Hmm..okay..before u start I have something to say u all..okay I'm taking Ur little time..but I want u to all read this..maybe u feel stupid..but I wanna say it's really moto of mine to write this story..which have special place in my heart..
yes, i wanted write as it is my passion..but i wanted writing something meaningful, which is damn necessary in this current world..i want to relate it and write this..i know its fiction..but i wanted give a message from this..that's the motto of my story..
Okay let's ask some question to u..I want genuine answer from people who read this story..
Did u hated Manik in very first part??
I want an honest answer..I have read most of the answers, in comment of part 1 or part 18..which clearly said to me..some where they hated Manik..or say cruel or ruthless.. Am I wrong??
Okay, i tell u really reason why I wrote this story..or to say, villan side pov of Manik..in very first chapters..hmm kinda readers might thought, why she wanted make him nice infront of u..okay..I got many comments over it too..
And the answer I wanted to show, a villan, who is masked in front of whole world..I wanted to write this story to say never ever..I repeat never ever judge a person by one instance..u don't know his story for his behavior..u don't know him..u have never been in their place to feel that emotions..u never know what they are going through from inside..
I see a world..where people tend to be too sweet, but who knows that sweetness in just a poison u consumed thinking it as nectar ..or u see a person, who is just hard, Hulk and easily gets black marked..who always shouts at u..but ever u thought why he shouted..never right?? we often weigh person in wrong way.. that's the very reason..I wrote this story..which is dear to me..and only person who could portrait that character could only be Manik, as u saw in kyy2 show... that's the very person character, whom I fell in love with..a coconut type of person..who had hard shell but equally had soft and tender heart..that pulled me or attracted me towards him..I love The Manik Malhotra, very much..dreamy sigh..
And very second important Motto was to show real emotions..I so far don't know..whether I gave justice to real pov of a person or not..but I tried my best to give real feel of emotions..yeah, that's the other reason..where in current generation people are forgetting about emotions and feelings or faking emotions is today's trend..uff so much complications ..that's what I wanted convey here..a real wala emotions, which makes a tour to Ur childhood..makes u feel a person pain, happiness, sadness, hatred..I wanted u feel to it..I hope I did my job good enough..now don't complain me that I wasted many people's tissues..I seriously have an issue over it..that I'm responsible for empty boxes of tissues..I take that..because I myself use them, while writing parts..
hmm..seems like I have changed for better from past year..I guess so..about myself..I never knew writing gives me something, which could change my thinking attitude..yes, not in greater extent but yes..a little bit of change what I can see myself..where i see a world in different way than others..which i never did in my entire life..
And thanks for reading out Ur writer's pov...here wanna say again..please don't bash me..because I'm highly suggesting u people to grab boxes of tissues to stop Ur running nose with Ur tears..strictly warning u people..it's real high voltage drama where u all gonna cry for very sure..so, let's get started with very own Manik Malhotra's pov..from his flashback..and how long it goes..God only knows it..
So, here is a shout out for one of the writer..do have look honey's..
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Abhay's pov
Uncle chaliye..i sat in car, to leave for Lonavala..and car zoomed out from Malhotra Mansion..i looked back..from this second, this home gonna lose its charm..sorry to this Mansion..i rubbed my tears..i sighed heavily..i hope everything will be fine..i hope..all i could do now..
Avni..can u believe..oh! god..i could never..she was playing such innocent games..i never expected such a blast from her..never in my dreams also..but damn i forgot she is truly her Papa's Princess..who can do anything and everything for him..he truly deserves her..yes..but me..i did totally opposite what Avni did..uff i still repent for my words i said to him..but he never complained to me..nor he left my hand when i needed him..he being there as first person to solve any issue i had..maybe it in school..or in personal..i could ever thank him, i was just mere Fan to him..but he did it..even loved one's leave our hand but he never left my hand..jo log Manik Malhotra ki zindagi mai hai..he will do everything and anything to make them happy..even if it takes him away also..it never matters him..it never..that is what i had seen and experienced in my life..he is more than father to me..he is IDEAL, whom i wish to be one day..but i know, i can never be..he is single specimen created by my Mamma's Aiyyappa..
I pulled out The Manik Malhotra's diary from my bag..if someone reads this diary they can feel the real Manik in him..a person..who is inside a shell..whom u never seen in real..i felt him..and i'm really proud to say..i'm his son..when i say, i mean it..
The cover of diary says it all about him..i smiled sadly..as i flipped pages..there were pics of his childhood..mainly his(child manik) and dadi's pic(neyo)..it was in front page..she was lovingly kissing his cheeks..where he had real smile..it had tag line below it..
MY FIRST LOVE..MY MAMMA BEAR..
I flipped next page..it also had dadi's and his pic..
I smiled seeing them..as i flipped pages..his diary filled with best pics, i tell u..i love seeing them..they look so cute..
Next page consists of dad's and Mukthi's pics..infact they were ideal brother and sister..but not any more..and will not be ever..
when i read this for the first, i laughed at his words..he had done painting..it was really beautiful..at first glimpse of this pics, i got to know, what his sister to him in his life..but tag line said more about his feelings..
MY FIRST DAUGHTER..MY LITTLE WORLD..MY LOVELY SISTER..
