so sorry, but unfortunately we lost the baby. We couldn't save her. Rachel's cervix was weak and couldn't hold the pregnancy. Usually, it occurs in the second trimester, but it happened earlier. Nothing bad happened to the point that she can't have anymore children, she can. But, this baby didn't survive. I'm so sorry" he says
"Can we see her?" Mercedes says
"Of course. Follow me" he says, and we all follow
He lead us to a room that was at the end of a hallway. Through the window, we saw Rachel sleeping. She looked so peaceful. This would crush her.
"I can't do this. Tell Rachel I'm sorry. I gotta go" Jessie says, and starts walking away
"Are you serious? Just because she lost a baby your gonna leave her?" I say to him
"I can't deal with this" I says and keeps walking
"Your not the only one who lost someone! She was carrying that baby and your leaving?" I say
"Yes, I am." He says, and walks out of the hospital
I was so mad. I guess Mercedes saw my hands clenched in a fist because she put her hand on my arm
"Finn, it's not worth it. He's not worth it." She says
I nod and walk into Rachel's room. She looked peaceful, and our words were gonna destroy that. Our words were gonna kill her. I knew it. I knew Rachel. This would kill her. Doesn't matter who tells her. I hold her hand
"Everything's gonna be ok, Rach. Your gonna get through this" I say. As I finish that sentence, I see her eyes slowly open
"Finn? Mercedes? Dads? What happened? Why am I in.... a, hospital?" She says confused
"Rachel honey, you were in pain this morning so we took you here. They had to do surgery." Her dad says
"What about the baby? Is the baby ok?" She says frantically
"Rachel Honey, the baby, uh" he couldn't even finish the sentence
"She didn't make it Rachel. They did everything they could. But they couldn't save her. They said that your cervix was too weak to carry the pregnancy or something. You must've been under s lot of stress" I say
Tears fill her eyes. "I'm gonna need you to repeat that because I don't think I understood you correctly" she says
"You had a miscarriage Rachel. Your daughter died. I'm so sorry" I say
She starts to cry. "Where's Jessie? I texted him before I came here. I remember that part. Where is he?" She says, still crying
"He left. He said it was too much to handle and that he couldn't deal with it. Then he left." Mercedes says
"That jerk!" She says, and punches the bed "that jerk" she says once more "that-th--that jerk" she says and starts sobbing. She can't stop and I can tell. I felt so bad for her. There was nothing I could do but hug her, so that's what I did. She cries into my shoulder and Mercedes joins the hug. Soon enough, her dads are also hugging her. It was one big group hug, and I knew that wouldn't be enough for her. After a few minutes of hugging, Rachel finally speaks
"Please leave, everyone. I just wanna be alone." She says, wiping her tears
"Sure" I say. I hug her goodbye, and walk out of the room
"Love you girl. I'll be back later" Mercedes says, and hugs her best friend.
Mercedes walks up to me and we start walking back to school. We make it just in time for Glee Club, or so we thought. It turns out that Glee Club had already started. We walked in and everyone stared at us. Probably because we would definitely be the ones to know where Rachel and Jessie are.
"Nice of you guys to join us" Mr. Shue says, and points to the chairs
"Let's just go straight to the elephant in the room. Where's Rachel and Jessie?" Santana says
"Yeah. Where's my baby buddy?" Quinn says
Everyone looks at her
"What? We made the nicknames. Shut up just tell us where they are" she says
"Guys, Jessie went back to Carmel high" Mercedes says
"Well we knew he would do that" Puck says
"And Rachel?" Kurt says
I stand up and whisper to Mr. Shue
"Can I say something?"
"Of course" he says, and sits down
"Guys, Rachel's going through some really hard things today." I say
"Well yeah, so am I. We are both pregnant. That doesn't explain where she is" Quinn says
"She wasn't in school all day" Lauren adds
"Guys, if you'll let me and Mercedes explain! We'll tell you where Rachel's been" I say
Mercedes gets up and starts to speak with me
"As you all know, Rachel's about 2 months pregnant" She says
"Yeah, what does this have to do with anything?" Santana says
"Well, she used to be 2 months pregnant." I say
"What the hell are you talking about? What do you mean?" Quinn says, getting defensive
"Rachel had a miscarriage" Mercedes says. "This morning."
