The chilly air was twirling and blowing my hair around as it was just a piece of paper swaying from a breeze. My pale white skin was icy cold from the cool night air. I sat there is silence just staring up at the midnight black sky with silver star that looked like fairy dust. I had disappeared from my room hours ago and still no one has noticed my absence.
I'm sitting on top of my roof, completely lost in thoughts. Thoughts that are drowning me, dragging me down and suffocating me. Life has been much harder to deal with when I started finding out the truth about my father. I cut myself off from him not wanting to be apart of something so terrible and horrific.
My father isn't a nice person, he's a very angry and abusive person. He doesn't understand the concept of mental illness and just told me to grow up. I cut him off because I didn't need the negativity. I do dearly miss him......
I take out my phone to see it's one am. I climb down the roof and stumble into the house with great difficulty. I find my way to my room and fall on my bed. My room is the one place I can let out all my emotions without being judged and put down.
I plug my phone in and press play on my speaker. I sat there just staring off into nothing as the speaker quietly hummed me $uicideboy$ new song. My eyes become heavy and I slowly drift off into a deep sleep, surrounded by darkness.
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I wake up to my brother Adam shaking me violently. I'm covered in sweat and I can hear my thumping heartbeat ringing in my ears. My breath is all shaking. "Loui it was just a dream, it's okay I'm here" my brother whispers into my ear as he holds my trembling body to his chest.
He always smelt like lavender which always helps me to calm down. You see Adam isn't my blood brother but for years he's been my rock. The guys that's held me up when I'm down. He took me in when I had nothing and looked after me and protected me. I owed my life to him.
I check the time, to see it's only 5 am. I've been asleep for only four hours. Adam must have seen the distress displayed on my face. And lays down next to me, treasuring my face with his thumb as I slowly drift back to sleep. "I love you loui" was the last thing I heard before I drifted off into a motionless sleep.
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I woke up and checked the time, 10 am. I feel good today. I feel positive and energetic. I feel alive. I haven't woke up in this mood in a long time I almost forgot how it feels to be truly happy. Everything looked brighter and more alive. I walk out to the kitchen to be smacked with the intoxication sweet smell of pancakes and syrup. Adam is standing my the stove with only underwear on and his yet black hair all messy.
He was a creation from god. Well built, like she's someone's dream guy. "Good morning!" He sang as loud as he could, his voice ringing through my ears. He had a smile plastered on his face. You could see the happiness beaming from his eyes. Seeing him so happy warmed my heart. "Good morning A"
He pulled me in for a big bear hug, cutting off my breath half way through. "I made you some pancakes" he beamed. We sat at the table and ate in silence.
After breakfast I decide to take a shower. The water felt nice slashing against my icy cold skin. Giving off a little burning sensation for how cold my skin is. The water calming and relaxing.
I get out the shower changing into a black skirt, grey knee high socks and an oversize ty dye shirt. And applying some makeup. I look in my reflection seeing a happy face for once. Knock knock. "Loui come on we are going to be late"
Adam knocked on my door pulling me out of my dark intense thoughts. I had totally forgotten about school. Errrrr school. I forgot how dreadful that place is.
I get out the shower and walk down stairs to see the rest of the house awake and going about their morning. Adams brother Sam was on the couch typing away at his phone, my mother over in the corner feeding Sam's kid bells.
"WE HAVE TO GO!" Adam yells from the front yard. Me and Sam running in the direction of the car.
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Hello, thank you for reading the first chapter of my story. I hope you enjoy, please like and add to your reading list. 💕
Edit: at the top is a photo of loui when she's upset :)