That was his feeling for her..but she never deserved it..never..daughter never makes her dad's life miserable..they won't snatch the happiness, which rarely touches ur lips..they never make u stoop so low in someone's life..they never..she never deserves anything..never..
My feelings for her is pure HATRED..i really hate this women..i really..she made our lives ups and down..and i won't forgive her..i won't..karma is behind her..just wait and watch its just behind u, i so want to say her this, never mind..All the best MUKTHI THAKUR..u badly need that girl..mera dad life karab kiya, bina invitation ki..now karma is at her door steps..its knocking bina invitation ki..waiting for her to open door..GAME OVER BITCH..was my all words for her..i smiled evilly..
I slide my phone..most expected thing happened..if anyone can be so evil at this moment, it must be me.. i guess..it was text from Nani, Mrudula and Avni..that Mrs. Thakur is not present..pretty lady wants to save her relationships..does she think so..she will hid..no one will come to know about her evilness..wrong lady..muj ethna girao math..that i became more evil..never mind..i'm already..u know being Malhotra..u have them flawlessly...
i sent an important message to Mrs. Thakur..i know how to bring people in my way.. I chuckled..now u need come..u will come..i laughed evilly..its some much fun, u crying..but i missed it..poor me..but i'm so happy..u will be there, u need be..one last time to cheers for Mrs. Mukthi Thakur..i'm sorry bua...u opened the door and welcomed ur own karma..
(Writer's pov- Well this suits best for Abhay Malhotra)
I flipped pages..
i laughed seeing this pic..god cabir chachu can't be this serious man..he is all time foodie..for his whole life..where my mind mocked me..look who is talking..okay! i accept it..i'm foodie..happy..but the thing is, i'm proud to be called foodie..hehhe..
MY MIRROR..MY BUDDY..MY BROTHER..MY BFF CABIRAAAA
MY MUSIC..MY SOUL..MY TRUE FRIEND, WHO NEVER LEFT ME..AND ME IN REAL..
I flipped pages as i found toddler hand writing..from here starts his diary..his feelings..the real MANIK..
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(from here it is Manik's pov and flashbacks with his pov only)
Hello diary,
this is Manik..ur new friend..okay..okay..i'm new to writing don't blame me..i'm 5 year old..right now waiting for my parents..u know today is my birthday..just few more minutes..my birthday will be over..but non wished me, as no one is at home from morning..i'm waiting and waiting still no one came..i looked time again..just three minutes left..tears made way..as i walked to telephone..to call mamma..atleast she will wish me once..i dialed her no. call was going but she didn't received my calls..with sad face..i looked my dadi..she just walked out..no one loves me in this house..no one..am i so bad..that's why no one talks to me also..i took my diary walked to last room of mansion, usually no one comes there..
baby bear..i heard excitement from behind..i turned back..she came running to me..with tears in her eyes..she had muffins in her hand..one among was lite by candle..i looked her..
blow the candle and make wish..she said sweetly..i so know..no one knows she being her..and doing this things..my mom and dad roam around world with Mukthi..i stay alone in home..and thanks to my dad, who covers up..saying that my education will get disturbed..what a lie..but my mom, believes him so much..and his words..i really pity this women..
i blew the candle with a smile..as she wished me birthday, i never made wish because my wishes never come true..when wishes don't come true why will u wish..that's how my birthday's are celebrated from years..no one wishes me except her..for others i don't exist..i don't..she made me eat muffins and i did same to her..she is my best thing in my life..my mamma..she don't stay with me..but make sure..that i'm fine..i'm happy that i have her in my life..i'm really..
Manik, bag ready haina baby? she asked me..as tears eloped from her eyes..where i could just bob my head with head down..
muje nae jana Mamma..please don't send me..i will became alone again..please..it was first time..i was crying in front of her..i never do such things..but i really didn't wanted to go to Dehardun..but dad..idiot..he had thrashed me with hunter, till i say yes to go..he don't want to see me in front of him..as he says..i'm unlucky..i took away everything of his..it seems..only god knows..what i took from him..but he is the one, who is pulling away people, who are around me..he is making me alone..like he wishes..
Manii..ur grades are very low..u need go manik..i looked her with wide eyes..did she just said..i have low grades..i'm topper of my class..i was about say that to her..and devil is back..i flinched in fear..oh! god he will hit me now..shall i say mom..
Arey Manik..what are u doing till now? didn't i said u need to be in ur room? he said glaring me, which was definitely unnoticed by mom..i wanted her to see this..but man, he knows how to cover up his evilness in front of her..where she was tears as i was leaving Mansion, for how long i don't know..
voo..voh..i was going..good night..i ran from there..to my room, locked from inside..i was breathing heavily..i know he won't leave..as i can't roam around mansion..i should be in room only and mainly i should never talk to anyone..if found..i will not be in single piece..
my room door was opened ..sweat beads started forming seeing hunter in his hand..i gulped..oh! no..somebody help me..please..i started moving back..
Looks like birthday party was going high..he said in cunning way, a pure hatred was printed in his eyes just for me..i wanted someone to take this man away from me..far away..
didn't i said? u to stay away from Neyo..didn't i? he raised his voice..he started hitting me with hunter..my voice will never go out of this room..because my room is sound proof..i was yelling in pain..but he don't have mercy on me..he will never have..i'm not stronger than him..i'm weak..too weak against that hunter..it sends shiver under my spine..he hit me until he go weak..he lost his energy..where i wiped silently..holding my arms which turned deep red..with bruise everywhere..