"She went to the hospital this morning because she had a sharp pain in her stomach, and then she started bleeding." I say
"She was brought into surgery, and then we were told she lost the baby" I hear someone say. It wasn't me or Puck. I turn around to see the one and only jerk, Jessie.
"Why are you here? Your the one that left Rachel when she needed you most. You don't deserve to be anywhere near her, or us" I say
"I just wanted to see if she's ok" he says
"Of course she's not ok! She just lost her baby, and she lost you in the process!" I scream at him
"Jesse, I don't think you should be here. I think you should go" Mr. Shue says
"Fine. I'll go. Just please tell Rachel I'm sorry" he says
"No. Now get out." I say
He leaves and I turn back to the glee club
"How is she?" Quinn asks
"How do you think she's doing Quinn?" I say with an attitude
"Ok ya know what, Finn, why don't you go get a drink of water in the hallway. No, Quinn. She's not doing too good. She's very upset and wants to be alone" Mercedes says
I walk out into the hallway and just collapse to my knees. I didn't a drink of water. I needed to be with Rachel.
"How ya doin?" I hear someone say
I turn to see Quinn
"I'm still mad at you" I say
"I know. And I'm so sorry. But you don't love me. You love Rachel." She says
"I know." I say
"Well then if you know, why don't you tell her?" She says
"I have. But she was with Jesse. Now, she just lost a baby,and that's definitely not the right time to tell her. I just don't think we're meant to be." I say
"Finn, seriously. I'm going to say this as nice as I can. Don't be stupid. You and Rachel obviously have a lot of feelings for each other. You should go for it." She says
"Quinn, I still have feelings for you" I say, sadly
"Finn, those will pass. You know what they say. If you fall in love with another girl, go for the second. Because if you really loved the first, you wouldn't have feelings for the second. Rachel's your second." She says
"What am I supposed to do?" I say
"You wait a little while until your both ready to be in a relationship. Then, you both see where that takes you. But it'll work out. Trust me." She says, and starts to walk away
"I hope you don't lose your baby Quinn. Just because you broke my heart and the baby isn't mine, doesn't mean I want you to lose it. Ok?" I say, turning around
"Ok. Thank you Finn" she says. She kisses my head, and walks back into the choir room
I finally get an idea. I walk back into Glee Club
"Guys, I have an idea. But I need your help." I say
The Next Day..
Rachel's POV:
I'm getting discharged from the hospital today. They didn't want to keep me any longer, and they didn't need to do any more tests, so they set me free. I had to fill out my baby's birth certificate, and her death certificate. When they asked me what her name was going to be, I had no answer, so I had to think by myself what her name should be. For some reason, the name Shelby came into my head. I liked it, a lot. So, I wrote that as her name. Shelby Marie Berry. It was an adorable name. I swear I know the name Shelby from somewhere, I just don't know what. Anyway, I filled out the certificates and they gave me copies of them. I held them close to my heart, and the put them in my bag folded. I was getting discharged before school, which I had to go to, so I could get there in time. I don't know how I'm supposed to feel. I feel angry. I feel, so upset that I just wanna lock myself up in my room forever. I feel weak. But, I also feel like I have to start moving on so soon. Because if I don't, I don't know if I ever will. My dads got my things, and helped me into the car, because I was still really sore from surgery. As we were driving into my schools parking lot, I swore I was having a panic attack. What are they gonna call me now? If they had names before, god knows the names they came up with while I was gone. In the hospital. Crying over my baby. I got out of the car, got my backpack, said goodbye to my dads, and I left to go inside of McKinley. I really didn't want to be here. I wanted to go. Just leave. Not say a word to anyone and just leave this town. But I can't. I have to face this one day, and that day is today. I open the door very slowly and walk in. As I suspected, everyone was staring at me. The jocks, the cheerleaders, some of the band nerds, and of course, Jacob Ben Israel. I tried to walk as fast as I could before questions, but I was too slow.
