Sorry for the wait.... 💔
Louis could lie and say he slept well but realistically he didn't. He held his boy to his chest so tightly, as if he were afraid he would disappear. His mind swamped with thoughts of Harry and replaying yesterday's events, it was safe to say he was exhausted.
Still he decides to slowly get out of bed, being mindful of his little boy. Taking a glance towards the clock he sees its half 7 and decided a quick shower before making his way down stairs.
He makes him self a cup of tea before taking a seat to think about how he could sort out this mess. He doesn't get long however because he soon hears knocking on his door.
He sighs, not in the mood for company, heading towards the door. Opening the door, slowly bringing his eyes up and he is shocked to find Harry stood on the other side looking as exhausted and emotionally drained as he, himself did.
He stutters before just moving out of the way to allow Harry into his house.
Harry quietly moves into the lavish house and takes a seat at the breakfast table where he could see Louis' tea.
'Ha-Harry do you want a drink?' Louis asks feeling nervous
'No, not particularly' Louis frowns taking a seat before Harry speaks again, 'I think we should really discuss everything. I think it's important to remain calm and set the record straight'
Louis is stunned, this Harry is so much more mature than the Harry he ran and hid from. He actually wants to discuss things normally and calmly. He felt shocked that Harry had matured so much but then he is reminded of just how many years have passed.
'I er okay. Where did you want to begin?' Louis says as calmly as he possibly could.
'Well I think I've already given an explanation. Maybe you should explain why exactly you kept my children hidden from me for all their life' his voice holds a lot of anger , which Louis expected and definitely understood. As he looks to Harry's eyes, he can see the hatred in them.
'I... Okay. That day I was so happy, I remember thinking how in love with you I was and how I couldn't wait to tell you. But then I saw the texts... The texts that are engraved in my memory.' Louis watches how Harry's eyes flicker with emotion.
'You know... When I read and assumed you had cheated on me it tore my heart in half but I wanted to ask for your explanation. I didn't want to assume. I didn't want to believe that you.. The man I loved with my whole body would hurt me in such a way. However it was the next text and truth that ripped my heart from my chest. It's a pain I've not forgotten'
Louis watches as Harry's eyes soften as his eyes fill with more pain than were already filling his eyes. Louis takes a big breath knowing he has to continue. Has to get his view across, so that he could understand to at least some extent.
'So honestly Harry... I hated you. I hated you because you hurt me when you'd known I had given you my heart. I blamed you for every little pain I felt, I never wanted to see you again because you had completely and utterly destroyed me. More so than ever. I hated to hear your name and to see you on the news, I hated the sound of your voice on the radio because it hurt. It hurt so much my body burned. I blamed you... I put all my guilt onto you.'
Taking a deep breath as Louis thinks of what else he would say, he spots the tears overwhelming Harry's eyes, alongside the pain and guilt he is filling.
'I never felt you deserved to know of our children because they were mine. My babies. I didn't want to allow you to hurt them, to even give you the chance. I was blind... I knew that when they turned one and you wasn't there. I knew I had made a mistake but it was something I didn't know how to fix. It still hurt, my heart still ripped from my chest and looking at them made my body burn. I couldn't live without them and that was another fear.. That you would take them when I told you'
Louis watches the disbelief enter Harry's eyes as he begins to allow the tears in his eyes to fall down his face slowly.
'I am so truly sorry for keeping this from you... I just... I let the pain you caused me consume me and I erm I blamed you for me nearly losing them when that wasn't your doing ... Not really'
Louis take a deep breath as he finally has no idea what else to say as Harry watches Louis with such a heartbroken expression. It's silent for a few moments before Harry straightens and looks up with a confused look.
'What do you mean you almost lost them?'
Louis gasps at realisation 'oh erm. It doesn't matter'
'Tell me' Harry almost growls at me with a look of determination.
'I that day I left when I found out about what had happened with you..: I was hysterically crying.. I did something stupid and got in my car. I was driving and on the phone to Liam... I couldn't breathe or really see. I should have pulled over and walked but I couldn't. It was like I couldn't control my body or mind. I crashed.. A long piece of glass pierced my stomach. I was lucky... They were fine although complications. It is the reason Ren doesn't talk much.. His vocal cords had damage to them during birth never developing fully. He has to have an op, we just have to wait until he's a bit older.'
Louis pauses watching Harry before he finish off 'I blamed you for that because if you hadn't hurt me the way you did I would have never been crying and in that car. We would have found out I was pregnant together.-' I'm quick to grab his hands and make him look at me-' but it was never your fault. It was my own. I shouldn't have gotten in that car. I should have listened when Liam told me to pull over. I should have told you I was pregnant. I am so sorry Harry... So sorry. Please forgive me and be a father to my - no our children. I may not deserve you in my life but the children deserve to know how amazing their father is'
Harry cries openly and Louis is quick to literally climb into his lap and hold him as he holds onto louis just as tightly while Louis to cry's. They were both at fault... They had both messed up and made a mistake. They had to if they wanted to move on forgive each other. Louis knew seeing harry like this he had already forgiven him. Harry just had to earn Louis' trust. The question was would Harry forgive Louis for what he had robbed him of.
They must have sat there for a while in silence while sobbing their hurts out. Both had hurt the other and they were both now trying to forgive and move on.
There's movement from behind them and they are both quick to jump up and move away from each other to see whom the intruder was.
Louis smiles a wet smile as he sees his little boy walking towards them with furrowed eyebrows as his eyes look over Louis and Harry.
Louis looks at Harry to see him watching their little boy in awe and wonder. Louis' heart breaks even more at the thought of how much this had hurt Harry.
Lorenzo breaks the silence by asking 'mummy this person yous hurt?'
Louis smiles as Harry's head snaps towards him 'yes baby, this is the person I hurt'
Lorenzo walks closer looking at Harry, he tugs Harry's arms causing him to kneel down into the floor.
'My mummy hurts you' he says with a factual tone.
'I we hurt each other, little man. '
Ren stares for a while in consideration and thought before looking to his mummy 'Yous say sorry?'
'Well baby I explained what happened. He knows I am very sorry. I didn't mean to hurt him'
Louis looks on in pride as his son. No their son then turns to Harry and states 'mummy sorry mister. He no mean to hurt you, feels real bad. Crying all night'
Harry to looks stunned at the statement and his little boy. He cannot control the sob that breaks through his mouth. He had missed the joy of his children's lives.
Ren looks panicked as he sees the man crying and he quickly cuddles into the man. 'It okay to cry. Cry and then feel better. It okay mister. Mhmm say sorry. Forgive and make up. It okay'
Louis slowly leans down holding Harry and his son as he lets tears fall. He repeats his sons words
'It's okay'