Manik..hear me out, ur birth is not a celebration..ur birth is just for tears..i make sure u will wipe till ur death..for each lose of mine..he hit my stomach from his heavy boots..i yelled holding my stomach..he walked out..locked my room..i ran before he does what i fear most..i started banging as he did what he always does..entire room was pitch dark again...he switched off lights..when he knew i fear in dark..
please dad..open the door..please...bastard open the damn door..i started breathing heavily..i banged the door with my left out energy..my arm was bleeding, but i didn't cared much..as i was feeling suffocated in darkness...
please somebody switch on the lights..i can't breath..please..i yelled..but who hears my cries..no one..no one is there for me..no one..i hit the door..and i was losing it..my breath was abnormal..I'm sooner going to get panic attack..which I fear the most..
Mamma open the door..please..all i remember is this..as everything went blur..i blacked out in seconds..nothing was new to me..but fear inside me started growing more..non could see that..
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I turned once back to see my mom, who was only person cried for me till date..i smiled at her..kissed her cheeks..bid a bye to her..bid bye to Mumbai..
my journey started to Dehardun..a city, which is unknown to me..with unknown people around..but never the less, i was away from devil..i was at peace from all tortures, that i was bearing from years..but somewhere i missed my mom..nevertheless i was happy, where ever i'm..whole town was twinkling with lights..why not today was Diwali, i suppose..my classmates went to their home town..where i was sitting alone in my home..
Best part of my home, it was surrounded by green everywhere..like I wished my home to be..my home was away from city..well, that's what i liked about it..because i don't want to attach any strings with anyone..i fear to lose people, whom i love because i know my dad will make sure people i love should stay away from me..u can guess his capacity..
i was sitting on stairs..looking at stars..they are only friends..with whom i can share anything and everything..i don't have friends..no one talks to me..i don't know why? i tried to talk to them..but no one were interested to talk to me..rather all were scared of me..as if i will do something to them..i stayed away from people..my world was just this house..my books..my stars..that's it..twice in a month mom calls without anyone's knowledge..this all my memory..from one year..
Manik Malhotra..i heard someone saying my name..i looked a person walking to me, who was he i don't know..but wait, i have seen this man around me most of the times..he walked to me with smile..which i found really rare..no one smiles at me..i was blank..
Yes..i said..he stood in front of me..he smiled at me brightly..i felt good, really..he rubbed my cheeks gently..i saw tears in corner of his eyes..
I'm Rahul kirloskar ..he introduced himself to me..i don't know why,i invited him inside..he followed me..i never did..but something in his eyes made me call him inside..his eyes were roaming around ..not so tidy home, i'm still not capable to take care of things around me..i'm learning..he still had mist in his eyes..i gave him glass of water..
U stay here alone Manik? he asked me, with choking voice..i sat of coffee table and he in front of me on bean bag..he had huge gift pack in his hand..
Ya..i stay alone here..i replied him..he gulped..
ek aur glass pani melega kya? he asked me..i nodded and poured some more water to him..
how do manage all things alone here? i mean food and all? he asked me..
caretaker supplies food for me..i replied him..
and rest of things? why he so interested about my life..was my question..
i do rest of work..i said him..he held my hands..he started checking them..there were many bruises..it was not new to me..tears started following from his eyes..i never seen someone crying for me except my mom..but why was he crying for me..who was he?
i'm sorry..that's all he said..he wiped his tears..gave a force full smile to me..i smiled at him..if someone smile at me, it is really a big thing to me..
i have something for u..kisne tumare liye beja hai..bohuth pyaar se..he said as he passed big gift pack..my eyes twinkled in joy..gifts are something, i love..he was finally happy seeing my excitement..
this for me? i asked as i jumped in joy, he bobbed..it was first ever gift i received till date..it will be damn precious..i will keep them safe..i will..
open it once i leave from here..he thrust one visiting card in my hand..
if u need anything baby..i mean anything..i'm just call away.. at ur service..he said to me..and walked to door..and turned back..
Hope u got the best gift for life..from ur well wisher..he said i bid him bye..
will u come back again? i asked him, i had expectation from him..
sorry..i can't come here again..a disappointment covered my heart again..yet i smiled at him..i can't expect a mere stranger to come and meet me again..when i couldn't ask for my own mom..do u think i can ask for others..hell no..why will he? what i'm to him? nothing..
Bye take care uncle..i saw him fading away in dark streets..i opened my fist saw visiting card again..he was an India's famous advocate but it also had Desmukh Industries telephone no...which i never heard in my life..i locked door..ate some remaining food..which caretaker had sent me..washed dishes..kept them safely..i tried to clean living room..note tried..nonetheless never happening with me..damn..
I started removing purple gift wrapper carefully..i saw big black case..had note tagged near zipper of it..I took them in my hand ..something was written in it.. with most beautiful calligraphy, i have ever seen..but words in it made my life..
BE IRREPLACEABLE PERSON IN SOMEONE'S LIFE..
IF THEY LEAVE U, THEY NEED TO KNOW WHAT DAIMOND THEY LOST!!
