Dear Verena,
Olympia doesn't need you. No one really needs you. She wants you though. Her thoughts move slow. I saw a spark. A small twitch of life. When you were around everything started to become right.
She is going to wake up soon if the anchor doesn't drag her down more. Do not dive in. You cannot do anything like that. For she will live, and you will fall to the sleep. You really need to stop trying it's quite blatantly unimportant. I began saying I saw the spark, but it's possible the twitch of life was from another. I'm sorry, I don't mean to tell the truth so abruptly.
What I do know of is that you are such a wonderful person for trying to handle this matter on your own hands. It's so beautiful how you handle this. My dear, I'm sorry to tell you after all of this is through you are not welcome home. You will never be the same. Travel the land though, find the beauty, live for it. For it is only a matter of time till we depart for good.
Stay strong,
Gershom