And finally, we are on the last tape. Did you all have fun hearing about what you did to me, to send me over the edge? Well, it's almost over.
Now I'll give the person on this tape a little credit because SHE actually knew about my problems and actually tried to help...welcome to your tape Jesy Nelson.
*2 weeks before Jade's death*
I walk into the school ready to tell Jade that I'm moving to the United States. I just need to find her before I lose my confidence to tell her.
Hey, Jade, where r u? I need to talk to you.
I pressed send and the message was delivered.
After a minute or so she replied with 'at my locker'
"Hey, Jade, I need to tell you something really important."
"Ok, shoot." She said back.
"Um ok well this is really hard to say, but I'm moving..." I paused for a moment to see her face drop. "...to California."
I tear rolled down her cheek. "B-but-"
"I know it will be hard, and we can keep in touch. You still have Pez though." I said trying to lighten the mood.
"Yeah, but she doesn't know me as you do. Yes, I tell her everything, but you know more about me. I-i just d-don't wa-want to lose y-yo-you." She said to me stuttering.
"Aw, it will be fine, love, I'll always be here in your heart."
"Well, when are you leaving?" Jade asked me while she was looking down.
"Uh, Friday."
"Wait, so we only have today, and tomorrow left together? Why didn't you tell me this sooner?" Now she was getting mad.
"I'm sorry, I just didn't know how to tell you."
"Yeah, ok, I got to go, I guess I'll see you later or something." She said before slamming her locker door in my face and running off.
"Jade wait!" I called after her, but she was already down the other hallway, and that was the last time I have seen or talked to her.
*back to present time*
I've been thinking about Jade lately. I've tried to FaceTime and text her, but she didn't answer or reply back. I'm really worried about her. I hope she's ok...
••••
Hey Jesy, it's Perrie Edwards, I have something to tell you. It's about Jade...
My phone went off on the couch, so being a normal person I checked it. It is from Perrie.
Oh, hey Perrie, what's up? What is it?
I sent her a message back right away because Jade was my friend for a while, and I wanted to know what was wrong.
Um Idk how to say this, but Jade committed suicide...
I could already feel the tears burning in my eyes.
But, no, this can't be happening. How? When?
This time it was Perrie who replied back fast.
A week after you left. She took some old pills and cut herself pretty deep, and bled to death.
I read the message but didn't reply. I didn't know how to.
Didn't you get tapes?
Well, now I'm confused. I have no idea what the heck she's talking about.
No! Wtf r u talking about?
I need answers. I impatiently held my phone until she replied back. I lost one of my friends, and I need answers.
Oh, well send Selena Gomez a message. She has them.
I didn't even reply back I went straight to Selena's contact. Like I said before I need answers.
Selena finally replied back to the message I sent her an hour ago, and she is sending me the tapes, so I should get them in a few days.
••••
I finally got the tapes and I eagerly opened the box not caring if I ripped the whole box or not.
I wanted to know what this is and I want to know now.
After I got it open I stared at it for a while before picking up one of the tapes examining it closely.
I opened the tape player and put it on the tape.
It's Jade's soft, sweet, innocent voice.
So I guess I must be on one of the tapes, but which one?
•••
I just got finished with tape eleven and I'm yet to be on one. I guess I'm either twelve or thirteen
It's already ten pm so I think I'm going to go to bed and listen to the other two once I get up in the morning.
••••
It's finally the morning and I rush over to the tapes not bothering to put on clothes and just stay in my pajamas, because who do I have to impress? Exactly no one.
I'm not tape twelve, so I have to be tape thirteen. Let's give it a listen, shall we?
I took a deep breath and pressed play.
And finally, we are on the last tape. Did you all have fun hearing about what you did to me, to send me over the edge? Well, it's almost over.
Now I'll give the person on this tape a little credit because SHE actually knew about my problems and actually tried to help...welcome to your tape Jesy Nelson. You helped me through a lot. So did Pez, but you did more so. Or I thought so until you left me.
It hurt, to see you move away. That's why I didn't answer your calls or texts because I knew if I heard your voice, I would never get over the fact that you left. But now that I'm thinking about it, ignoring your messages and calls didn't help...it actually made it worse. I was just heartbroken over everything that was going on in my life.
Anyways, you were in a "friend group" if that's what you want to call it with Perrie, Selena, and I. Selena was the first one to leave and went to go hang out with Leigh-Anne. And then you left the group right before you moved. It hurt seeing you move, you were possibly the best friend I've ever had. Perrie was the last one to stick by my side since the very end.
You helped me with all my problems, if it wasn't for our friendship group it's hard to tell where I would end up. But you weren't always the best listener like I would be talking to you about whatever and you would be staring at some guy. That hurt, knowing that you weren't paying attention. But I stuck around, because must of the time you helped me, and other times you didn't even give me the time of the day. It's like you were hearing me, but not hearing me at the same time. You helped me with my smaller problems, not my big problems. When I would talk about my bigger problems, it was like you were fading away. All in all, you were a pretty good friend, most of the time. I just wished our friendship could've last longer. I wonder what it would be like if you wouldn't have moved. Would we still be friends? I hope so. Would you still be listening to my problems and not get tired of me? Honestly, I don't even know how you put up with me all the time. Maybe that's my problem. Maybe I'm just clingy, and I push everyone away. But why did you move? I never knew and you never told me. I'll never know, I guess.
Thank you guys for listening to what you all did to me, I guess. I hope you all have figured out what you did. And Jesy, you can do whatever you want to do with the tapes. Bury them, burn them, throw them away, keep them, whatever. Bye.
I'm now sobbing, I miss her. I wish I would've never have moved. But I had to, I didn't tell anyone this, but when I was visiting some old friends that lived in California, we went to a bar, and I was drunk. Something happened between me and a guy named Tyler and now I'm a soon to be a mother. That's why I moved, and there is nothing I could do about it. Ugh, why does life have to be complicated? Maybe some music will work? I don't know probably not, but it's worth a shot. I put my phone on shuffle and Avril Levine's song 'Complicated' came on. Oh great!
*4:00 am*
It is now four AM and I still haven't fallen asleep. I just can't stop thinking about Jade. She didn't deserve this, this world didn't deserve her.
It's now six AM and I finally fell asleep, but she's still on my mind. And she will always be on my mind, no matter what.
A/N: and that's the end guys. I hope you liked it!!