-UR WELL WISHER
That words capture my heart..yes, i wanted to live a life like that..if someone leaves me they need to know my value..i should be irreplaceable in their heart..if i go somewhere..they need to miss me..they need to find me..but the thing is who will be that person..as i know..no one needs me..no one..i kept my thoughts aside..what i saw inside case really made my life..it was gift from a stranger..who gave whole world to me..it was GUITAR..my eyes twinkled in joy..
A GIFT TO MY BOY..WHICH NEVER GONNA LEAVE HIS SIDE..
MAKE ME PROUD MANU..
I got another note inside case..who are they? why they wanted me to gift this guitar..i have no idea..but trust me, they gave some thing which cannot be replaced by any..my new and first friend of my entire life was..my guitar..i hugged with all my heart..i had happiness, which i could ever express..i kissed it lovingly..thanks to the person..whoever gave it..it was one of the most memorable day of my life..the day where i got my Music for life..
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i was sitting under tree in front of my home..after coming from school..I was excited..to play this, i had run all over 2 kms, that was my craze for that guitar..but the thing is how to play this..I tried..how to hold it properly..Uff tough task..Manik relax..buddy we will do it..i had searched many books in library to use this..i remember seeing how to keep them..in one of the picture..a boy was holding it in professional way..he was drowned in it..i want to drown like that in music..i streamed one string..a sound came out..that said me u will be fine with me..i streamed next string..it said i will be for u ever..i continued play with other strings..each string said me something that I will protect u..that they love me..that they care for me..that they will be my strength..which gave me peace like never before..i started smiling with tears as i played each strings..it didn't said anything to me verbally..but i feel each string is saying we will be there for u..it was an optimum and most overwhelming moment to me..i got something which cannot be measured in words..i hugged it tightly..i would never let go this sounds, this strings, this guitar, this music away from me..whatever it takes..i won't let go this..i won't..each string became my family..which i carved one string became my mom, one string became my dad, one string became my sister, one string became my friend, one string became my love of life, last string will be my own flesh..i found a family in that strings of guitar..i truly got one..i will not find any family from now on..as i have all of them in them..i have a family..i'm not alone in this world..i'm not..my guitar is there for me..
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A new music teacher was appointed in Warrior High..i was most happiest soul on earth..most of them were not interested for all this..but for me, it was just like a moment i got with my mom..i jumped in joy, when i was alone in corridor..i was happy..now i can understand my friend in better way..i walked out..and saw same uncle.. I involuntarily smiled at him brightly..he is an angel for me..he is really..i ran to him..he was leaning to his car..i guess someone was there inside..but i didn't cared much to person..i don't intervene in other's personal life..i don't like it..or may i say, i fear to do that..
he twirled me in air..that was something i never experienced in my life..i enjoyed at seconds in my heart..my heart really had happiness..i was gleaming in joy..i would really want share this with mom..when she calls me next week..
So, how is champ? he asked me, as he made me sit on car bonnet..
i'm fine..how are u? i was really excited that he came to meet me..it was really special for me..
i'm fine..looks like 'Emperor' is too happy today?!! i liked the way he addressed me..it felt to good to hear that, unlike hearing unlucky, jerk, monster, bastard, rich spoil brat, arrogant, devil, happiness sucker, which i hear daily..
Oh! i'm really..u know i will get to know, how to play my guitar in better way..i added in joy..yes, small things really matters to me..its that i never show things..as no one is interested in that..as if i care..that Manik is lost somewhere..now i don't care what people call behind me or on my face..it doesn't make any difference behind me..but will definitely make difference if they say on my face..a real one..u can meet them in sick room..they are quite lot of students visit there..poor people need sympathy..all thanks goes to my angry issues..
that's the matter..Manik would u like to have lunch with me..if u really don't mind? he asked hesitantly..i saw his eyes for brief moment..i felt i can trust this man..he was really genuine at his words..i smiled at his hospitality..which i never found in my own family..
I would like to have one..with famous advocate..u see..he laughed at my words..as he opened door for me..he occupied driver seat..i looked back..there was a lady and small baby child..i smiled at her..she returned one great fully..i looked baby..that reminds me my sister muku..
Manik..meet my wife Ashwini and that's my son Sanskar..he gave small introduction..i smiled gladly..i was happy to new people, i was really..
Hi..Manik here..i waved to both..kid was around 3 i guess..he tried saying my name..like Maa..i laughed at his attempt..i loved this family..it felt like dream to me..is this how family looks in real..all happy..all together..if it is, i would like to have one..
So, Manik did u liked ur new Music teacher? he asked me as i started playing with small baby boy..i was never allowed touch Mukthi,, once i tried..i had ended up almost getting admitted in hospital..once again thanks goes to my dad..that's last i never touched her..or played with her..i feared to get black and blue under my father's hunter and his boots wrath..worst is all my life..i need to find place away from all this shit in this world..i really need one..
She is well behaved unlike from other teachers to me..that was strange..i said sadly..but i didn't gave hint of my sadness on face..i don't want to make any sad, who makes me smile..