"Rachel Berry, is it true that you were at the hospital yesterday?" He says
I don't answer
"Rachel Berry, is it true that you had a miscarriage" he says
"No comment Jacob." I say, in my most serious tone
"Rachel Berry, is it true that the father of that child, Jesse St. James, left you at the hospital?" He says, and that's where I reached my boiling point.
"Shut up Jacob! You have no right to talk to me right now! You weren't involved in anything! Not one thing! I just had surgery and I would really appreciate it if you could get the hell away from me so that I can go throughout my day in piece!" I scream
I notice what I had just did, and when I look around, everyone is staring at me. I run to the choir room and sit on a chair. It was so humiliating. I was so alone. No one knew what I was going through. Not one of these people have lost a child before. They have no right to ask me all of these questions right now.
"Hey. You ok?" I hear someone say
I look up to see Quinn. With her perfect child. Her perfect everything. She hasn't lost her baby yet. She's so lucky. I hate her.
"Quinn, your the last person I wanna see right now" I say, and she looks at her baby bump
"Rachel, I know that you may resent me for still being pregnant with this child, but I wanna help you get through this time in your life. No one should have to go through this alone. Especially you. You've been very fragile lately and I know why" she says, and goes to sit down
"You sit down, I stand up and walk away. One of us will stay in here. I'm not sharing a room with a mommy. I used to be a mom. To a beautiful baby girl. And now, she's been taken from me." I say
"Fine. I'll go. I just wanted to tell you that I went to the doctors yesterday after Glee Club,and they told me the gender. It's a girl." She says, and walks out of the choir room
I just sit there and cry. This may seem like a loser thing to do, but I don't care. I just lost my child. But then I realized that I do need people. I need someone to help me. I need a lot of people to help me. And I know just the people I need to help me.
In Glee Club..
Rachel's POV:
I'm a few minutes late to Glee, because I've been hesitant to walk in there.
"You scared?" I hear someone say. I turn around to see Finn
"Yeah. A little." I say back
"Don't be. This is your family. We'll be here for you no matter what" he says to me
"Thanks. It means a lot."
"No problem. You wanna walk in together?" He asks me
"Yeah. I think that would be easier then walking in by myself and having everyone just stare at me" I say
"Ok, c'mon" he says, and puts his hand out
I take his hand and before you know it we are walking into Glee Club, holding hands. I think I was holding his hand so tightly I forgot that I was even holding it. I walked in and everyone stared at me, as I expected. I whispered thank you to Finn, and then he took a seat. I went up to Mr. Shue and asked him
"Can I have a minute?" I asked him
"Of course Rachel" he said back, and took a seat
"Ok, first off, the questions. I'm going to speak and then if you still have questions I will be happy to answer them. To the best of my ability, of course. Ok, so, um, for starters, no I'm not fine. I'm extremely upset. I cried myself to sleep yesterday and I woke up and still had tears in my eyes. I didn't get to see her. She wasn't really a developed fetus yet, so I couldn't see her. Um, they had me fill out her birth and death certificate this morning."I start to cry. "Um, and I named her Shelby Marie Berry. They said she would've grown up to be a beautiful baby girl, but I already knew that. I could tell. I guess it was the motherly instinct. And, I will miss her everyday for the rest of my life. Ok, now I'm ready to answer your questions" I say, sniffling and wiping my tears away
"Rachel, why are you in school today? Don't you need to be recovering from the surgery? From the C-section?" Quinn asks me
"The doctors said I was fine and that I just need to take it easy
"Ok I'll be the bitch and ask the question everyone wants to ask. Are you gonna get yourself knocked up again because if this? You wanna redeem Shelby?" Santana asks me
"No. I'm not. Shelby is one of a kind. It's going to be a long while before I have a child. I'm just not ready." I say
"Anything else?" I ask
"I don't think we have anymore questions Rachel. You can take a seat." Mr. Shue says
"Actually Mr. Shue, we were hoping that we could put on a little performance for Rachel." Finn says
"Of course. Let's go to the auditorium" he says, and they all get up
"C'mon, it'll be great." Finn says, and puts his hand out for me
I put my hand in his, and we walk together to the auditorium
When we get to the auditorium, Finn closes my eyes. I guess to cover up the performance. He sits me down in a chair next to Mr. Shue. I could tell because I felt his vest when I sat down.
