I have a wall you cannot see
Because it's deep inside of me.
It blocks my heart on every side
And helps emotions there to hide.
You can't reach in, I can't reach out.
You wonder what it's all about.
The wall I built that you can't see
Results from insecurity.
Each time my tender heart was hurt
The scars within grew worse and worse.
So stone by stone, I built a wall,
That's now so thick it will not fall.
Please understand that it's not you,
Continue trying to break through.
I want so much to show myself,
And love from you will really help.
So bit by bit, chip at my wall,
Till stone by stone it starts to fall.
I know the process will be slow,
It's never easy to let go
Of hurts and failures long ingrained
Upon ones heart from years of pain.
I'm so afraid, to let you in.
I know I might get hurt again.
I try so hard to break the wall,
But seem to get nowhere at all.
For stone upon each stone I've stacked,
And left between them not a crack.
The only way, to make it fall,
Are imperfections in the wall.
I did the best I could to build
A perfect wall, but there are still
A few small flaws, which are the key
To breaking through the wall, to me.
Please use each flaw, to cause a crack,
To knock a stone off of the stack.
For just as stone by stone was laid
With every hurt, with every pain;
So stone by stone the wall will break,
As love replaces every ache.
Please be the one, who cares enough
To find the flaws, no matter what.
-Rachel N. Bentley