So, u liked her??aunt asked me from behind..i loved the way she treats her son..when he was nagging at her for chocolates she was giving to me..it reminds me my mom..how i wish, she would be here with me..all time..
i don't know..maybe she is good or maybe not??!! all i wished she should be unlike other teachers..uff..i hope so..oh! malhotra , don't worry u have dad behind..who will make women run under finger tips against u..so, don't be that happy..my mind commanded..excellent..
lets see then..he drove to famous and lavish restaurant, which i ever dreamed..i blinked my eyes..seeing its interior..i loved it..they made me more comfortable with them..they were too nice..i liked being with them..they asked what i want and what not..even lady by his side was great women..with beautiful heart..she feed me from her hands..the food was exotic Maharashtrain food..for a change i loved eating them over my punjabi food..small baby was entertained by his dad..he made grumpy face, when his mom gave her attention to me..they looked so cute..at this moment i actually craved for my family..i wanted that lady to be my mom..and that man to be my dad..and little bundle as my sister..but alas..it wasn't..i didn't had right to even to think that moment also..i didn't..
They drove to my home..i invited them inside..but they refused as they were getting late..my smile became fake..that small time they gave me, was something i liked to have for much longer..only if time machine had stopped for me..i kissed that small baby..he will be like brother to me definitely..small baby..
Time to leave..Manik..he announced..i gulped my choking voice..which didn't let me say anything i wished to say him..i didn't know who was he? i didn't felt like asking..things need to be let go for destiny..if i'm destinated to meet him again, i will..i pacified my heart..which can only nod its head..it is well practiced with self console..u see..
Manik..would u mind sparing one pair of ur dress to me..lady next to him asked me..i nodded and bought one of my pair dress..i don't know why she asked..but i didn't minded giving one,as they gave me their time..i passed her..she was happy..
We are leaving for Spain..we won't be in India..that was most unexpected thing..they won't come to meet me again..i just bobbed my head..
Take care of urself..if u need anything..i'm still there for u..u don't need to hesitate..i'm just like ur servant..tho jo bolega mai karunga..okay? i didn't understand single word after first sentence..i gave my most dumb look to him..he understood..he ruffled my hairs..
Bodyguards will be around u in civil attire..the one u are seeing there..i looked the person..who he pointed out..he bowed his head..though he was away from me..who are this people..why do i need guards..i'm fine..whom i'm..i can take care of myself..i don't look capable but sorry dude..i'm used to it..
i don't need a bodyguard to look after my security..well i'm capable to look after myself..i don't need someone..a straight stern words..he was shocked for seconds..for god's sake..i'm not so typical 7 year child like others..who needs parents or nanny or caretaker to baby sit me..i'm well capable to do it..
but..he tried to reason..if dad comes to know, i will be in pieces..i'm done with tortures for life..i'm happy in whatever i have..i don't want pull anyone add my own miseries to life..i had enough..
i'm sorry sir..ap kon hai..muje nae patha hai..but i truly say, i really had good time with ur family..thanks for hospitality..which i never experienced in my life..but that doesn't mean u being this sweet..sorry, i'm not used to this sweet things..i'm sorry, i can't take ur bodyguards, u can take them back..i ended..they just smiled sadly..they were fighting lost battle with me..they got it..they bid a bye with tears..and kissed my cheeks..
bye..i shouted at them..they smiled widely..i gonna remember this people for sure..
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8.05..i sighed..this lady doesn't have time sense for sure..i'm waiting for her impatiently from last night..though i know she gonna come by 8 in morning..i walked to and fro..near school gate..i hit stone which came in my way..i looked near by bus stop..which is opposite to school gate..that scene made me teary..there were a couple..small boy was running behind his dad..as he took away his ball..where his mother was smiling with adoration..i just imagined me in that place..i missed that little happiness..i missed every small moment with parents..i missed my dad's love..i missed a family noment..i missed being a kid of my age..how i wished, i had normal family..like others..where mom will be my side always..dad being grumpy for it..wow! does that family really exist..i don't know..
Hello baby bear..most melodious voice grasped my all attention from that couple..i looked back..my life came back..i saw her after complete three years..that was my wait to see her..she ran to me finally..i have my mom, in real..she is here..i was engulfed in her arms..i wanted to cry in her lap, yell in anger for leaving me here alone, to get excite to finally see her..or dance with happiness or tears..i don't know..all i did was climb to her arms..cry all my heart..i really missed her..i really do..only she knows what bahana she gave to entire family and made it for me..i was really glad and happy for her gesture..i was really..it was moment like i got water in a desert..my wait was long but always worth for this women in my life..
I missed u Mamma bear..i cried in her crook..as she walked me to her car..she asked driver to drive to airport, we both are going to her native Bengal..in short kolkata..city of joy..we talked and talked..till i feel sleep in her lap in flight..i have no idea about reasons she gave to dad and mukthi..but she is her fully for me..all her undivided attention to me..i love this side of her's..she makes me smile like no one..her bickering for small thing..her ever stylish looks..her ever diva look..her way of being crazy, is all i love about..her way of being happy with small things, make me love her more..her care..her concern..her love for me..is infinity to me..no one can love me like her..no one..
i spent my best one week with her..with variety of foods..maybe its famous rasgulla or exotic fish fries..i'm already loving this food..she was making everything and anything, which i asked her for..Nani and Nanu, where best..they played with me unlike my dadu and dadi..they all hate me or fear to show their love to me..i don't know..all i have seen them, is ignore me..i don't mind now..i'm used to people now..i played with her cousin kids..i loved being here with people who like being with me..i celebrated dussehra..with mom..she looked beautiful in white saree going with red bangels..she looked divine..i loved everything about place..especially boat ride..huff that was love..we saw a movie..we walked along great shopping malls till local shoppers..had pizza till road side pani puri..trust me everything was epitome of its own beauty..i love to come here again for sure..and how week ended, i had no idea..it felt like i closed my eyes..and when i opened i was standing in same place, where we started..she was again crying..but this time i had smile..i had memories, till i meet her next time..surely i'm gonna miss her..but everything comes to end to start new..that's how life works..i had admitted this fact in my heart..