"Keep your eyes closed" I hear Finn say
I hear footsteps run across the stage of the auditorium
"Open!" I hear Finn yell
I open my eyes and him and all of the New Directions are standing in certain spots of the auditorium with white shirts and black pants. The music starts and I couldn't help but cry
[Quinn]
You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side
You know I'll take your hand
[Finn]
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
[All]
No I won't give in
Keep holding on,
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
[Finn and Quinn]
There's nothing you can say
[All except for Quinn and Finn]
(Nothing you can say)
[Finn and Quinn]
Nothing you can do
[All except for Finn and Quinn]
(Nothing you can do)
[All]
There's no other way when it comes to the truth, so
Keep holding on
[Quinn]
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
[Finn]
So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late
This could all disappear.
Finn points to me to come up on stage and join them singing, so I do
[Rachel]
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side
I will fight and defend, I'll fight and defend ya ya
[All]
Keep holding on,
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
[Finn and Rachel]
There's nothing you can say
[All except for Finn and Rachel]
(Nothing you can say)
[Finn and Rachel]
Nothing you can do
[All except for Finn and Rachel]
(Nothing you can do)
[All]
There's no other way
When it comes to the truth so
Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
[Finn and Rachel]
Hear me when I say when I say I'll believe
Nothing gonna change nothings gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Ya ya ya ya, la la la la la
[All]
Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
[Finn and Rachel]
There's nothing you can say
[All except for Finn and Rachel]
(Nothing you can say)
[Finn and Rachel]
Nothing you can do
[All except for Finn and Rachel]
(Nothing you can do)
[Finn and Rachel]
There's no other way
When it comes to the truth so
Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
[All except for Finn and Rachel]
Ha ha ha ha ha
Ha ha ha ha ha
Ha ha ha ha ha
[Finn and Rachel]
Keep holding on
[All except for Finn and Rachel]
Ha ha ha ha ha
Ha ha ha ha ha
Ha ha ha ha ha
Keep holding on
[Finn and Rachel]
There's nothing you can say
(Nothing you can say)
[Finn and Rachel]
Nothing you can do
[All except for Finn and Rachel]
(Nothing you can do)
[All]
There's no other way
When it comes to the truth so
Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
I turn around and I feel tears forming in my eyes. Quinn was the first one to hug me. Then, Mercedes, Kurt, and Lauren. Then, Finn. Eventually, I was getting a hug from everybody. As we were clearing out of the auditorium, it was just me and Finn left.
"So, I'm guessing that was your idea huh?" I say, breaking the silence
"Yeah. I figured you'd need something to help you move on a little from what happened, and I though this would be good enough to get you started." He says to me
"Well it was beautiful." I say
"Thanks." He says, and we continue walking. All of a sudden, I feel a hand on my shoulder. It's Finn
"Rachel, I can't hide it anymore. And I can't pretend that they aren't there. I have insane feelings for you Rachel. They are consuming me. It's like I can never take my mind off of you." He says
"Finn, what are you trying to say here?" I ask confused and a little scared, because I have a little idea of what he's going to say
"I love you Rachel Berry" he says, and kisses me. I kiss him sick for a few seconds, because it was like magic. But I pull away.
"I'm sorry. I can't do this." I say, and run out of the auditorium