as soon as it stopped blinking red.
he told me,
"you have to listen."
and so i did.
i was listening too much to even notice.
notice what he was doing to me.
he wouldn't stop.
i kept asking him to.
i did. i really did.
the memory haunts me every single day.
i still haven't told jacob.
i didn't go back.
why do you think i've been having these 'dreams'?
i can't tell him.
not yet, not yet, jacob.