Take care Manik..Mamma loves u hamesha yaad rakna..i bobbed my head with a smile..i wanted her to stay with me..tell her my each day, i want to tell my excitement when i learnt new things in school..and off course my Jaan..my guitar..i want her to be at home waiting for me, serve me a some snacks z make me sleep in her lap, I want her to tell me lubly or stories .. I want her whenever i get treated in wrong way in school to complaint about them to her..i needed her by my side, whenever I get fever in midnight, I need her to wipe my tears l, when crying loudly..i really needed one..but my happiness is always like butterfly..which have less time to cherish this beautiful world..
I will try to come back soon..apna kayal rakna..kuch bhi math karna, maids haina, ghar pe..ask them whatever u want..jab tume lagega kuch share karna hai..i'm there for u baby..i will be there for my baby bear..suna..i'll there for u..she said cupping my face..i smiled at her concern and affection..i kissed her cheeks..
I will miss u mom..jaldi wapas anna..i'll be waiting for u..i didn't corrected her lines..that i stay alone..she is happy, i can't let that smile go away from her..i will never ..i smiled with great difficulty..she hugged me once and kissed my forehead..got back to car..car faded in streets as i sat on my knees..come back mom..i need u..i yelled in deserted roads in dark..but she was gone..gone away from me again..distance really makes u crave for more..i composed myself, as i walked to home..
oh! look who is here? devil is back..i shivered hearing is tone, he was sitting royally on stairs of door..i gulped..Manik u will pull it..yes, u can..stand by ur side..no one gonna come for u..u need to stand for urself..u need to fight Ur own battle..i told my brain..my straight face shocked him..he really didn't expected that from me..but he forgot, he made this Manik..who don't need anyone to take care.. who had created monster image to world..who had put me in all misery and tears..who made strong than before..he thought keeping alone make me weak..sorry bastard daddy..ur wrong..u judged me wrong..a person, who walks alone..becomes more stronger than u think in his fight..i was becoming stronger in my thoughts..i know to take decisions..i know how to behave and how not to..i know how deal with cruel world like never before..i know how deal with creepy shits around me..i know how deal with myself and emotions..Now i'm the ruler of myself not anyone..my decisions..my life..
Hello Mr. Raj Malhotra..what a pleasant surprise? kaafi budde lag rahe ho..i laughed much to his irritation..he dared to challenge me..to Manik Malhotra..now i will show, with whom he dealing with..i won't let him rule my life again..never..
Manii..he tried to slap me...but i holded before hand..returning his own deadly glares..his bad..he proved me wrong to world..and i not showing how wrong i can be..to him..not happening guyss..
I'm not same scared kitten Manik, who left Mumbai years back..this Manik Malhotra is different from that kid..who used get scare of u..i'm saying aloud to u..I'm no more same Manik..who is naive..who would tolerate ur dirty shits or tortures..I'm now capable to stand myself..and now Ur way for exist is that way..i showed him his way..damn! man i loved that expression on his face..i pushed him aside..about to walk..where i heard hunter hit on ground..i looked back..he was standing with hunter..
Looks like little scared Manik forgot his best days..he said hitting hunter on ground..i rolled my eyes..but inside i was shaken to hell..i was scared but i didn't put them..i gave my black look..i will thank my expressionless face thousand times..it worked..he was shocked and amused as i stood against my fear being fearless..
How can i even forget that days Malhotra..don't worry..i will remember of ur tortures till my last breath..but i would like to say, u gonna repay for my each tears..the way i did years back..and now please do honors of leaving..i badly need a rest..u know journey and all..i did drama..where actually i was tired physically and mentally..but i showed exact opposite to him..
he tired to hit me..but i was strong and smart enough to deal with him and it..in seconds i pulled hunter in my hand..he shoot glare instant..he didn't expected that..i hit hunter more furiously on ground..he shivered...like i used to do..years back..Manik..good going..take it smoothly..don't let ur fear, over power..u will face it..if not now..then never..i encouraged myself..this is how i became..self console and composure..i hit again till he reaches car..he feared seeing my rage..i never knew..i can be that anger..i hit till his driver opened door for him..where he sat on his seat...driver was most happiest man on earth..
Warning de raha hu..dubra muje darne ya pir torture karne ka socha bhi na..u gonna face real monster, which u created for others..u never know what i'm potential at..so, think hundred times before dealing with me..THIS MANIK MALHOTRA IS CHANGED VERSION..U CAN'T HANDLE ME ANYMORE..OR U CAN RULE ME..I smashed car door on his face..where his driver covered his face to stop his giggle..because a boy of 8 year can rule 40 year man alone.. was simply not a joke.. that was my capacity..
