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Have you ever been so angry at yourself that you wished to have a clone just so you could punch yourself in your stupid face?
Have you?
No?
Well I have.
I could not believe that I had been so fucking clueless and naive.
I mean who would've thought that Max had feelings for me.
Well apparently
Everybody.
Everyone around me knew well everyone except me.
My mind goes back to the conversation I had with Beatrix.
"Does Max like me" I ask Beatrix and hear her gasp.
And then silence.
"Well answer the damn question! does he??" I ask again. I hear someone shifting and then a loud laugh.
A loud male laugh.
Salvatore.
Sal is laughing.
So I am on speaker.
"Did Sal know?"
More silence.
"Could you please fucking say something" I was getting really impatient.
"So you finally know? Huh princess!!?!" Sal asks
"So it's really true?" I mumble still in a state of denial.
Sal laughs again before answering "oh it's true alright! The poor bastard has liked you since high school. I mean how clueless could you be? I can't believe it took you this long to figure it out."
Since high school??
We went to the same highschool in America but it was only for a year.
He and Sal were seniors when I had started highschool.
And we never had any classes together. I mean we rarely saw each other.
"Who else knew? Did you know about this Beatrix? Why didn't you tell me?"
I know that if Sal knew about it then Beatrix would have definitely known but I still asked anyway.
"Yes I knew, Sal told me and so did Kara. I never told you because it wasn't really my place to and Yasmina was not even in highschool when I found out so she also never knew. But she heard me and Sal talking a few days ago" Beatrix says sighing.
"Bu- but- I, we-him" I seemed to have forgotten how to talk.
"It's OK Nanette, take a deep breath" Beatrix instructs me softly so I don't panic.
I felt kind of betrayed by her but I also felt like this dumb girl who has no idea with what's happening around her which made me really mad.
So I take a deep breath and ask again "But we never talked in highschool, we barely saw each other, barely exchanged a few sentences! This is so outrageous".
This time Sal is the one who answers while snickering "you mean you barely saw him. I mean how could you see him, you always had a book in your hand . Wouldn't spear anyone a glance. Come on think about it why would me and Max, the most popular kids in highschool hang out in the library during lunch? I mean don't get me wrong Mrs. Irons was hot! but she wasn't that hot that I would skip lunch for her. It was because you were always in there."
What the hell?
I always assumed that Sal came to flirt with Beatrix and also the librarian Mrs. Irons since we were always in the library during lunch and Max being his friend accompanied him. It had never crossed my mind that he would actually come to see me.
Sal continued speaking "But you being the clueless girl you are never noticed. But I am glad that I went to the library with Max because if I hadn't I would have never met the love of my life."
Aww that's so cute.
"Who Mrs. Irons" Beatrix asks Sal and if i wasn't so stressed I would've laughed.
They start bickering and I cut the call.
Man this was such a mess! I never had a boy like me.
I mean everyone in our school knew who I belonged to so no one really bothered with me.
I don't know if I should laugh or cry. My life has started to feel like an episode of some stupid daily soap to me.
Max and Leon hadn't been around much which I was glad about.
I didn't know if I could behave myself in front of Max . I was sure that I would lash out at him which would not turn out good cause he could snap my neck in a second with ease.
Would Leon protect me if his brother tried to hurt me?!?
Did he even know about Max's feelings for me???
I mean he was already in college when I was in highschool so it was unlikely for him to know.
But if he did would he share me with Max!!? If they did what could I do to stop them I had no control in this situation.
What about Yasmina? Would she hate me? I didn't want that to happen.
My head hurt from all this thinking and to make matters worse, Adele had called to tell me that they had already set a date for the wedding.
I hadn't recovered from the first failed attempt of wedding and a new one was here already.
This time I was sure there would be no interruptions. And I wasn't sure if that was a good thing.
Thinking about my miserable life was tiring and with these thoughts sleep overtook my senses and I fell asleep.
_-_&_-_-_-&_-_
I think it was early in the morning or really late at night when I heard the door being opened.
My heart rate increased slightly but I still pretended to be asleep.
I smelled him before he even came closer to me. That same woody earthy scent entered my nostrils overwhelming me.
Leon.
It smelled like Leon but also of something else. Something coppery or irony??
What was this smell??
It was overwhelming Leon's natural scent.
What was it??
Oh god! Was it blood?
Was it his?
Or someone else's?
I am jolted out of my thoughts by the bathroom door being shut.
Should I go see if he is hurt?
Wouldn't you like it if he is? My conscience questions?
Would I ?
No I wouldn't! I might not like Leon but I don't want him dead or hurt. I am not that cruel.
He might have tried to choke me but him and I both know he could have done worse.
"Well that's comforting." My conscience sarcastically says. I ignore her.
Taking a deep breath I get out of the bed and shiver violently. I don't know if the shiver was because of the sudden lack of heat or was it because I was extremely scared.
I didn't really wanna know.
I reach the bathroom door and I could hear the shower running.
Maybe I should let him shower in peace. Yes, that sounds like a great idea. I should. I totally should.
So I turn back but my conscience screams a single word "coward" which turns be back again.
I was no Coward. My legs may be shaking badly but that's because of this short nighty.
Yes it's because of the nighty nothing else.
So I knock annnd... No answer.
I knock louder but still no answer. My mind's begins to think of scenarios like Leon laying in the shower too injured to move, extremely hurt.
So I do the first thing that comes to my mind.
I open the door and rush inside.
And the sight in front of me makes me freeze.
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