내가 빠져버린 존재가
진정 너이긴 한 건지
너를 원하는 내 모습이
진짜 나인 건지
둘이 같이 손을 잡고 있는
이 순간에도
우릴 따뜻하게 감쌀
맘의 안도감 따윈 없지
타는듯한 뜨거움은
연기만을 남기고
연기는 또 힘없이 날아올라
붕 뜬 가슴을 삼키고
누르려 하면 할수록
목은 올가미에 감기고
끝이 안 보여도 발걸음은
네게로 향하지 또
날 덮은 너. 한 꺼풀 더.
널 알아갈수록 거세져 폭풍도
가끔 세상을 향해 외쳤던 허풍도.
목표가 너라면
그건 더이상 허풍이 아냐
근데 넌 잡을 수가 없어.
아무리 비워내도 널 담을 수가 없어.
내가 바라는 건 한 가지야
네가 환상이 아니었음.
아니 환상이라면
나 또한 마찬가지야.
독한 향수야 넌.
내 삶을 덮어버렸어..
네 향기가 날 움직여
잡힐 듯, 안 잡히는 널,
사랑하는 널, 가져버렸어
이제 와서 멈추는 건
불가능하지.
너와 다시 멀어지는
이 순간은 마치
상상할 수 있는
무엇보다 더 잔인하지
언젠간 들어야 할
작별의 잔은 아직
들 수가 없어.
난 아직 울 수가 없어.
우리 둘의 퍼즐을 아직
완성한 적이 없어서.
차라리 내가 괴물이 돼 모든 걸
집어삼킬 수만 있다면.
제발 그럴 수만 있다면
잡히지 않는 너.
아니 어쩌면 벌써 널 가졌지
난 널 분명히
보고 느끼고 또 만졌지
내게 스며든 너로 인해
난 발끝부터 머리까지 잠겼지
사실 힘들어 이젠 숨쉬기조차.
근데 네가 없으면 못 해
그 힘든 것조차
이게 꿈이든 현실이든
더이상 상관없어.
어디든 너와 함께.
다 필요 없어 너밖에.
독한 향수야 넌.
내 삶을 덮어버렸어..
네 향기가 날 움직여
잡힐 듯, 안 잡히는 널,
사랑하는 널, 가져버렸어
상상이 널 만들고
널 보면 또 상상해
끝을 알 수 없는 이 길엔..
같은 꿈을 꾸는데,
왜 함께할 순 없는지..
언제쯤 같을 수 있을까..
짙은 와인처럼
더 붉게 물들어가도,
결국엔 첫 page로..
마셔도 취하질 않아,
사랑하는 널, 삼켜버렸어
naega ppajyeobeorin jonjaega
jinjeong neoigin han geonji
neoreul wonhaneun nae moseubi
jinjja nain geonji
duri gati soneul japgo issneun
i sunganedo
uril ttatteushage gamssal
mamui andogam ttawin eopsji
taneundeushan tteugeoumeun
yeongimaneul namgigo
yeongineun tto himeopsi naraolla
bung tteun gaseumeul samkigo
nureuryeo hamyeon halsurok
mogeun olgamie gamgigo
kkeuti an boyeodo balgeoreumeun
negero hyanghaji tto
nal deopeun neo. han kkeopul deo.
neol aragalsurok geosejyeo pokpungdo
gakkeum sesangeul hyanghae oechyeossdeon heopungdo.
mokpyoga neoramyeon
geugeon deoisang heopungi anya
geunde neon jabeul suga eopseo.
amuri biwonaedo neol dameul suga eopseo.
naega baraneun geon han gajiya
nega hwansangi anieosseum.
ani hwansangiramyeon
na ttohan machangajiya.
dokhan hyangsuya neon.
nae salmeul deopeobeoryeosseo..
ne hyanggiga nal umjigyeo
japhil deut, an japhineun neol,
saranghaneun neol, gajyeobeoryeosseo
ije waseo meomchuneun geon
bulganeunghaji.
neowa dasi meoreojineun
i sunganeun machi
sangsanghal su issneun
mueosboda deo janinhaji
eonjengan deureoya hal
jakbyeorui janeun ajik
deul suga eopseo.
nan ajik ul suga eopseo.
uri durui peojeureul ajik
wanseonghan jeogi eopseoseo.
charari naega goemuri dwae modeun geol
jibeosamkil suman issdamyeon.
jebal geureol suman issdamyeon
japhiji anhneun neo.
ani eojjeomyeon beolsseo neol gajyeossji
nan neol bunmyeonghi
bogo neukkigo tto manjyeossji
naege seumyeodeun neoro inhae
nan balkkeutbuteo meorikkaji jamgyeossji
sasil himdeureo ijen sumswigijocha.
geunde nega eopseumyeon mot hae
geu himdeun geosjocha
ige kkumideun hyeonsirideun
deoisang sanggwaneopseo.
eodideun neowa hamkke.
da piryo eopseo neobakke.
dokhan hyangsuya neon.
nae salmeul deopeobeoryeosseo..
ne hyanggiga nal umjigyeo
japhil deut, an japhineun neol,
saranghaneun neol, gajyeobeoryeosseo
sangsangi neol mandeulgo
neol bomyeon tto sangsanghae
kkeuteul al su eopsneun i giren..
gateun kkumeul kkuneunde,
wae hamkkehal sun eopsneunji..
eonjejjeum gateul su isseulkka..
jiteun waincheoreom
deo bulkge muldeureogado,
gyeolgugen cheot pagero..
masyeodo chwihajil anha,
saranghaneun neol, samkyeobeoryeosseo
The person who I fell for
Is it really you?
Me wanting you
Is that really me?
Even in this moment
When we are holding hands
There's no feeling of assurance
To warmly wrap around us
The burning warmth only leaves behind smoke
And the smoke rises without strength
I try swallowing my excitement
But the more I try to push it down
A trap wraps around my neck
I can't see the end
But my feet go towards you again
You covered me, one more layer
The more I get to know you, the stronger the storm gets
Even the empty boasts that I yelled out
If the goal is you
It's not an empty boast anymore
But I can't catch you
No matter how much I empty out, I can't fill myself with you
There's only one thing I want
That you're not a fantasy
No, even if you are a fantasy
It'll still be the same for me
You're a strong perfume
You covered up my life
Your scent moves me
You're so close yet so far
I love you and I will have you
It's impossible to stop now
Even this moment when I'm getting far from you again
It's crueller than anything I can imagine
I need to raise the glass of goodbye some day
But I can't raise it yet
I can't cry yet
Because our puzzle hasn't been completed yet
If only I could be a monster
And swallow up everything
Please, if only I could
I can't catch you
No, maybe I already have you
I clearly saw you, felt you, touched you
Through you, who came into me
I'm locked up from head to toe
Actually, it's hard even to breathe
But I can't go on without you
Even those struggles
Whether it's a dream or reality
I don't care anymore
Wherever I go, I'm with you
I don't need anything else but you
You're a strong perfume
You covered up my life
Your scent moves me
You're so close yet so far
I love you and I will have you
My imagination creates you
And when I see you, I imagine again
On this path with no end
We're dreaming the same dream
But why can't we be together?
When can it be the same?
Like thick wine
Even if it gets deeper red
In the end, it's back to the first page
I drink but I'm not getting drunk
I love you, I have swallowed you