Sitting there
staring
at my computer screen.
Waiting
holding my breath
hoping he's there.
Day after day
his username:
vostede sabe que quere
Galician for
'you know you want'.
I know what I want
I want him to be on
to talk to me
call me sweetheart,
honey,
my dearest,
to come to my house
hug me
tell me all is well
Reassure me.
Instead
he ignores me
turns the other way
walks away from me.
I don't get it
what did I ever do?
why does he hate me so?
Why does he avoid me?