Driver uncle..mera pyaare dad ko ghar thak safe poncha dijaye..bechare bohuth weak lagre hai..hain thoda pyaarse..u know he needs extra care..don't worry Malhotra? driver uncle apko ghar safe poncha denge..i glared at him..if looks could kill..my dad would've been ashes by my look..driver uncle winked at me, and sat drove away not before..
U gonna pay for this Manik..he yelled at me..i threw hunter inside car..
Try me..i roared, everything around me flinched, my dad held his heart securely..i walked to home without turning back..this is how Monster Manik Malhotra was born..glad he born..i won't be any coward, i will face the world with straight face..i'm ready for any challenge now..i'm..
i took my guitar..my peace..my solace..i headed towards terrace..i feel refresh..music is all, can keep me sane..gave me strength to fight against world..i can never stop thanking music..i can never..i'm not professional..but trust me..i'm happy what i know..i played until i my tears started rolling..i hate being this..i hate what i' m becoming.. now world gonna hate me more..as melody hits my heart..i was at peace..each string was saying u did it..u will do it..u will be fine..music started speaking to my heart..to my entire body system..this feels better and good..I care for non now..
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Good morning everyone..i saw principal in our class..i was least interested person in class..i dig my head into my books..which i feel more interested than shit going around me..i sit alone in last bench..no one accompanies me..all thanks to anger issues i have..everyone will scare for me..today i care a bit to it..i mind my own business..until they pull wrong string..
suddenly someone occupied place next to me..i looked the person..first thing i noticed in that person, was its most notorious eyes..and then a genuine smile towards me..with hands towards me for handshake..i looked him puzzled..where entire class looked at him, as if he had grown horns..
Cabir..Cabir Dhawan..he gave an introduction..oops! that was not expected..
Manik..here..i added bluntly..gave him handshake being polite..whole class mouth went wide..that was first..but trust me, he was the first one to welcome and greet me that way..that attitude of his, what i loved the most..
dude..i'm like looking joker? he asked out of nowhere..i narrowed a look to him..what shit he was talking, was a question..as whole class still locking at him with open mouth..and gossiping all possible things that comes to their minds..Huff..breath Manik..
ur not looking..u are already one among them..okay! that was not expected by me..he laughed like manic towards Manik..fuck malhotra control ur brain..was comment of my heart..i rolled my eyes at my stupid heart and brain..never ending fights..
done! i have better works in life..i said moving my gaze to book again..
as in damn boring history book..he commented..he is irritating shit yaar..
is anything irking u jerk?? i asked him..he looked at me and then board..
ya..i'm getting bored..
so, what should i do?
would u mind to have some fun..other than finding them in this book of urs..he lifted my book in air from his forefinger and thumb..i snatched book back..but definitely not from idea..i was really bored..and this stupid alexandar and his army..why the hell they attacked? why the hell it should be in book? to start another war..history f**ks man..
i guess u are in..he said..to me i nodded my head not so surely..
so, whose the target? he asked me..
I hate whole damn staff..if i wish..i will slap each one for treating me in wrong way at instruction of my dad..because he is the trustee of the school..they can't lose their job u see..i will get countless detentions..i will be hit by iron scale..i will be made rounds in ground without food, till school ends..i will be made to write empth assignments of others students..i will be made to many clerk works..so on so forth..
Oh! i didn't expected that..still lets have some fun dude..mind me get out of school in lunch break..i need to buy something..he said mischievously..that twinkling eyes had its own style..i nodded my head..
What the hell are u purchasing? i asked him..as he brought sweet box and added something to it..which i don't know..but he kept mum..
have patience yaar..he walked innocently to staff room..where i walked with class room assignments, which i was ordered to bring..fuck fatty buffalo knows how to assault kids..in all this i had eyes on cabir..where staff were gulping jelebi..as if they never ate anything from years..i wish i could change geography of teaching stuff, like i did to students who tried rag me..or bad mouthed me..
and next i found myself stealing keys from staff room..all left staff room as bell rang telling them they all had classes..i passed keys to cabir..without anyone noticing it..while Math teacher gali went on like sahastranama to me for no reason..i was rolling my eyes..i need to leave asap..
few minutes later..i could hear teachers howling to open washroom door..no one left..i looked cabir for answer..what he showed me..made me laugh at guts..that was first, someone made me laugh till i had tears in corner of eyes..i ran with other students to witness epic scene of life..i laughed fits..they getting troubled with stomach ache..they badly needed to use washroom..alas it is locked and I threw key's in principal office..and no one is aware of it..poor staff and principal..
Oh! cabiraa...i laughed more..he stopped laughing but he was admiring me..that made me stop abruptly..i looked him..
Smile suits u more than ur sadu face..u look more handsome and real with ur smile..keep smiling..sorry..i will never let anyone to touch that precious smile of urs..i was shocked to listen that..his eyes were promising me..i believed him..is actions and word made me believe..my second friend..whom i can't forget and who i won't let go in my life..
will u be my friend? he asked me..i could only nod my head giving best brotherly hug to him..
Cabiraaa..naam tho sunae hogna...that's my Bira..that's how i got a brother from other mother..super duper notanki..full package to my depressing life..life becomes color full with pataka friend..why they said it..i got it, from the day he entered into my life..he had been there before me..for each problem i faced..my mirror image..he knows me better than any..he became my crime partner..he became a part of my life..he will always have special place in my heart..no one can replace his place..no one can..buddy for life..he was..i will keep him happy with all my zeal..the way he always did to me..life became better..i became stronger..there is no one who could bully me..it maybe any staff or students..they don't want wrath of Cabir Dhawan against me..all are aware of his 'things'..he truly protected my like brother..he is my Savior..
