I stayed motionless for I don't fucking know how long. My mind trying to process what he said and when it did, it sent my heart breaking into bits. Did he mean that? I hope not because I don't know how will I handle it if he does. Everything we have will just flush down the drain and I don't want that to happen. I love Zach. He is my life. He made me happy, made me feel loved. He is the guy that finally accepted and I am never going to be ready to lose him that soon.
Maybe he just said that because he is angry. He loves me and I know he didn't mean that, right? Soon he'll cool off and we'll settle this calmly...hopefully. It still didn't subside the hurt I felt though.
Snapping out of my stupor and pushing aside the pain in my chest like I always do, I headed to our room - if you still call it 'ours'.
For god's sake! Stop being negative!
Knocking gently at the door, his hard breathing is all I hear. "Zach, look I'm sorry. I didn't mean to." I apologized but he didn't respond. "Look, I know what I did is wrong and it is also very wrong of me to bring that up, I'm sorry. I should've known better but I really don't mean it. Zach...please open the door. I want to talk to you. Please let me in" I pleaded but he didn't respond a bit. The room became eerily quiet and after a while of begging him, I gave up.
"Fine...let's just...talk when you're ready" I sighed heavily before going to the guestroom with a very heavy feeling.
*****
Waking up the next day, Zach already left for work even though I woke up so early just to catch up with him. I guess he's still angry at me. Hopefully though, he'll be fine once he comes home.
Sighing sadly as I walk down to the kitchen, wearing the dress the band gave me on my birthday along with the necklace, I was surprised when all the house keepers are back.
I am happy but saddened at the same time. Happy to have Liz to talk to again but sad with the fact that Zach doesn't have any plan to make ammends to me.
Eating solemnly, I couldn't get his hurtful words out of my mind.
Liz noticed and tried to lighten up my mood.
"There's a swimming pool in the right side backyard, let's go for a swim. I'm sure you'll enjoy it" Liz gushed as she pulled me away. I just let her. It's better to distract myself than mourn over something only time can heal.
At the sight of the pool, I instantly became excited. It was so massive and beautiful. The blue water is sparkling with the faint light from above.
"Let's go!!" Liz screamed a enthusiastically as she ran to the pool and jumping with a splash.
Laughing at her childish action, I was about to do the same when I realized I don't want to get these babies wet.
Taking my dress off along with my jewelry necklace, I jumped into the pool in only my two piece.