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Bhai..i heard a shor of excitement..as i entered Malhotra Mansion after 3 years..a place which is in memory for my each tears, last time I was thrown out of home in heavy rain, for Last treat I gave him that night with his hunter, damn this man hates me in full infinity..i could see mukuthi running towards me..i loved, that happiness in her eyes and smile..i missed her..mom had once bought her..we enjoyed lot that time in kolkata three years back..my bonding with her grown in best level..her never ending calls..weekly once letters bought us near..off course..which is it yet not noticed by Raj Malhotra..
i twirled her in air..she still tiny..the laugh of her's filled my ears and heart..my baby sister..
i missed u so much bhai..she exploded loud to my ears..i smiled brightly..i gave piggy ride as i entered mansion..mom was setting things in dinning table..where Raj Malhotra was busy glaring me..i give damn..i walked to dinning table made her sit on chair..
How are u babe? i kissed her cheeks..she slapped my shoulders..i laughed at her..
Manik..mind ur tongue..u are talking to my wife..and she is elder..is this the way u greet ur mother? he retreated..uff..drama for life starts again..i rolled my eyes...
And u mind not forget she is mom too..so, i can call her however i wish..a stern tone..enough to shut old sack..he looked older than my mom..ethna gussa karega tho young thodi hoga..my heart commented..i giggled..
Manik..behave..he is ur dad..mom added..okay..she really didn't meant that..
ya..D.A.D..i said sarcastically..mukthi giggled..
Manik..u need to take care of Mukthi..very well..no fight..no teasing..no pulling each others hairs..no pranking around..no ragging others.. understood u both.. strict mommy is back..mukthi pouted..I smiled, knowing how will we behave after their departure..just waiting them to go from here..both are leaving for south Africa..they want setup business there..much to my relief..I won't see my dad.. god's grace..
They both left..and our time started..I used take care of her really well.. I used to take, where she asks me..we used enjoy talk lot..tease lot..breaking each other's toy..she being baby..I roaming around to feed her..I helping her in assignments..I making her sleep..waking her up..getting her ready for school and drop her..
I took care of her like own small baby..one scratch on her, I could burn world..I pampered her lot..I make sure that she never missed her parents'..I had been her guide..I played every role, which makes my baby girl happy and comfortable with me..I did everything a parent need to do..how I wish she being my own daughter rather than my baby sister..I would've kept her more or less like princes for sure.. nevertheless..I will keep her like one.. I will never say no to her..I will never..
And she was no less..I was her world..she used tell each small thing before doing anything and everything..she could read my mind and heart..like the way I can do her's..she was very possessive and protective about me like ways I was for her..my love was equal to her concern and care for me..my tears used hurt her the most..she avoids accidents, Because she knows I can't bare that..either way things were same to us..she became more like a friend with whom I can talk openly.. if somebody knew about The Manik Malhotra..it was just her..she knew my each weakness my strength..she knew everything and anything about me.. my tastes, my preference..my stories..my theories..she was well aware..like way I knew each detail of her life..it maybe her crushes to boyfriends list or it maybe things she uses or she spends..each detail was updated..we were more than close friends..we did every wrong together..we did every right together..i was there for before any, she was no less against me..I trust her blindly..she trsut me blindly..that was our transparcy in our relationship..we talked our heart that was very bond..my happiness was in her hands..my whole life was in her hsnds..it was best four years with my sister..I had spent..now we both were ready to join Space..I was one year elder to her..but still we managed to be in Same class as mukthi skipped pre school..perks of being Raj Malhotra's daughter..and soon devil was back to my life...life turned 360, which I could ever imagine in my life..
In all this..I had saved good amount as I worked in many libraries, restaurant, bars..so on..I never depended on single penny of my dad..I breathed with own hard earned money..I kept something for myself away from Mukthi was this..she was too naive, who always believed her dad..u can't make any daughter against their dad..it's something called universal truth..same happened with me..I gave up..but nothing changed our relationship..until..
the angel entered my life when I turned 20..my love life entered my world.. my Jaanu..my Nandini..my music..my soul..my heart..my heartbeat..
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This is all I could write..I know it's not manan..but it was peak in past of Manik before Nandini murthy entering that world of his..from next update..it will be from after anniversary, when Manik left India..some before happenings..I try to write little fast forward as I don't won't drag things in past..because present needs more time to write..
Raj Malhotra's flashback starts from third chapter from this part..till then suspense hide behind the curtains..u can still guess..let's see who guess, near to happened in past..
Two major important people entered into plot..Huff..u will get to know who are they in real in next chapter..I guess so..but u can put Ur guess inline too..
Missed manan or kids?? I tho both..no worries manan babies will be back even kids in next chapter...
So how was update I tired to make it simple..I don't to make things exaggerate now only.. because future holds more pains for Manik..I mean in past..
Meet u all in next update..I will be waiting to read ur comments..please tell me how it feels..good or bad..and give me some time.. I will show Nandini's side story too..but be patient enough to read in parts.. that's all I wanna say..
Bye people good night..sleep tight..not before pressing star button..
Lot's of love ..